brave battling babes get even better without the booze!

[jesuswhatnext]

10 weeks ago i started a thread asking for help - i was in a very desperate place, totally dependent on alchohol, unhappy, lonely and floundering around trying to make sense of it all. i was in danger of losing everything i hold dear.

in those few short weeks, i have got my life back and picked up a few computer friends along the way - we help each other, support each other, and laugh and cry together - if you would like to join us, please feel free - no judging, preaching, sermonising or moralising - we are simply ordinary people with a bloody awful illness!

's ok. Very conscious of how tight my jeans feel, so it'll do me good. I'm hardly going to waste away...

Enjoying an N&T; going to hide it when they arrive though in case they think i'm on the hard stuff...how times have changed!!

nom nom

salmon and huge amounts of brocolli

nom nom!!
pft

Ooh christi, that butternut squash sounds lovely. Ever thought of a job in catering?

Glad I came back, feel almost giddy!

that was yummy

I have always wanted to work in food as I love it. However, it is hard to get a job because it's so low paid, wouldn't cover the rent. Whereas the job I was going for might have meant that finally instead of spending down savings I might have been able to move forward.

You all sound very upbeat today!

I am not enjoying being sober tonight, but I am not drinking so that's what matters I guess.

Tomorrow I am off to visit MIL. It is her 80th birthday so SILs and I are taking her and FIL out for lunch. Note my dp is very conveniently out of the country so he is missing out on all the fun

maddogs...enjoy the knowledge of no hangover, no 'forgotten' conversations, no generally being out of control...

Have fun venus!

...think my sodding new tenants might have pulled out on me...

well at least you can eat now algee

I'm trying to Algee! Trying not to dwell on the negatives.

Jobs in food are low paid if you are cheffing in someone else's kitchen. What about something like specialist catering for small parties. What about an ice-cream van that goes to weddings and parties?

nah, no tenants, no food!

positives far outweigh the negatives, just difficuklt to remember that sometimes maddog.

venus when is dh back? You managing?

Hello everyone.
Week 7 for me, so far. Feeling amazing. No alcohol and no desire for any at this point. That may change but not today. Lovely to catch up on last few pages with all our trials and tribulations. I have reached saturation point with diet coke and have now "discovered" pink lemonade. Had a laugh when i was buying it as thought initially, oooh that's a bit pricey for some pink fizzy bubbles then stood in front of the wine shelf to remind myself how much I used to spend on alcohol. I did laugh. And then did some maths and realised I should cancel the pension and open a vineyard asap.
Carry on everyone!

I really want to drink :(

Have to drive and pick ds up at 8.30 so can't til then.

If I feel like this then I think I will need to.

Sorry, I feel like a failure. Not odne it yet but can't see me being able not to.

Good you have to wait till 8.30. You will be fine. Have some tea? have you got any herb tea? Could you try that?

Don't want to post tonight really as I am just exhausted. I hate working full time. Flat is a tip, I've managed to clean the kitchen and do a load of laundry but that's about finished me off. Feel sick and headachey and miserable. Now going to read to dd and then might crash out myself. We're an hour ahead of you here so although it's ridiculously early, it's not as ridiculous as it seems.

Stay strong those of you who are wobbling. i am thinking of you. Sorry can't be of much support to anyone tonight.

Having a detox cordial

\I'm crashing
fuck it

why cqant I just be a functioning alcoholic

fuck it all
the dryer isn't working now

Sorry trinity.

Poor you.

I'm so sorry.

I am having wine I'm a failure too! I told DD1 that we might be able to move and get a garden one day, she asked today if I got the job so we could buy a house with a garden