Hi all apologies for not having checked in, everything has been pretty overwhelming and it's over a week since I had anything resembling decent sleep! I ended up spending 7 nights in hospital, 5 of which were after the birth, and it was all pretty stressful not least because there was a cock up re recording her birth weight which made it look as if she had lost an impossible amount over the first few days and triggered all kinds of panic. Feeding and weight loss are still a concern, we're having midwife visits every couple of days and a feeding support counsellor is coming out this afternoon so we'll see how we get on. Pregnancy after loss was an anxious experience for me and that anxiety certainly hasn't gone now she's here, if anything it's far worse. Fortunately my DH is amazing and I have a few good friends who check in with me a lot, but I do hope to get past these feeding challenges one way or another and to reach a place where I can actively enjoy being a mum rather than panicking or feeling guilty the whole time....
@Treaclepie19 your birth story sounds very positive, hope you're having an equally speedy recovery!
@SunStruck @Whiffle77 not long for you now! I was working right up to when baby arrived, as it turned out. I'm still finding it weird that I'm not going to be back for 9 months, and can't resist reading work emails on my phone whilst baby is napping.... need to break the habit but it's hard when work has been the centre of your routine for such a long time! I hope you manage to complete your handover and leave in a place that you feel happy with.
@MOGMOGMOG85 I'm sorry you've been having such a tough time, you've truly got everything going on at once and must be so drained both physically and mentally. You need to put yourself and your little one first, but I know that that is easier said than done....
@Babyghirl thinking of you at such a stressful stage and hoping all works out well.