Don't you think it would be really good if a book writer where to write a book taking snippets of all the weird and wonderful things we write and develop a book for the ladies out there who haven't been lucky enough to stumble into places like these.
All the thoughts of us normal woman facing the challenges of everyday pregnancy.
Whatser your doing great, sometimes as you know our bodies as horrendous as it seems know what's best for us, my doctor said to me the other day, sometimes it's best to have the decision taken out of our control, and she's right.
I always said that if my first child had problems then I would of continued anyway as it was my baby regardless, then as I had more my attitude somewhat changed as I then had to consider there lives and the impact of another child with higher needs and possibly my ability to give them all a part of me.
Like I've previously said my attitude is now that I look at my children and know that they the ones I was supposed to have, whether by hand of God or fate, I kind of find some sort of comfort in that.
Also the midwife told me something that I've never know before, she said that at the 8-10 week pg mark is when the baby's starts to takeover for the baby and so when ladies have losses around those times they generally attribute it to possible heart problems.
Although scary as it kind of made me feel like ok, maybe it wasn't my actual fault, I probably didn't carry a bag that was too heavy or picked up the baby that day etc maybe there was a problem and maybe I'm not to blame?
I don't know, this is an absolute minefield isn't it ladies eh.
It's such a shame we don't live close enough to all meet up once a week and have a good old bitch and moan and swap out stories!!
If I'm lucky enough to make it this time im definitely buying one of those machines Lynsey, my sister had one and she swears by it, they had them in Argos had price last week and also Amazon are doing great deals on them, I'll keep you posted on what I find lol xxxx