brave battling babes get even better without the booze!

[jesuswhatnext]

10 weeks ago i started a thread asking for help - i was in a very desperate place, totally dependent on alchohol, unhappy, lonely and floundering around trying to make sense of it all. i was in danger of losing everything i hold dear.

in those few short weeks, i have got my life back and picked up a few computer friends along the way - we help each other, support each other, and laugh and cry together - if you would like to join us, please feel free - no judging, preaching, sermonising or moralising - we are simply ordinary people with a bloody awful illness!

hello jem, thank you...

Red

You just click 'Contact poster' ------------> above on the blue bar.

MN send me a message from you and I reply. So, you could send me your e-mail address, confidentially and I can then send you the list. Only you and I will 'see' the message you send to me.

It won't be 'public'

Sounds great, thanks for explaining that!

...can we do that now mouse? Promise you won'tr grass up who I really am!!! I am such a paranoid android!

OK, I am going to try contacting mouse and see what happens. Wish me luck, argh!

Or I would if she had updated her profile! Will wait until we are given the go ahead!

morning all - not sure about being here today!

TODAY I WILL NOT BE DRINKING!!

thanks miflaw - im afraid that i wasnt much help last night, i got 'scared' i cant allow anything to threaten my soberity, i am so sorry to be so selfish, but its still quite new to me and i too feel out of my depth when people need help!

sorry!

dont be sorry
sounds very sensible to me

TODAY I WILL NOT BE DRINKING

I feel bad for shitting on your thread

hey jwn...last night was a bit full on wasn't it. My tenants turned up so i missed most of it, but you were there! You are fab, and strong, and dunno whwt i want to say so will now bugger off.

friends land in half an hour...

Hang on!!! Not done it yet, DS and his tube feed needs me, two secs!!!

I swear I shall not tell a soul algee.

please stop trinity...

how you feeling thios morning?

Hi JWN, totally agree that it can get quite scary. I was just reading it this morning whereas most of you were following it in real-time which must have been extremely unsettling. You need to do what's right for you - you and your sobriety are your number one priority. Really don't want you to be scared off though!

trinity - right, am going to get a bit bossy here! Stop putting yourself down, stop being so hard on yourself, stop thinking that you are been judged on this thread. Start to like yourself, start being kind to yourself. We are here for you!

"MIFLAW - with all due respect and please don't take this as a criticism or judgement of you, your post could be a gritty northern drama. It's something I'd watch and think, 'oh, how awful'. I never thought that it 'could' happen or even to me to whatever degree."

The most frightening thing about my story is that, in the context of problem drinking, it really isn't that bad.

I'm 36. Joe was 40. He died this year. I didn't.

See?

I also sometimes see newcomers in meetings who are, say, 40 or 50 and I think, fuck me, how did you cope? I was 27 when I came to AA (and 28 when I stayed), had been drinking regularly only since I was 17, and was already convinced that drinking the way I did was a young man's game and I was no longer a young man. The thought of carrying that on till I was 40, let alone the chance of it getting progressively worse (as it almost certainly would have) is not one I like to entertain.

JWN - you started this thread. You have already been a massive help to loads of people, including me. Don't beat yourself up about not doing enough.

LIST

Sorry to ignore the posts of those in need........

You have to pay to be able to 'Contact poster', £5 a year.

I will set up a MN email account in hotmail or alike and post the address so those who want the list can email me outside of MN and I'll reply that way. Save you all spending £5.

Again, sorry for going off topic.

Thanks for that mouse. Am feeling that JWN is feeling today!

Me too.

JWN if you decide to duck out/ keep a low profile for a short while we will keep your seat for you!

JWN - it was your initial post and subsequent ups and downs that have helped people like myself face up to our drinking, so that in itself is something pretty darned amazing.

This thread and the others before it have helped me to accept that what I've been doing to myself isn't on - I've read and identified with each and every one of you at some point so how can I deny I'm hurting myself? We're all here for pretty much the same reasons.

I can see that googling myself into oblivion whilst typing in 'symptoms of liver disease' and lying on online tests isn't what most people do on a regular basis.

I'm extremely grateful to have you all here to share my feelings with and in turn hope you know I am here for you all too.

Oh and today I will not be drinking!

JWN Thank you for sharing that you too felt 'out of your depth' makes me feel less of a wimp But Thank you even more for starting this thread, I guess it's bound to get gritty and shitty, thats the nature of the beast. Please accept a Fairy Hug from me

Feel like everyone's a bit blue this morning. Come and post and tell me how you are feeling. Let's do a bit of gratitude!

Things I am grateful for:
I am sober.
I am going to a meeting tonight.
DH and I had a really good chat last night.
I have very good friends (here and RL!)
The sun is shining.
I work for a lovely company.
My hair is red
I am having Shepherd's Pie for dinner!

Some big and small things there... What are you grateful for today?

Right, have got my arse into gear.

Here is my e-mail - [email protected]. I'm not linking it for obvious reasons.
If you would like the list, e-mail me and let me know who you are on here please so I don't assume I have a stalker!!

All e-mails will be confidential. Nothing will be discussed on board.

MIFLAW - that is the saddest thing of all isn't it? That your story is not the worst or most frightening.

All

I am sober,
DC's are adorabel and love me unconditionally,
The sun is shining here too,
DH is supporting me,
We sold our other house,
We sacked our shite builders on Saturday,
We have a wonderful family on both sides,
I have all of you.

Pay it forward.............. I offered my sister, single mother of 4 since her DP was killed in a motorbike accident, DD's good as new push bike.

It's too small for her now. Sister asked how much I wanted for it. Nothing. I want it to have a good home.

She cried.

PAY IT FORWARD, no matter how little.