Pregnant after a miscariage, totally terrified, reasurance and hand holding needed.

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I had a mmc in December, went for a scan at almost 14wks and there was no heartbeat, it was utterly heartbreaking.

Had an erpc and got back to ttc after christmas.

Got a BFP on friday, for 5minutes i was so happy my face hurt from smiling then fear hit me straight in the face, and I've felt uneasy since.

I'm achey/dull cramps at the bottom of my stomach/around my previous c-section scars, which i remember from being pregnant with dd, and now I've 2 scars, my youngest is 3.5yo.

However this terrifies me, I've always had horrendous nausea with pregnancy, and this time, its mild, occasional sick feeling.

I know im obsessing and reading into everything, theres no reason for this pregnancy not to be sucessful but i cant relax.

Anyone else been there who can reasure me, or even if you've not and had similar symptoms.

Thanks.

Just checking in, hope everyone has been able to relax and enjoy the jubilee celebrations. I've had a few stabby pains today but I seem to remember having them with both dds so assuming just stretching etc, and had overwhelming nausea this afternoon, hideous but in a good way!

Have also had to tell some outright lies this weekend which was quite fun at the time but now I feel a bit guilty!

I have heartburn :(

Just checking in, really tired feel like I could sleep for a week. My heart still feels like its going to explode out of my chest its really not pleasant. think I really do need to see the gp tho I really hate Drs.
Hope everyone else is ok x

Morning ladies - how is everyone today?

I left work early today - hurt my back moving some stock around, not too bad, probably could have carried on, but could have got worse and I'm not risking it.

Symptoms are all over the place - one day barely anything, then a day of feeling sick if I so much as smell food, then one of feeing sick if I need food and ok as soon as I've eaten. Boobs really tender one day, not the next. Tummy twinges, then none. Today, I feel almost normal now I want the symptoms back

Swansea you def need to get to the dr, u poor thing. Is there anything you can ignore for a bit so u can get more rest?

crow I know just how you feel. Generally I have virtually no symptoms but at the mo I have (tmi warning!) quite alot of fanny ache, I know I had this particularly with dd 1 so taking it as a good sign and I did a lot of walking yesterday so sure that didn't help. Also been a bit of an emotional wreck, lost it quite unfairly with dd1 yesterday, have apologised today. Also feel like I could cry quite often. One week today til 12 week scan, scared because now I have let myself have the odd moment of believing it could be ok and always feel that's a bit like tempting fate.

Ah not had fanny ache, but constantly leaky fanny is horrid, keep thinking my period has started and am having to wear thicker than usual panty liners.

Just woke from a nap and still don't want to get up!

Ooh WL I get that its hard to describle but weird huh!

My symptoms have settled, still have sore boobs though. Just 9 days until my next scan :)

Hi ladies....how has everyone been today swansea have you seen the GP about your ticker?

No fanny ache here, but lots of fanny batter, and nausea, indigestion, sore boobs and OMG the tiredness. MW appointment friday, booking in which will be a long one I guess, and noone to have DS so he'll be joining me. Oh Joy!

Bonzo I've had atleast one child at every booking in, even with pfb I was watching my 2yo sister. It was fine but my bookings have been at home are yours at clinic? And yes long about 50minutes this time!!

Well I'm 12 weeks tomorrow

Hi bonzo going to try and get one today ( and I mean try its nearly impossible to get one with my gp )
still feel really unwell. :(
Yay state 12weeks finally :)

Oh Swansea.
Yay for 12 weeks, I'm nearly there too but won't relax until after scan next week (if ever!)
How nice to have mw apts at home, all apts here are at clinics, always see someone i know so not great on the discretion front, and would be tough to have dc along.

I must have baby brain, yesterday shut dd2 in the cupboard under the stairs! Had no idea she was in there, turned off the light and shut the door. This morning spilt a whole cup of tea on the lounge carpet - humph.

Well girls I did manage to get an appt and I have been signed off work until I see the consultant, work aren't happy but what can I do?
may have to have an ecg soon, got to have more bloods as if I can afford to loose it :s
hope everyone else is ok :)

swansea that it's that serious. But hopefully boredom rest will help. Did they give you an idea of when you might see the consultant? Is it a cardiologist or obstetrician?

Well done Swansea. Really doesn't sound like you should be at work anyway so they'll just have to deal with it. The health of you and the baby is far more important than work.

The obstetrician (excuse my spelling) they can't cannot give me iv iron until I have seen hi, hopefully that will make a difference but who knows :) probably nothing will happen till I am 22 weeks so I have another 5 weeks of exhaustion and breathlessness, I do worry that the boredom will kill me eek!

Good books, box sets, jigsaws, cross stitch and knitting! I know the last 3 show me for the true granny I am but strangely satisfying and minimal physical effort.

swansea I'd probably spend the time on MN. And selling the contents of my house on ebay. I can't remember if this has been done, but I guess you are not able to take iron supplements if you need IV iron... even floradix or spatone.

state appointment is at the hospital. I am about to search the apple store for new games for my phone for DS, and will bring him a packed lunch (all healthy stuff so they can see what a good mother I am, will leave behind the crisps which he has become addicted to). My SIL thought they do the glucose tolerance test at booking, but I thought they did it later. The thought of downing half a litre of lucozade with current MS makes me want to vom!

bonzo I actually lol'd at the 'healthy lunch' I do that even been known to go and buy the organix crisps to avoid dds inevitable wails of "wheerrreee areee myyyy criiiiisssppps" and yogurt covered raisins which I've told her are sweets

Annoying that all apts are in hospital just scans are for me. Bloods are at a clinic 2mins from my house.

swansea hope the next few weeks aren't too bad for you and you get some good rest, I agree with box sets (netflix is good?) And mumsnet ofc x

hmmm, yes I do feel an emergency purchase of organix over priced snacks. DS really prefers pickled onion monster munch . Going to the hospital is a bit of a pain, about 20 mins on the bus each way (or pay for parking, assuming you can find any on the street as there is no car park), and the usual irritations of appointments running late and grim waiting rooms. Last time some of the later routine appointments were with my GP, which was handy as she picked up a problem that the midwives had missed .

That is a pita, my hospital is 40min on the bus without stops although I know if I ever caught the bus for an important apt it would stop at every single one. 30ish in the car. Parking is astronomical! Luckily since I see a bereavement councillor in the hospice since loosing my Grandma I have a pass for there carpark which is 5min walk away so I do that

Hopefully we will have moved and be settled by the time the baby is due so ill be living 5mins from the hospital. As there's no way dp can leave the car in that carpark all day or longer its £5 for 2hrs!

bonzo here they only do the lucozade test if they suspect there may be a prob. I remember going to hospital first thing after downing a pint if lucozade on an empty stomach and trying hard not to vom all the way.
12 weeks tom, 4 days til scan (holds breath).

Woo hoo 3 weeks today I am gonna know what I am having horay !! as terrible as it may sound I really want a little girl this time, I know after what happened b4 with the mc I shouldn't have a preference but i know I will be just a little disappoinTed if I am am having another boy even if it is only for a couple of heartbeats. Is that bad?
feel rotten today suppose I need to get use to it.
wl I am sure your scan will go fine xx

Nothing bad about being honest about how you feel, you can't help how you feel and you know that whatever the flavour, as soon as the little mite is here you will love it with all your heart. DH was obviously disappointed for an instant when dd2 was born but after the second passed he couldn't have been more delighted with her.

swansea I have a longing for a boy, mainly because ds was a real joy, a very content easy baby and my dd, well she still doesn't sleep through at almost 4yo! And she is just harder work, can be a total delight but is very hard work.

But then shed adore a baby sister, and her sharing a room long term would make life easier whereas Ds likes his space and will be nearing 6yo when this LO is born.

I'm torn, Boy girl twins would have been perfect for me, but I've seen my single wiggler so I doubt there's one hiding

6 days until my next scan and I'm terrified again.