Due in October -part 3

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The third instalment as we're a talkative bunch!

mirikat i do the same thing.... i am always letting my mind wonder to the question - what if its not ok? my boyfriend says im very negative but i cant help it. I SO want it to be ok.
on the up side- today i actually feel good! i woke up feeling well and have stayed that way all the way through to lunch. I hope this is a sign that i am on my way out of the sickness. i feel like a different person. :)

mirikat I squeeze my boobs too. Quite a lot! Realised I was doing it at my desk the other day so have had to start shuffling off to the toilet. Don't want my colleagues knowing I'm bonkers... yet!

Thanks for all the nice comments guys. I didn't mean to react like a schoolgirl, just a bit odd.

lisbethsopposite - you're too kind. I guess there is a fine line between gratitude and gloating. I try very hard to highlight the positive things in my life. I do have lots of things that other people don't have - I'm very aware of it and very grateful for it.

I actually had a pretty rough few years tail end of medical school - my best friend died at 26 of cancer, it was a complete shock, and immediately after that me and my boyfriend had to leave home and move back into his parents house to look after his dad who was dying (also of cancer) because he wanted to die at home, we were sleeping under a table in his spare room for months (no beds), then he died, med school were complete bastards about it all and just kept sending me emails saying I was behind and failing, then me and boyfriend broke up, and I had no money cause I'd been in med school not earning for years, and my parents decided to move to another country... it was just shit. I did get back together with the boyfriend but it took years to heal that. I kept my head down and worked very hard at the time, and about a year later I was sleeping 1-2 hours a night and low all the time. I went to a GP after an eternity and he put me on antidepressants which I had a rare and horrible reaction too, then I took another lot which never helped my mood but made me fat stupid and killed my sex drive. I came off tablets and tried to cure myself with exercise and working excessive hours (somehow I graduated as a doctor in the middle of all this). It worked but it took years. Anyway the point of all that is: for the last year I've been pretty good really and I am just so - appreciative - of it - that I write endless things about how wonderful my mates are and how much I'm enjoying life. I don't know, if that makes sense. I am just someone who is very happy to have got back on my feet. It might come off like gloating to some... but all I feel is grateful.

And now I feel really exposed that I've written that and feel like I probably shouldn't post it. but. well. I'm going to anyway.

mirikat if the fact of the bun in the oven means your teeth aren't set on edge by others' screaming brats, you're a better person than me. Took our baby to see her Australian grandparents late last year and other screamers still made me want to jump out of the plane. Our DD was, of course, a complete angel .

squidkid i think it helps to share these feelings. Its quite nice to write it down sometimes even though we are a bunch of strangers.

I suffered from depression when i was yonger. At the age of 15 after my depression got quite bad they put me on anti-depressants. I took them until i was 22.
When i look back i cant believe they put me on them when i was so young. I became quite a different person, very out going and loud, but it was artifical. The Anti-depressants made me someone i wasnt. When i got to 22 i decided i didnt want to take drugs every day anymore and i took myself off them. It was tough but i felt such an achievement and beating it myself. Now i am also thankful for myself and my control over my emotions. And greatful for all the good.
I think it is how we should all be. Good for you for sticking with it and achieveing so much :)

Hilarious resipsa am grinding my molars at the thought! Plane-rage is bad enough without adding the erratic hormones and tendency to gag wildly at the smell of other people's food into the mix! I actually work in the airport over here, and find myself gazing at the people waiting to board the Abu Dhabi to Sydney flights, their offspring already howling at the departure gates, with a mixture of awe, horror, terror and relief that it's not me that's going to be strapped in listening to it for 15 hours...am clearly going to get my comeuppance in late October when I (hopefully) fly back from London with our little bundle of love!

Afternoon ladies :-) I hope everyone has had a decent day.

Had a good day today where I felt like a human being again which has been novel I'm not too worried though as I have no other signs to suggest otherwise also I've not taken the sickness bands off all day lol

Also just cooked dinner for later which is the first time I have felt like doing so in weeks without the need to hurl at only the idea!!!

ladies can i ask how you date your pregancy? I am getting so confused. Do i date it from the first day of my last period (11 weeks now) and therefore if i am looking online at baby development i should look at week 11. Or should i date it from the conception which i know to be 8 weeks ago? And then i should be looking at online baby development trackers at week 8? Also- when they say you are more safe from MC at week 12 - do they mean 12 weeks from the first day or your last period? or when baby is actually 12 weeks old? Im getting confused over whether i am nearly there - or actually still weeks away.....

Wow!! I haven't been on here for a while and think after about half an hour of reading I have caught up. A little bit too much drama for me but I shall be dipping in and out. I totally agree YompingJo these threads are great for support but also can make you worry more.

As always to everyone who is suffering for whatever reason, massive love and hugs.

I am exhausted constantly but it is all worth it! Have my scan on 26th march and can't wait for that.

Hope everyone is well.

xxx

Chrissie it is dated from first day of last period - so you should probably be on the September thread by the sounds of things! lol :o

squidkid good for you mate. I don't agree with anti-depressants, although they are a fairly good short term solution, its the long term you have to think about. You've come out the other side!!
ChrissieJA Its always dated as the first day of your last period. Strange really, you are counted as two weeks pregnant before conception has begun. Well,, they say two weeks but I know mine wasn't concieved until 4, but I'm still counted as 7 weeks pregnant.
Well I have had an absolutely sparko day today, fell asleep on my cousin's sofa and have only just got up!! May just tell the DP that I've been so busy all day... Then i can sleep all evening, woo! I am lucky that he likes cooking dinner.
:) Hope you've all had good days x

thanks ladies. Wow so i really am 11 weeks. :) they did say my due date was October 1st. i cant believe it. ive been calling myself 8 weeks! hehe.

chrissie the dr will date you from the date of your last period but if you know u have a longer cycle then be prepared for baby to not be as far on when you have a scan.
I'm due 3rd of October by my last period but scan and ov tests show I'm due 6th. (My cycle is 31 days long)

Tarty Hod did you get on today?

Ok so that was supposed to be how and I posted a bit prematurely. Been thinking of you and hope you are ok.

And again I was a bit premature... just leaving for pilates. Must try not to fart when rolling like a ball or puke when doing my roll downs.

Midget laughing at the thought of your pilates escapades!
I've had a busy day at work...and wore my gorgeous LK Bennett dress for what I think will be the last time in a while - I am bursting at the seams :(

Still consoled myself by looking at the gorgeous maternity dresses on here:
www.tiffanyrose.com/
and wondering if I can persuade DH to treat me to one or two without taking out a second mortgage!!

Hope everyone has had a good day xxx

reporting in!

also love the tiffany rose dresses but there is no way im forking out that much for a dress i'll only wear once!

2LM - Glad you are able to get a bit of rest in (ps I love big bang theory) I hope everything works out for you.

Squid - glad you got past the rain clouds and found your rainbow. I appreciate those who can focus on the good things. It's so tough when having experienced something so negative to get past that and be thankful for what we have now.

Midget - Laughing about the pilates (has anyone seen the craigslist ad for the used yoga mat, used once?) weirdhub.com/new/2011/09/yoga-mat-for-sale-used-once-1/

So, I'm having a bit of a crappy day at work. It's snowing and blowing outside and generally miserable so that is not making matters any better.
So trying to be a conciderate employee has backfired on me. At my first booking in appointment (as i may have mentioned before) one of my coworkers ended up being in the waiting room when the Dr came out and started talking to the nurse about booking me in for a second prenatal appointment. DOH! While I wasn't prepared to tell anyone yet, i don't know if this one staff member is a gossip or not. So I thought I would rather have my boss hear straight from me, rather than through the grapevine. So I told my supervisor, and 2 direct reports. They seemed very happy for me...
Fast forward to this morning....
I get to work and am told that they will be hiring a new staff member (at a pay level higher than me) who will basically be taking over what I currently do 90% of the time (scheduling assistant to Dean and Vice-Dean). This will leave me with basically general receptionist duties, and technology support.

Right now it feels like I am being "creatively replaced" because they know that I will be leaving. I also feel like a bit of a failure as they feel the need to give my #1 job priority to someone else. :(

Hey peeps. So many messages, so little time. Planned to have a good read and respond this evening but I'm too tired. Finished work, did a food shop, had a snooze, did some edits, ate a pie. Well, half a pie as DH ate the other half. Going to do more bloody edits, watch a DVD and fall into bed.

Night honeys hugs all round xo

Evening all, thank goodness another monday at work is over!

squidkid and Chrissie JA you both are amazing, it takes massives strength to turn life around as you guys have. You have really put my inconsequential preg grumblings into context. Thanks for sharing.

DC2 doing okay I think/hope, I had an early scan last week due to mmc in Sept last year, midwife was lovely and really positive and didn't make me feel like a total idiot when we discovered that I can't count - I told her I was 7 weeks, but was actually only 6!! I cannot believe how slowly time is going! Heart was beating away, so hoping its still going strong. DH is convinced it wil be fine as he says my hormones are all over the shop, and I apparently have lost my sense of humour! I blame his bad jokes!

Anyway best of luck and good wishes to all.

I've had a massive day - can I share? Skip if drama is not for you.

I ran into Tesco at 8AM and got 2 cheap pregnancy test kits. At work a few hours later I did the biz. I did the test as this is #2 and I felt ghastly at this stage with #1. I do not feel pregnant. Anyway this is an IVF cycle and I'm on oestrogen and progesterone med for the first trimester. Apparantly they support the endometrium. In a failed IVF cycle your period wont come until a few days after you have stopped the meds.

Anyway heart plummeted to boots, as saw generalised pinkness, but not a distinct line. Phone rang immediately, and had to deal with work. Rang DH at first chance and then the tears started. He was devastated also. I decided that as the whole window was slightly pink and there was now a (very faint) line and it was only 99+% reliable to go down to the pharmacy and get a second test.
I also phoned our local EPU and now have a scan booked for the morning.
I looked at the test every 20mins, and after a while the test window went whiter and there is a definite faint pink line. SO, first chance I popped out. I did the test with Clearblue, and it is positive. Immediately rang DH again, shared the relief.

Since I came home I've been looking up why lines could be faint, and they are saying early tests (I'm 9 weeks!!).
So, I'm delighted the EPU will scan me again, and I'm relieved at the Clearblue test. I also realise that I have some pregnancy symptoms (that are not related to the doses of meds I take every 8 hours!), so maybe it is just that this pregnancy IS different.

Anyway, I feel I've unburdened on a friend ladies, I am more positive than negative, and I will be back to share tomorrow night.

Beeblebear at the doctor's surgery - that's a major breach of confidentiality to have discussed that in a public place. You might want to feed that back to the surgery, and the fall-out you've experienced as a direct result? Also, it sounds like you need to check out your rights at work if they're edging you out. I don't have a clue about these things but sounds very dodgy to me

Beeblebear - agree with Dame. Silly doc.
Check out your rights. Can you get a retrospective pay increase if you have been effectively working above your salary? Are you in a union? Can you join one?
Don't mess with hormonal women...

Beeblebear, that's not so great but please don't take it the worst way. Did you have a chance to talk it through with them in a private setting?

I haven't had a chance to read through thread number 2 but whatever has been going on, no one should feel the need to leave over it. This is an internet forum and if you feel that you are getting support from it, that's great. There are some right weirdos on MN but none here that I've seen yet :o

I have my booking appointment tomorrow and am quite excited. It's the same MW as I had with DS and she is seriously old-school. She did irritate me rather a lot by going on and on and on about all the benefits I was 'entitled to' and how I should put my name down for a council house etc., even though I had filled out all the forms saying I was married, have a good job, earn x much and own our own home Hopefully this time I will be old enough for her to take me seriously! Sometimes being a younger mum isn't the greatest.

Our plan of waiting until 12 weeks didn't work out. I told my parents on Friday and DH's parents on Saturday and Sunday Two close friends also know. We are doing worse than last time round! We at least made it to 8 weeks then.

Is anyone else getting the munchies? In the past week I have had to have a full English breakfast, an avocado, Frosties, Cheerios, several packets of cream crackers, Stilton and sweet chilli sauce on said cream crackers, Frazzles, a banana... I am strongly anti-breakfast cereal when I'm not pregnant so DH is over the moon at my hypocrisy!