Pregnancy after miscarriage - part 4

[mygirllolipop]

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Hi everyone,

Had my antenatal appointment today and thankfully baby has turned and is now the right way up so full steam ahead. Bought raspberry leaf tea tablets today and ordered my tens machine.
Insomnia not so good though - slept for 2 hours last night - feel terrible today.

Nicola - good luck for tomorrow - will be thinking of you.

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Well it seems to be good news for now. There is still a heartbeat! and he says it has grown since last week, although it is not very big (obviously this worries me rather). Anyway, I can't keep on being paralysed with fear all the time, I have to try to be a little optimistic now (this, at 7.5 weeks, is the furthest I have ever got with a pregnancy). I am heading off to Scotland this afternoon to spend the weekend with my DH. I need to get away and a bit of bracing highland air (although I believe it is raining up there!) will be good for me!

Nicola, that is good news. I understand you must be worried about the growth but I guess your baby will do things in his/her own good time. I hope you have a relaxing time away.

Mygirl - yes I'm the same. Sometimes think I'm ready and then I'll be horrified at how soon everything is going to happen. I'm due 3 weeks today although with my other 2 ds I've been
overdue so no reason to suppose this one will be any different.

I slept much better last night so feel a bit more on top of things today.

Hope everybody else is doing ok.

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Nicola sounds like great news, enjoy your break!!

Ive been to my first aquanatal class today and I was under the impression it was supposed to be relaxing, Im sure the midwife thought we were all skinny olympic swimmers, no one could keep up and I was the least pregnant there! So pretty exhausted now!

hope everyone is well x x

Julie 18+3

That is great news Nicola - enjoy the break, and make sure you take it easy.
SO wools and mygirl are the next ones to drop! For saying the first 12 weeks dragged by, the past few weeks have flown - i am now 21 weeks and definately look pregnant! And i feel great!
Hope everyone has a good weekend

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hello all, been away for a week with inlaws in Dunster in Somerset - lots of mellow weather and apples on trees, lovely... although with DS (2 + half) a good rest is never really on the cards...

Nicola, wonderful, wonderful news. can't help feeling very moved by this turn of events. funnily enough, this happened to Prof Lesley Regan, she tells about it in her pregnancy book, she had massive bleeding and thought it was all over, but her husband persuaded her to go for the scan anyway and all was well. Will keep fingers crossed for you.

WWW - sounds like it might be anaemia - I had it really badly once (long story) and was panting at the smallest exertion.

am doing ok myself, a bit less sick now apart from the odd twinge. However, a little bit anxious about baby movements - sometimes I feel a bit of a flutter, once or twice that quite insistent knocking feeling, but not at all regularly... at 17wks + 4 not sure what is normal, I have felt it on and off from 14 weeks...

feeling really pleased about Nicola!

Nicola, that is such fantastic news, I am so pleased for you. I hope you are having a lovely time in Scotland and that it all carries on like this, and that the aspirin and fragamin are doing their magic.

hehe mygirl - time off for good behaviour - I wish! I had a complete sense of humour failure the other night when I realised that if this baby is two weeks late, I could still be pregnant for almost another two months. That's tooo long! And it will be late, mostly because we are reasonably organised, so it will be late to serve me right... When are you due? I'm Nov 1st.

bobbynog - glad time is now flying for you - I think mine did in the middle, then I seemed to get stuck at about 31 weeks for what seems to have been ages, it's most bizarre. And glad you're feeling good too!

Wools - Hurrah for the baby turning, you must be relieved. Hope you are getting some kind of relaxation now.

t4t - you timed it well with your holiday, it's now dull and raining hard in this corner of Somerset. I think you're doing well to feel movements at all at this stage - some of my friends haven't felt anything until 22 weeks. I suppose they've got so much room to move at this stage that it's quite easy for them to go off into a quiet corner for a bit!

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Hello everyone, sounds like things are going well for everyone - babies, turning, preparations being made etc.
Good news for us as well: I had my nuchal scan today, and all seems well. Think I've decided that I hate scans though - I celebrated this one by being sick (first time!) beforehand, and having a huge argument with DH afterwards. I should be learning that I don't seem to find them as reassuring as I expect. But anyway, whatever I'm feeling, it's still good news. (Now got to decide when to tell people - why am I still putting this off?)
It's tipping it down with rain here - which is a bit of an issue for us as we don't have a roof!

well, everyone seems pretty happy these days - good stuff!

still feeling breathless but now having that kind of 'is everything actually ok?" kind of anxiety...t4t - I had started feeling the same movements as you (i'm 17+6) but haven't really noticed any for a couple of days. Been grabbing at my boobs to see if they still hurt! Or just lying very still with my hands on my bump, willing baby to move for me...I'm sure everything is fine, it really is early to feel anything definite. But I might just pop to the mw on Monday to check the heartbeat...suppose this anxiety never goes....

Feeling the movements is lovely, but also a nightmare. A couple of weeks ago i was in your position - worrying when i couldn't feel anything, but i seem to be feeling it more and more now so have relaxed (a little - i am still neurotic!) Unfortunately round here the midwives and doctors really don't seem to care. I know mc happen to lots of ladies, and everyone goes through anxious times, but they really do lack sympathy. Don't get me started on them!

Back from Scotland, where I had a lovely break, but now sadly know that all may not be as OK as I believed on Thursday. I mentioned that there was some concern about the size of the foetus on Thursday's scan, but I did not realise how worrying this really was. The obstetrician phoned me on Friday and told me he he very much concerned about possible chromosomal abnormalities, and with the preent position he gives about a 30% chance of the foetus being normal. These was not the kind of odds I wanted to hear, but there is obviously absolutely nothing I can do and it is just a matter of wait and see. I have another scan in 2 weeks and we will just have to see if there has been decent growth or not.

I have to try and get on with my normal life this coming week, and I have a great deal to do at work. It does not help that this week would also have been the birthdate of the baby from the previous m/c.

What will be will be I suppose.

dear Nicola, what a difficult few weeks ahead of you waiting for the next scan. I found this evening that thoughts of the babies we lost are never far away (a child dying in a film had me in big floods of tears) and the due date week has been hard for lots of us on these threads. Its great you have taken this week off, to do whatever it is you need to do. Is your DH around? or someone else you feel close to? we are all here for you, but a person in RL is often what is really needed... I really feel for you and will be praying for you and your little one tonight.

I think I have become more philsophical over the past week, purely for survival. One cannot live in a constant state of anxiety, no matter how difficult things are. And one cannot neglect everything just because of worries, no matter how scary they are. I have had to become calmer.

I am really a little alone in RL, as my DH is is Scotland during the week (I'll next see him on Friday again) and I'm not a person with lots of close friends, I have two but one is in South Africa and the other in Spain, they both know what is happening and are very supportive though, over phone and text messages every day. My family all live in South Africa, but my mother also knows what is happening for me.

I'm not a believer in any religion but my friend has told me she is praying for me, and my mother's best friend, who believes in some kind of new age crystal stuff, is sending me some sort of crystal energy...I don't believe any of that at all but I take these as expressions of people caring about me and that really helps.

MNet is also so very helpful right now. Thanks.

Dear Nicola, what a hard time for you - you seem to be coping with it really well though. I've never managed the philosophical attitude myself, but you're completely right: what will be will be. Will be thinking of you...

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Nicola, so sorry that things are so stressful for you. Hoping all goes well for your next scan x

I'm feeling quite apprehensive myself. I only got my BFP last week, but I am really worried it will end in mc again. At 39 the odds are against me I think, so at the moment just assuming it's not going to end well and taking each trip to the toilet which doesn't show blood as a pleasant surprise IYKWIM.

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Nicola - what an emotional rollercoaster you are on. I really do admire your attitude and I so hope that you get good news at your next scan. Thinking of you.

Definitely feeling better, at work, very busy and lots of complicated things to arrange, so no time to dwell on worries. My attitude, however, is not really "admirable" at all, I don't really have much choice but to get on with things. Work has to be done (apart from my normal work I am instrumental in running an international conference this week and its not going to run itself), and I can't let everyone around see there is something wrong. My immediate boss knows, I had to tell him, but no-one else at work, apart from my very lovely secretary.

People are strange though. I was supposed to be doing something very important to do with a court case last week and had to say I could not attend. The judge demanded to know why, and was told I was ill. That was not enough, he then demanded to know exactly what was wrong with me. My secretary was furious, told them this was personal, but eventually had to say, after threats of contmeot of court, that I was having a threatened miscarriage, which I did not really feel it was necessary for everyone involved in the court case to know. Now they do. Men. So insensitive and thoughtless sometimes! (apart from all our lovely DH's of course!)

bloody jumped up judges. Sounds like he's on a power trip.
Glad you're busy - less time to think about it. Wish I was busier. Should really make an effort to create more to do at work, but just plod through constantly worrying about my little egg.

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