HELLLLOOOOOO.
what a thread. i've blubbed. thank you SO much for all of your support and positive stories, adn thanks to the people who've texted. i can't get onto MN from my phone for some reason. well, i can't log on and i can't seem to access this thread, but if it's something i'm not in the slightest bit interested in then bingo, up it comes.
i'm back at home, no brilliant news unfortunately but at least i'm not being scrubbed up right now, that is a BIG POSITIVE.
basically it's a definite that the baby hasn't grown in a couple of weeks, they rather kindly double-checked with another scan yesterday just to put my mind at 'rest'. this is not good...
however, i have responded to the additional bp meds and i've had my steroids so we are notionally good to go at any minute.
i've to attend daycare every two days for bp checks, blood tests on kidneys and scans of the blood flow, and we'll try to hold off. if we get a week, i'm told it'll be lucky going. the baby is fine apart from the growth, and what they think will happen is that we'll see some evidence of distress with her and then wheech me off that afternoon. in true big brother style, i'm under instructions to pack my case for every daycare appointment.
me and dh went to special care yesterday for a look around. they didn't show us intensive care, said why be pessimistic, but scbu seems okay. a host of practical problems that i can't really foresee how to overcome (me with cs, dh can't drive, hospital not super-local to us, what do we do about work and dd?) etc etc but we'll no doubt manage somehow. so long as the baby is okay, god knows.
so, still pretty frightened basically, and mega-freaked out. thanks so much for posting, everyone. i've seen people say on here so many times 'you don't know how much it means etc' and well, now i do. but really, those of you who've not been on the receiving end of one of these threads... you don't know how much it means... thanks.