Hi May Babies,
Hard to be typing this message but we went for an early scan on Saturday (9+4) and all that was visible was a small empty sac. I've just been to the EPU this morning to confirm. Unfortunately their policy is we have to wait another week to rescan, but then we'll move on to surgical treatment to remove the tissue the same day.
My emotions and mental heath are not good at the moment, but my husband has been an absolute gem along with the close family we had already told.
I sadly had symptoms the entire time, although they've started to let up in the last week. I thought this was just me finishing off my first trimester but sadly it's [hopefully] my body finally realizing there's not a viable pregnancy progressing. Sadly I still have no cramping or bleeding, seems like my body is being very stubborn about letting go. I know a few of you have felt like this in your 9/10weeks, but do not fear - this was just shit timing for me it began when symptoms typically let up for everyone anyways. I know you all will go on to have boring and beautiful pregnancies ❤
I've never had a defeatist attitude and don't plan to start now, we'll begin trying again as soon as we're cleared to and I hope the road will lead to many successful pregnancies in the future. I think it'll take some time for me to heal the anger I feel towards my body steering me so wrongly for so long, but we'll get there.
I just wanted to send a quick farewell message to all you lovely people, and wish you all the luck and all the beautiful May babies :). This forum has been such a supportive place these few months, so thank you. x