Hi, I'm a mum of 2 and I recently had a termination. I was so confused at the time, my husband didn't want to have another child, I was going through depression. I felt like I didn't want to have another child, I didn't feel any bond with the baby but I felt that termination was not the right choice for me either, I didn't know what to do, I was in a really bad state, in the end I did what my husband wanted me to do and had a termination. And I regret it ever since. Just as I didn't love the baby when I was pregnant, I started loving it when I lost it. I feel pain like never before, I feel guilt and anger. I now feel like I became a mother of three but one of my children died because of me and I really can't cope with it. Counselling doesn't help as they only see it from a biological point of view, to them it wasn't a baby. As mad as it may sound I feel that the only thing that could heal me is to have another baby but only if my husband would agree to have another one. I so desperately want to have another child now I know what I lost. Are there any mums that felt the same and had another child after termination? Would you mind sharing your experience with me? Would having another child help with the loss or would it make it worse? Could I please ask for comments only from mums that have had a similar experience.