@SlightlyTerrifiedButPolite
So sorry for your loss also. Thank you for your well wishes. I hope things work out for you this time also.
I felt the same after last time. Pretending I wasnt going through it was heartbreaking. Almost like I was ashamed of the pregnancy, like i was pretending they didn't exist. I think for me anyway,I almost felt guilty,like I did something wrong and was ashamed of my body if you know what I mean. Shouldn't be that way though because I know miscarriages are not our fault.
I think this time I want to guard my heart a little more. Although you know MC is always a possibility, I didn't expect the last one at all. With having 3 previous healthy pregnancies/babies I took it for granted that things would be ok that time,and it wasn't. 😢
I don't know whether to go for an early scan or not. I paid for an early "reassurance " scan when I was meant to be 8 weeks and that's when my world fell apart. I started to bleed 2 days later.
I go on holiday when I'm around 10 weeks so when we return I'll be due my booking in scan etc so might just live in blissful ignorance until then. (If I get that far)
I bought a good few bits last time for baby. Christmas onesies, vests,a little santa suit,baby sleeping bag and had lots in my amazon basket saved for later. It broke my heart having to delete it all and unsubscribe to babyshop emails etc so Im not going to go all in this time.
Wish I could get excited but my anxiety is awful. Every twinge or cramp im freaking out and over thinking.
My DC are 21,8,7. This would be our wee plot twist baby that no one expects.
Take it easy. Wishing you a happy,healthy,sticky pregnancy. X