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Totally's GRADS...lets handhold thru this....

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boodleboot · 23/08/2009 23:15

Ok girls....time to get started....

lee stressy amyboo totally

and of course any other ladies who have recently had a Big Scary Fat Positive and will now literally be counting the days to healthy babe in arms, welcome y'all

i have no idea how i am going to make it but i know that i will need handholding....and knowing lots of you already i know you will too ha ha

{Totally's conception thread got me thus far with lots of handholding and i love them for that....}

BRING ON THE BABIES.....

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boodleboot · 13/09/2009 18:35

just got home from the hospital. after the scan at ten fifteen on friday they admitted me straight to hospital for emergency surgery. me and DH saw the bean and a good strong heartbeat but sadly it was growing in my left tube. they removed baby and tube.

had terrible post surgery pains so only just been released. i have been incredibly lucky in respect of the fact that i wasn't really showing any signs on ectopic and only the fact i was having an early scan saved me really. apparently the tube burst as they started to operate and i was internally bleeding. it could have been fatal.

so so devastated. dh is being wonderful and hasn't left my side. unfortunately when they checked on my other tube during the surgery the outside is scarred like the one they removed indicating i have had an infection at some time in the past unknown to me. looks like it would be a tough ride to conceive again and another ectopic a real risk. not sure if we have it in us so have decided to defer our decision regarding babies firmly on the back burner til after christmas. i really need to recover and give myself time to grieve for this poor baby that grew in the wrong place.

really hope that you girls continue to be a support to eachother. i have loved posting with you all but going to give MN a bit of a break. its just very painful and i don't want to feel of ANY of you..... my friends.

good luck xxx

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hoops997 · 13/09/2009 19:03

boodle so sad for you , at least at least an early scan maybe saved your life......

Be kind to yourself and I really hope you get better soon, sending you lots of hugs xxx

stressyheady · 13/09/2009 19:44

Oh boodle I am so, so, so sorry . Wish I knew you so I could give you a massive hug. Please look after yourself and let DH, friends and everyone else look after you. Thinking of you loads. xxxx

memorylapse · 13/09/2009 20:05

Boodle...im so,so sorry..I really hoped that it would be all ok for you..thank goodness you had the early scan as it looks like it saved your life

Sunnydale · 14/09/2009 02:18

Oh good grief. Boodle I am so, so sorry. I was so hoping for a happy outcome for you - we all were. Please be kind to yourself, come back here whenever you want, we are all here for you. There are no words really, but that this was not to be for you. Please don't give up hope.

amyboo · 14/09/2009 08:06

Oh boodle I'm so sorry to hear your news. I really don't know what to say but I hope you and DH can get past this. Sending tons of hugs. x

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boodleboot · 14/09/2009 08:59

thanks girls. i know there is nothing that can be really said as this will just take time to get my head around. feel very empty at the moment and almost devoid of emotion, prob a safety mechanism. i have kent selection tests and 11+ to get the daughter ready for and my son has tae kwon do gradings to practice for so really back to normal in one respect in our family home. I am 31 and have gorgeous children,husband and cats and a very madcap happy family home, i am grateful for that and will need to remember that to help me get some perspective, my life is already amazing and we will get through this. MN is going to be a no go zone for me for a while as i need to clear my head from babymaking and reevalutate but any of you can contact me on FB should you want to. i dont want to bring the thread down in a mood....good luck to you all with your pregnancies or TTC xxx

love and hugs
Leanna Minahan

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Jacanne · 14/09/2009 10:16

Oh Boodle I am so very very sorry - I have been thinking of you and will continue to do so. I hope you can come to terms with it all and that before long it won't hurt so much - though I know that's not easy to do. (((())))

Jacanne · 14/09/2009 10:18

Please keep your collective fingers crossed for me - am off for my scan this morning to see if this bean is okay.

TotallyAndUtterlyPaninied · 14/09/2009 11:28

Good luck Jacanne- I'm sure all will be fine.

Boodle- What can I say? Really glad you've made it, your children are very lucky to still have their mum. It's good that you're focusing on the things you have- 2 lovely children and a good family. I think you're right to steer clear of MN for a bit until you feel stronger- it's easy to get broody on here and it's best you focus on getting you right. But we're still here when you want to come back. You're being so strong. They offer counselling so it might be worth looking in to so that you can deal with such a sad loss. I will be thinking of you.

Sunnyday- They have no idea why I'm having the headaches, but they're really knocking me sick today and I start back at work tomorrow. I'm working 9am-7pm so I'm really nervous that I won't manage.

LittleOneMum · 14/09/2009 14:43

Boodle - have posted on the other thread but again, so sorry to hear this .

Gipi - I too am very concerned about lack of symptoms. Not tired, no sore boobs and am really stressing. Having an early scan next Monday to see if that helps at all... Any chance you could do that?

Jacanne · 14/09/2009 17:56

Well good news - there was a tiny blob under an egg sac with a fast little heart beat. They think that I am only 5-6 weeks rather than 7 - I'm a bit concerned about that - admittedly my cycle was a bit messed up after the last m/c but I don't think that it could have been more than 4 days later because of when I tested. I will remain cautiously optimistic. Apparently the blood could have been from the placenta implanting.

amyboo · 15/09/2009 07:53

Great news jacanne. I wouldn't worry too much about the dates for now - I think it's hard for them to be accurate until it gets a bit further on... Keeping my fingers crossed for you.

I keep panicking that my symptoms have disappeared, but I think they're just moved from the morning/evening to the middle of the day. After feeling fine when I woke up, I now feel like crap. I've never been so relieved to feel rubbish! Only 8 more days till my next scan. 11+4 today, so hopefully I'll get there OK.

Hello to everyone else.

GiPi1 · 15/09/2009 20:03

Oh Boodle I am so very very sorry - I don't know what else to say....... xx

7 + 4 After knicker checking this morning, found a brown discharge and have had some tummy pain for the last couple of days - gone to have a bath this evening and quickly had a wee first, and there is was ... red blood - still got some tummy pain and a little bit in my lower back - so am not holding out much hope

Will call midwife tomorrow - supposed to be seeing her on Thursday but can't wait till then unless bleeding stops.

Hope the rest of your beans are doing well and keeping my fingers and toes crossed for you all xx

amyboo · 16/09/2009 07:57

GiPi - try not to get too stressed about the bleeding. I had unexplained red blood followed by about a week of brownish discharge when I was 8+5. I had an emergency ultrasound at 8+5 with my gynae and he found no reason for the bleed. My 10+5 scan was OK and the baby had grown very well. Still not out of the woods yet (am 11+5 today) but I don't think blood is always the end... Definitely see your midwife as soon as possible and try and get referred for an emergency scan. Keeping my fingers crossed for you.

memorylapse · 16/09/2009 10:20

gipi..try not to panic..is it possible that you may have a wee infection?

GiPi1 · 16/09/2009 10:39

Thanks guys - am still bleeding this morning and have been through the night - phoned midwife at 7am and she booked me straight in for emergency scan at 12.30 today. Will let you know how I get on but am not holding out much hope!!! Boobs are not hurting or feeling heavy now, do symptons go that quickly?? have still got some tummy pain too - so will have to wait and see but am preparing myself for the worst.

amyboo · 16/09/2009 11:28

Hope everything goes OK GiPi. Fingers firmly crossed for you.

GiPi1 · 16/09/2009 13:27

Hi everyone

Just got back from scan - baby bean is doing just fine and going strong

They can't explain the bleeding and have told me firmly to stop knicker checking !!!! Think I might just have to try !!

Bean has doubled in size in 12 days and is now 13.5mm at 7+5

I am a very happy bunny !!!

Thanks for all your support on this one !!! xx

amyboo · 16/09/2009 13:39

Yeah - that's great news GiPi! I'm so pleased for you!

The stopping knicker-checking thing is a good idea, although I find it quite hard to stick to some days...

TotallyAndUtterlyPaninied · 16/09/2009 13:49

So glad GiPi was starting to think this thread was cursed of something! GipiBean stop worrying your mummy!!

Jacanne · 16/09/2009 20:24

So pleased GiPi

VivClicquot · 17/09/2009 09:27

Hi ladies,

I've only just discovered this thread and wondered if I could join?

Some of you will know me from another thread, but for those of you that don't, I had a MMC in July with what was my first (and at the time unplanned) pregnancy.

Although we're getting married in November and logic would suggest we wait until then, DP and I decided to start TTC again right away, and it looks like we got lucky at the first attempt. (DP is extremely proud of himself as obviously he thinks it's all his doing - haha|!)

So today I should be exactly 5 weeks pg, and quite frankly, I'm crapping myself. But I'm also feeling a lot more excited than I thought I would - I have an unexplained good feeling about this one so fingers crosssed...

LittleOneMum · 17/09/2009 13:14

Hi Viv (waves!) - good to see you on here too... How's the wedding planning going? i want to hear all about it... I love weddings!

Gipi EXCELLENT news! Delighted to hear it. xx

GiPi1 · 17/09/2009 21:39

Hi everyone

Hope you and your beans are all good and keeping nice and healthy !!

Have been bleeding alot today, bright red blood - no need to knicker check cos I can feel the bleeding (sorry to be so graphic) but it is horrible, I keep wishing it to stop but it has got really quite heavy now. I am still sooo worried that something is going wrong and they have not been able to see it or have missed it

Midwife came today to "book me in" and said it COULD be cervical erosion, and if bleeding still going on tomorrow to go to GP. She doesn't know what it could be, which doesn't help really, but that's not her fault and she is lovely !!!

She has also asked if I would like a scan in a couple of weeks time instead of waiting for the normal 12 week, just so I can reassured which is great of her.

Anyone else got any news?? xx