Hi everyone. So the scan yesterday didn't go as expected (particularly after essentially getting the all clear after the original referral scan) I ended up being there for about 4hrs and was scanned by 2 consultants and then a Professor and it looks like there are 2 seperate problems with her heart. The initial diagnosis is Pulmonary Stenosis with Perimembranous Ventricular Septal Defect which basically means a small/narrow pulmonary artery and a hole between the 2 bottom two chambers of the heart. She will need surgery probably before 6months old.
I've have had my care switched to Evelina Children's Hospital (part of St. Thomas & Guys) and will be having appointments early next week including an amniocentesis to find out if there is an underlying condition that has caused this. If there is...Well I can't even consider that possibility
DH wasn't with me for the scan - He was waiting with DD1 becuase she doesnt go to nursery Fridays and the whole general rule about no partners at scans because we'd kind of been lead to believe it was all fine last time and this was just a bit of formality so I had to tell him everything afterwards. He just broke down. I had to leave him to it for a bit and take DD1 so she didn't have to witness it. I'm kind of holding it together. I'm numb right now. I can't start crying because I don't think I would ever stop again and I still have to keep going for DD1. I didn't sleep last night. Maybe an hour before waking up and having a panic attack while hiding downstairs.
I don't know how I can get through this