Just got back from my scan, he's growing exactly as expected. He now roughly weighs 2.7lbs, they are more than happy with his growth. He was moving loads but of course they were happy with that too!
Was very very difficult to seek enthusiastic, something I feel very guilty about....of course I am absolutely over the moon he's well & developing how he should, I just couldn't muster the whole "oh look!" The "aw's"....that's something I feel I lack currently although I'm not completely incapable!
The doctor has increased my antidepressants to 125mg & then after a couple of weeks they'll raise it to 150mg.....I do hope they'll help.
I am yet to see the mental health nurse IF she's free, otherwise I've an app tomorrow with her I think.
In regards to housing, I live with my dad who is moving in with his gf at her house & renting his out, unfortunately I don't have the available income to pay the rent he's asking for.
So I will be attending the local council this Friday morning to present myself as homeless, given my previous experience with the same council, I can only expect a room in a hostel as when I lived in one last, there were numerous pregnant women there alongside women who weren't pregnant & on heroin!
I once witnessed one "clucking", when I left there, I promised myself I'd never put myself in a situation like that again (apparently I don't know how to keep promises!)
Anyways, I'm rambling on now.
Great news! Baby is perfect, he has all the fluid he needs around him, he is growing well & is healthy.
I however am struggling mentally.....I've definitely had better days, weeks & months!
Let's hope I get help soon.
Work have been great, have told me not to rush back but to keep in touch.
Thank you for being ever so patient with me all, I find I'm coping that little bit better knowing I have people I can come & talk too on here.