Posifrickinspring thread for PG after MC!

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If we can't be positive about the weather what can we be?

Welcome posters new and old.

Reading all the posts about baby clothes makes me smile so much for you guys.

@Eastend2015 we are almost in exactly the same position so sending you lots of hugs and support! I am 7 weeks and I go for my first early scan on Friday. I am seriously stressing not least because my nausea seems to have eased off a tiny bit and I have these dull / mild cramps on and off. Fully aware that its totally normal and probably just stretching / gas but can't help but panic. It's sad and makes me feel a bit pathetic.

Sorry that you're both feeling a bit sicky unicorns and eastend but fingers very crossed that its a good sign for you both (though having spent my entire first trimester panicking about not feeling sick 'enough' I'm now finally willing to admit that feeling ok is also ok, so don't panic if it goes!). Time totally crawls at the beginning, I know - I will say that while I wouldn't say the anxiety has lifted much, time does seem to be passing faster. I felt like I was 6 weeks pregnant for approximately 100 years!

@UnicornsandRainbows1 I am one of those weird people who enjoys the sickness (I must add though that mine was manageable. I imagine HG is a completely different story). I find it reassuring! I was sick only twice a day at most though.

I was the same flatwhite - I was so happy when the nausea finally came! But again, mine was very mild (I was never actually sick, just felt it) and didn't last long (weeks 9-12) so quite easy to enjoy!

Oh yes lisa and flatwhite as i’ve been less nauseous today I’ve been more anxious!

It's not so much that I don't want it there, it's more the false hope that it brings (which sadly I've experienced before). That's probably what it boils down to I think

Actually I lie. It's more false reassurance and I seem to get sick when the baby has passed away for some odd reason.

Exactly unicorns, my MMC was when I have had the highest level of nausea from all my pregnancies. So I worry that something is wrong either way really!

I think for all of us on this thread it is so hard to find reassurance as we have seen things not work out despite nausea/early scans etc.

DS - implantation bleed plus two other early bleeds. Sore boobs + mild nausea.
First mc - nausea, sore boobs, hb at 8 wks, no sign of problems until complete mc at 9 weeks.
2nd mc - some bleeding, early scan off dates and it never felt right, then mc at 9 weeks again.
Other mcs - too early to judge.
This one - tiny nausea, sore boobs, no bleeding not even for implantation.

I don't know whether this is reassuring or not, just that it's so hard to know and so hard not knowing. There is always hope but always doubt too. I think we all have that in common.

I think we will always have something to worry about... Although it does get a tiny bit easier as time goes on..
Ekp do you mind if I ask about your ds.. With reduced growth did you get induced early or?
I've spent the day at the hospital for reduced movements.. All seems fine. Hospital were amazing. Monitor kept falling off and losing contact though so had to be referred to doc who sent me to get something to eat and drink and then did a scan. They saw movement on ultrasound although I didn't feel it. Doppler looked good but doc did say it seems growth is slowing.. Got sent back for another trace where midwife held connector on the whole time so machine said all good and I was sent home. Booked in for another scan on Monday (was already planned) to check growth but suggested today that they might induce at 37 weeks if growth has slowed....
Am feeling baby move more now and honestly I reckon I just got myself so worked up about not feeling it that I couldn't but glad I got checked out.. And relieved how nice the hospital were about it

Thanks msjuniper it’s helpful to know i’m not crazy!

EP- didn’t know I was pg until went to these with on off bleeding for 10 days, naturally managed but lots of pain and nausea until all clear another 2/3 weeks later.
MMC- nausea and vomiting, can’t remember sore boobs, scan fine at 6 weeks and told prob too early for HB then tiniest bit of pink spotting and MMC confirmed 7.5 weeks, waited to miscarry naturally for another 3 weeks before ERPC then still another few weeks for final tissue to pass.
DS- sore boobs, strong sense of smell, bad travel sickness, rhinitis
MC- mild nausea, sore boobs, scan at 6 weeks showed 5 week blob, miscarried naturally at 7 weeks
Now- slight pink on wiping at 4 weeks (on asprin this time, not sure if it’s making a difference), relatively strong nausea over last few days, nothing else!!

Oh bless you @UnicornsandRainbows1. My DH always says he doesn't trust symptoms any more. I was much less sick in my MMC pregnancy, so when I was throwing up this time I kind of clung on to that as a positive for me.
What I don't find reassuring is scans. That day of turning up for the 12 week scan (after a good 8 week one) and hearing 'there's no heartbeat' will stay with me forever. I've got my 20 week scan next week, and I'm already bricking it. I can't see the anxiety getting any easier!

Argh, need a bit of a hand hold. I need to contact someone at work to ask them to check into the arrangements for my maternity leave (it's all a bit complicated because my role is funded by an external organisation) and I'm having a complete mental block about it - my boss asked me to do it three days ago and it's literally just sending an email, but I feel so superstitious and weird about it, and I keep imagining having to email this person (who I've met about twice) to tell them I lost the pregnancy so not to worry. I know I'm being really silly about it - sorting out my maternity leave arrangements isn't going to have an impact on the pregnancy either way! - but I'm trying to write it now and feeling so panicky.

Hi folks, Sorry to hear others at the early stages are going through this too but also reassured I’m not losing my marbles! I have no experience of a successful pregnancy to compare symptoms with as my only other preg ended in mmc detected at 9w3. I find myself either freaking out because I’m not nauseous enough (I wasn’t last time but maybe more importantly my mum and sister never had morning sickness over their combined 6 pregnancies) or any sensation in my abdomen which reminds me of mc (or if I don’t feel any pulls in my abdomen I also worry that nothing is happening). Im very tired though and keep falling asleep in a pile of drool on the sofa- lovely! I’m just trying to focus on getting through each day.

I can totally relate to all these feelings of being worried you feel sick because you did last time or not feeling sick enough... it's all such a head f*ck having gone through miscarriages.

Lisa you're 20 week scan is next week. Could you ask your boss if it would be ok if you left this until after your 20 week scan so that you have a better idea of where you are with dates etc?

I had to go to a VBAC clinic today. It was harrowing enough in itself recalling my last birth and then I got really upset and said how anxious I was about the scan next week. Midwife was lovely and offered to listen to the heartbeat. Feeling reassured having heard it.

Hi all. Just had my regular diabetes appt, blood sugars have been good so wasn't too worried but when they did routine checks on arrival, my blood pressure was 141/84, pulse 121, proteins + and ketones ++ in my urine so the mw was a bit concerned. Then had to wait anxiously for 40 mins before I saw a doctor by which time I'd convinced myself that the placenta had stopped working and had all these horrible images rushing through my brain.

Doctor was much calmer and said results only borderline high but sent me off for blood tests and more urine tests. I have to go back next week so it was kind of reassuring that they weren't treating it as urgent but of course it has raised all sorts of fears in me. I have had very swollen hands and feet the last couple of days which I thought was normal but I guess is due to the bp.

Really sorry that you had that panic and ongoing worry, msjuniper - as you say it's good that they don't think it's urgent, but it must all be really unsettling for you. Hopefully they can reassure you at the follow-up appointment next week.

Msjuniper I'm sorry you had a worrying appointment.. Did they listen to baby for you to put your mind at ease a little bit?
If it reassuring at all my initial pulse on arriving at hospital yesterday was 140 they would let me go anywhere until it calmed down but I think even when I was leaving it was something between 110 and 125.. They put it down to me being nervous of being at the hospital and the tests..

12w2d and started bleeding quite heavily. I think I know this is it. My symptoms didn't quite vanish but they did seriously diminish a few days ago. Going to the EPU this morning.

Oh @kirinm I'm so sorry.

kirinm I’m so sorry - I really hope it’s ok.

Kirin thinking of you hope it's not what you think.

I've got an office party tonight and I can't get out of it. Still one more week to try and hide this, as my CEO is on holiday and I have to tell him first. Really stressing about people being bloody nosy. Just want to fast forward a week

Oh kirin, I'm so sorry. Gutted to hear that. I hope the EPU fit you in for a scan so you have an answer.

I'm really sorry, Kirin. Really hoping for good news for you but understand why you want to prepare for worst. Hope they get you an answer either way asap.

I’m so sorry kirin, I hope you get an answer quickly and sending hugs