Well girls, my babe is here! So sorry I haven't been in touch. Had the hardest few days of my life in hospital! Induction was no match for my cervix! Blinking thing wouldn't open no matter what they did and despite being so long overdue! Contractions eventually started Saturday night after 3 inductions and they got mega worse til Sunday afternoon when they were less than 4 mins apart so they eventually decided to break my waters when I was only 1cm. Things went crazy from then on. Baby didn't like waters being broken and her baseline heartbeat rocketed and never really came down. I was rushed into socks and a gown coz was on the edge of emergency surgery the whole time! Didn't eat a thing from Sunday morning to Monday afternoon, the labour seemed to take years, I was off my face on gas and air and was talking rubbish to the midwife and my mum and hubby, I thought I was dying and my baby was dying, it was really scary,
I didn't know what was going on in my head!! They suggested epidural coz I couldn't deal with the gas and air lol so I had that and everything calmed down for a bit but it was still taking ages for my cervix to open, from 6pm Sunday night to 8am Monday morning it had only gone from 1 to 5cm! I didn't get to full dilation til 11am when it was time to push. By now, I hadn't slept since Friday night coz I'd been contracting regularly from Saturday night onwards and it was agony, impossible to sleep! So when it came to push time, with no food and drink in me for 24 hours either coz surgery was always an option, I was running on absolute empty! The pain was nuts so they had the anaesthetist in again and upped the epidural, which weirdly didn't do as much second time around, I could still feel everything. Started pushing and was exhausted from the word go. I don't think I could have pushed a wee out, let alone a baby! Then her heart rate started dropping and everything went up a gear, emergency surgery was full and they said she didn't have time to wait for surgery, she HAD to come out! So they got the forceps in and cut my downstairs into an arsegina right through. I didn't even care, I was so wiped, I was falling asleep between contractions! Her cord was around her neck 😖 I didn't realise it was such an emergency til hubby was next to me saying she needs to come out now!! I pushed with everything I had and she came out in one with just a light grip of the forceps, so she's not bruised and cut or anything. I lost loads of blood after but they had already stocked it coz I'm rh neg which is rare anyway. Luckily I still didn't know what was going on lol but hubby and my mum are scarred for life, mum said it was like an abbatoir in there! I just remember them pushing on my tummy and feeling like I was peeing but apparently it was blood. Yuck. Then they had to stitch me all back up which was agony coz the local anaesthetic didn't have any effect (it's the same with dentist, I need knocking out for teeth work coz anaesthetic doesn't touch me!) if I ever get preggers again, I'm going straight for a C-section by choice, I never want to feel what I felt yesterday again!
But of course the best bit is I've got this baby girl who is suddenly the only thing that matters!! I'm absolutely in love with her. She's amazing and I feel so lucky. I'm still in hospital, I needed some aftercare coz of what happened but hopefully will be able to come home tomorrow after more bloods!! Can't wait to start family life 💗