@TurquoiseDreamCatcher I’m feeling much better emotionally but the crying has been replaced with tiredness! I’ve been so dopey all day, unable to concentrate on anything. Lucky for me I have a bunny rabbit that feeds outside the window so I can drift off to watching him munching grass and dandelions!
@HaresHoping thank you for the image of sobbing whilst trying to eat! I’ve been there... and just had to hold the food in my mouth as I was too sad to chew!
Today I had happy tears, feeling overwhelmed with love for my boy, and the sensation of my heart expanding.
I’m feeling a bit stuck financially and I can’t do my usual work (cooking for events and retreats) as I really don’t have reliable energy, and I haven’t had a vehicle for the past few months. I don’t know what to do within the physical limitations of my home environment. Making something and selling online seems like the most plausible thing to do, especially when raising a newborn at home, but I don’t have any inspiration as to what!
My outgoings are low each month which I am so lucky for, but I am not making enough to save anything, and with another human joining the family I really do need to start building my savings up again! My partner earns and supports me in a place to live, and he pays for the food (I cook it).. So I am not going to get in to trouble but I’m equally not comfortable right now. Rich in everything but money... that’s been the root of my crying the past few days. Realising I cannot solely take care of the baby if I need to at any point.
I’m grateful for a place to rant and let it out.