I'm sorry you're feeling so low Justtheone. I had a couple of weeks like that and they were very damaging mentally and physically. I used to self harm as a teen and I was quite shocked when the urge came back at that time, just as a coping mechanism for the mental anguish. I didn't, and it's passed thankfully.
I manage to get dressed and leave the house most days, but if I didn't have a toddler I doubt I would. Being in work helps, but I tend to feel ok in the mornings, so skip to work and then it just hits me like a car crash around 11am, even on the ondansetron. I've had meetings today where I've just thought "please shut up and go away" for most of it. I had to leave at 2pm as it got that bad, then crawled into bed for a long nap. DH said I sounded a bit feral at one point.
This thread is the only thing I have. My GP asked the other day if I had good support and I heard the words "oh yes there's a great thread on mumsnet that's very supportive". I must have sounded crazy.
Everyone else is very nice, but people only really get it if they've had it. That said, I do think that Kate Middleton having had it and been public about it has helped. There's a broader understanding of what it's about. The fact that she has a shit load more support than anyone else (I don't begrudge it if anyone) and has still had to clear her "work" diary has helped. I do sometimes ponder whether she's struggling to get a poo out if shes also on ondansetron, or whether she bothers getting dressed, or has developed a deep love of really shitty white carbs etc etc etc. I'd like to see her blog about it
👊🏻 The struggle is real my sisters, thank you for keeping me sane (to some extent)
BATMAN (otherwise known as a 35 year old public servant from oop north)