needs, wow, it sounds like you have had it really tough in earlier pregnancies, I really hope this one is better for you!!!
bunny don't worry, it is totally worth it. We were in a similar place to you before having DD - we weren't sure we wanted kids but couldn't really imagine life without them so decided to go for it. I am not a naturally maternal person, I don't like babies or kids really (had never held one before DD) and I couldn't bear to read a pregnancy book either. But, I love my daughter more than anything, I love spending time with her, playing silly games, cuddling up. She was worth all the sickness, tears, fillings and everything. I still don't like other babies and kids, but I love my little girl
, and know I will with this one too. Of course it changes life totally, but in such a lovely way.
Don't put pressure on yourself to be excited, pregnancy is so, so long, I really didn't start to get even vaguely excited until a few weeks before due date last time (and even then a nervous sort of excitement). It's a day by day slog with HG.
Hope everyone else has had a good weekend.