Beanies are cooking nicely!!!!! (part 2)

[jessicaandbumpsmummy]

Here you go girls!

hi all cant believe time is passing soo quickly

Bella am sooo happy everything went well on monday...eeekkkkkkkk your going to have a baby hun!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rom due date today..wow hoping little dolly makes a move soon for you.

Hope everyone else is ok...
I do read but never seem to get time to post..lol

I have posted a picture of Charlotte on Member Profiles...

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Hello Ladies

Thank you so much for still thinking about me. You are truly a wonderful bunch of ladies.

It has been so long since I logged on that I have alot of congratulations to say, so here goes:

Tabs - Congraulations on the birth of your daughter

Munz - Congratulations on the birth of your son

Cadmum- Congratulations on the birth of your daughter

Frizbe - Congratulations on the birth of your daughter

M&MB - Congratulations on your BFP - that is the most fantastic news. I am willing you throught the next 7/8 months

Bella - Congratulations on reaching the 12 week mark and on your wonderful scan news. You are going to do it.

Rom - I hope that I will be able to add my congratulations to you very soon. I am sure you are at the stage where you just want to hold your LO in your arms.

I am trying to get back to some sort of normality but life is very difficult at the moment. We have our consultants review appointment next Tuesday and we will decide from that meeting whether we are going to try another cycle of treatment, or not.

I go from wanting to try again as soon as possible to never wanting to hear the word IVF again, but DH is not keen to go through this experience again. I know it is really hard on him seeing me in such a state when everything goes pear shaped but I don't think he really appreciates how difficult it is for me to simply close the door on fertility treatments and walk away, but unless the clinic can guarantee they are going to offer us a different drug regime to try and reduce the chances of another m/c I just know he will not try again.

I still have mixed feelings about adoption - home vs abroad etc. I really cannot make any decisions about what I am going to do until after the appointment next week, but I am so tired of putting my life on hold. It will soon be 2 years from I found out I was pg with Adam and I can honestly say that I have not lived for 2 years. We have booked a few days to Edinburgh at the end of April and I don't know that I want to go now, but hopefully a little bit of time on our own will do us the world of good, give us the time to talk about things rationally without all the pressures of daily life at home.

I am so sorry for rambling on - I should really have posted ages ago and then this post would not have been so long!!

Take care everyone. I think about you all often and what wonderful friends you have all become to me. There are times over the last month I could have been doing with friend like you in real life.

Love
Wendy

Evening all,

How's things going in the land of beanies?

CadMum Charlie is a dream she is gorgeous (I hadn't noticed the 'tude either ).

Rom sending you massive labour and pushing vibes looking forward to hearing about your new arrival - friday evening early labour on MN would be cool please . Congrats on completion on your home too, just in time so the stress is out of the way, well expect the decorating of course.

Hi George, hope you get a break and manage to get caught up with a little bit of sleep soon - it's horrible isn't it and makes everything else so much harder I found.

Munz how's things going with you and Joey hope it's going well. I'll snidey a look on the postnatal thread at the weekend just to keep my eye on you.

Ugh back to the evening feeling yuck, really didn't feel this bad with DS and certainly not at this point. I'm only 7 weeks tomorrow. Back to my Mum's tomorrow so hoping for some TLC. I've told my Mum and my boss as I keep having to dive out of the office but we're not saying anything to others until after the first scan, which I know we'll get slated for but hey ho.

Hope everyone else is fine and dandy, Friz,Handbag, DQ, Tabs, J&RM and I'll catch up again on Saturday.

H x

Oh Wendy I x'd posts with you.

It's wonderful to hear from you. I do think about you and your DH and Adam a lot.

Thank you for your best wishes it means a lot.

So many things I want to say but am so useless that it will all come out wrong. But just want to send you so much love and hugs. Please let us know how your appointment goes on Tuesday (if you want to of course).

You don't need to appologise for posting at any time, and you're not rambling.

Take special care of you and Dh and hope you are able to get a break in Edinburgh.

H x

Wendy – its so lovely to hear from you.

I am really sorry that that you are having to go through this, life is just so tough sometimes. I think a few days away with your DH will do you good, a good opportunity to talk things through calmly and away from everything. Trying for a baby takes over your life and people don’t realise that it’s a permanent ache and with your treatment there is just total heartache as well. The fear of never having children is a pain just to much for anyone to bear!

I really feel that you shouldn’t give up hope, I think the clinic needs to give you some answers and if it can’t then you need to go somewhere else. I can totally see where your DH is coming from, I think men feel totally helpless when they see their wife going through so much emotional pain and just want to prevent that from happening.
Hopefully you can really talk things through and perhaps agree a time limit on how much longer to go on – perhaps two more cycles or for 1 more year. Does your clinic offer counselling? If not perhaps it might help you to find someone privately that you can talk things through with as I think it really helps to get your feelings out and I think your DH is just too close to hear it all. RL friends are great but it’s hard for people to “get it” when they have no experience of the pain of infertility; worth thinking about.

I wish there was more I could say to take away your pain, I totally understand the concept of just existing and not having a life, I spent all of last year doing that so have a small taster of how you feel.

I wish you and your DH the warmest wishes and hope that whatever you decide going forward that you come on here and let us all know. If you ever need someone to cry at / or even have a scream of “its not fair” then I am always here to listen, you can always CAT me.

Lots of Love xx

Cadmum - OH MY GOD - how cute !!!!!!!!!

Rom - any stirrings??

George - arh, you big softie over my scan piccie

Right will try to get over my muppet abilities and try and upload the piccie....

{{{Wend}}}y:

My thoughts continue to be with you and your DH. You certainly face some challenging decisions that only you can make as a couple. I just cannot imagine your heartache.

You are such a strong person for continuing to keep up with all of our progress and for offering congratulations. I hope to be here to follow your journey when it is your time.

IVF and adoption are such emotional roller-coasters but they can bring great happiness with success. Run with your instinct and try to do what is best for you.

You deserve to be able to live happily rather then just existing but you have been through ever so much and need to be kind to yourself as your heart heals.

We are all here for you if and when you need to be heard.

George: I think that Charlotte may have liked your limpit suggestion; she fed all night without a bottle!!!

Right here is a link for my scan piccie

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If it doesn't work then I give up !!

Woo Hoo Bella! Thanks for the link! Beanie looks beautiful! Will you find out if it is a blue or a pink flavoured one?

Do you need maternity clothes? what size do you wear? How tall are you?

(I happen to have quite a bit and I would be delighted to pass them on to you.)

awww bella - that is so cute!

HUGE congrats xxx

Wendy so lovely to hear from you, and as cadmum said, it is so good of you to be happy for all the beanie ladies and congratulate everyone, when it must be incredibly hard for you. Having known you through MN for the past, what is it - nearly a year? - i wouldnt expect anything less. You are one courageous strong lady who we all know would make a great mother. I wont repeat all that bella and cadmum have said so well, although i echo many of those thoughts - but will say that i am a great believer in never giving up. you still have time on your side and from the sounds of things, you have a strong urge to carry on this journey - even though you know the heartbreak only too well. as someone else said - go with what your heart tells you to do - trust your instincts and dont lose faith in yourself. i cant help thinking you have got so near before, why not again? anyway you dont need me casting opinions, so i will shut up now and just say i really wish you the very best in whatever you do decide and hope that this year brings you some much needed happiness back into your lives. x

cadmum - thanks for the vibes! i was told at my midwife appt. this morning that her head is not even engaged, and she is very much LPO. induction date is now looming. does the head not being engaged at this stage mean nothing will happen naturally?

bella - lovely scan and clearly you are not a muppet!

M&MB - lots of early nights for you, i reckon its a girl!

Wendy, it's so lovely to see you posting again.

I hope that you and your DH find the strength to make the decisions you need to take that next journey. Whatever you decide you have some good friends here who will be behind you and always willing to listen when you need an ear.

xxx

Rom: I suppose that it goes without saying that you know to be spending as much time on your hands and knees as possible. The other suggestion is that you turn your chair backwards and lean forward on the back rather than sitting properly at the table.

As you know, nothing worked for me and 3 of my little ones were sunny-side-up. I have yet to have a head engaged before labour and 2 of mine were natural including DS2 who was posterior. In fact his labour was crampy for 1/2 day followed by waters going at 2 :30 am and delivery after one push for his head at 5:16 am. I don't think that you can say for sure that you will not go naturally but I do think that your chances would be better if your little girl was in a better position. HTH.

Glad the feeding is getting better for you Cadmum.

Right Rom, I have good feelings about this weekend for you and your little girl so get ready!

We are over the hideous growth spurt and day of temperature & painful boobs for me yesterday, just in time to go down to Cornwall. Can't wait even though we won't be doing an awful lot down there. Just looking forward to seeing the sea.

Hope everyone has a good week.
xx

Rom - hope you are on all fours as Cadmum suggests, what a picture I have in my mind

Cadmum - well DH suprised me in saying that he'd like to know the flavour of the little one but I really don't. Well we have a until the 23 week scan to decide, although I will definately win this decision seeing as I am doing all the hard work!
OOh how sweet to offer maternity clothes....but are you sure there won't be a 5th twinkling away in DH's eye??
Well due to vast amounts of comfort eating last year I am now a size 14 and pretty average height 5f 5

George - love Cornwall, lovely to be by the sea, have a lovely time xx

cadmum: thanks for all your great advice - i do see you as the expert on this thread! having been through this four times! i have been slightly lame about the all fours thing - i start it, then get very uncomfortable after about 10 mins and usually give up. i must try harder!

george - i hope you are right! thanks for the good feelings!
and i hope that the weather in cornwall is a lot better than it is here in london for you!

bella - however ridiculous the picture in your mind is, i can assure you the reality is just as ridiculous, pregnancy is a very humbling experience, lol

hi nemo, munzie hun, DQ, M&MB, Wendy, SK, Yellowbear, J&RM, tabs, handbag and anyone else i've missed x

Hello Ladies

Thank you so much for your kindness - you have reduced me to tears, but I have to say in a good way and not in a sad way.

I hope you are all well and that all LO's are behaving well for their Mums.

Rom - I hope you are well. The waiting must be really getting to you now.

Take care everyone.

I will let you know how we get on at our review appoitment on Tuesday. Hopefully after that we will be able to make some decisions about where we go.

Wendy - hope the appt. on tuesday is a positive one, will look forward to hearing about it. yes, i am getting really impatient now i must admit. thanks for thinking of me x

how is friz? missing you and munzie already! i am very pleased you are devoting quality time to those new babes though - wouldnt have it any other way!

well i am feeling sick (again) today, but other than that, no signs of anything happening yet. sorry my posts make very dull reading!

Hi all, grabbed 5 mins to pop on and say Hi!!

Well I think all is well here, dd2 is a joy has started sleeping for a minimum of 5 hrs in a stretch at night how I love this baby!! (dd1 only did 3 to start with) and she's not a cryer so far, phew! good job as dd2 and ss are taking up all my spare time at the mo, lucky gran has just popped round, so I have a sec to get on here!
Have to say I had shocking afterpains last night again tho, hoping its nothing serious, as feeling a bit tender today too...MW thinks its just things settling down tho as pain killers are working......so that ruined our evening with relatives around as I spent it in bed feeling poorly.....anyone else having bad afterpains? Caddy? Munz?

Wendy many thanks for the thanks, did you check out the info from Liverpool Uni? I really hope things go well for you this time {{{Big Hugs}}} we're all here for you if you need us

M&MB hope the sickness is getting better, ginger ale did it for me!

George hope Cornwall Good

Rom sending you lots of labour vibes honey, horrible when you go over, 'ommmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm'

Righty hope everyone else ok, gona check out the other threads now!!

Rom ........no sign?
Bless, hope you are hangin in there!

Frizbe: I am so glad to read that you are also having after-pains today because I am too! I was just starting to worry that it might be something worse as well. Since our girls were born on the same day, it may be that your midwife is correct about things just settling back into place.

How are you feeling otherwise? Other than tired and somewhat discouraged by Charlotte's interesting feeding habits, I feel well.

Rom: Still sending you labour vibes.

Munzie: I hope you and Joseph are still enjoying your baby-moon.

George: I hope Jake is finished with his growth spurt. I had forgotten all about the feeding marathons. I sure hope that Charlotte doesn't still have strange ideas about bottles when she has her first spurt.

Bella: Would you like me to email you some photos of the maternity clothes or shall I just send the lot and you can pass on what you don't like/cannot use? I am actually 5' 10" so some of the trousers may be a bit long but I have several shirts, a dress (the perfect little black dress, only maternity) and two cardigans that should fit beautifully.

Oh my goodness Friz! That didn't come out quite right. I am not really glad that you are in pain... Jsut relieved that I am not the only one IYKWIM