@nearlyamummyof3 such a perfect tribute, and roses come back every year so it will become such a special reminder when it blooms. My step father did the same for his dau who passed away. Around this time of year half his hedgerow is awash with pale pink roses. My partner whomis a landscape gardener says go for a David Austin, best type for easy grow and reliability.
You definitely should talk to someone, it is just something that is so difficult to wrap your head around let alone manage on your own. Your strength is amazing, and I think that letting go of any guilt, especially when its combined with buying baby things, is very important. You can do whatever you want and it is ok, what's best for you these next few months is going to be what's best for your whole family, you need to keep those joyful things a part of this pregnancy, even if it feels wrong or strange.
This all must be so unbelievably hard, but your going to get through it, and your newborn will be the gift at the end of all this that will bring so much happiness and love into your grieving family.
And let's face it, talking and shopping never hurt any woman 😆 xx