January 2009- Help! A toddler ate my baby!

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Welcome back tree - I've also been watching 1 born every minute and thinking of you - come on, tell us honestly, do you get a little bit cross with some women who are totally freaking out even right at the very beginning (like that girl last week)? Or do you think some women just really do feel it much more than others?

hkz we tried bedtime milk tonight - 2 sips and was thrown aside so no joy there. Will keep trying though.

gumps how was your night? poor little man asleep in pool of sick and poor you cleaning it up - hope he slept for you. My 'night weaning' is currently, ahem, on hold, as I'm wimping out waiting for him to get totally better (still snotty from chest infection).

Yuck at rats!

MM party sounds terrifying! I would just invite the girls.

Lovely day today, just beautiful - walked along the canal with my brother and N sleeping in buggy.

LOL at Moose. Went to watch dh play rugby today. My 2 boys rolled in the mud, kicked balls and ran around like nutters. Their 2 little girl friends started off pushing their scary looking dollies in their pushchairs but in the end converted to the mud and tackling. It was ace
S slept until 630 which was pretty good. I, however, have gone back to that horrible stage of waking and then waiting for them to wake and then not going back to sleep iyswim. That, a horrid cold, a drunken dh about to arrive home and my turn to get up again tonight is not adding up for a great nights sleep....
Pat glad you have your space back to yourselves. Was it nice to have lots of help for the half term break though? I am tired even thinking about going back to work and feeling quite sad about it. Tree we can all hold hands through it and think of the good things other than missing our babies. Weeing on your own, drinking tea before it gets cold, conversations that don't involve mummy? yes? mummy? yes? mummy? yes? mummy (as a statement)

MissJ don't blame you at all for wimping out, tough love is so difficult. However when no sleep results in me shouting at ds1 and arguing with dh, we have to do something. S is so happy during the day and I kiss him millions and millions of times to make sure he knows I love him but that he has to learn to sleep god damn it!
I have taped one born every minute. I meant to watch it tonight but went for desperate housewives and what katie did next instead

ha - million dollar question!

I try not to ever never judge

The only time I feel a bit sad is when I hear people listen for us then start doing the contracting thing. Afterall it doesn't matter what i think and I don't need convincing or impressing - it's the cervix that decides when a baby is born, not the midwife!

But then I try to rationalise why they may feel so lacking in power, and why they might want their pregnancy over, have no knowledge of the process or understanding of the powers at work.....I may not be stellar at that at 4am . It's all good though. Just people.
I missed this week - bugger.

Tree I have only done it twice but how you can face the emotion of a birth every day is amazing. It is draining and don't mean in a physical sense. Even dh said he could never be a midwife and he is hard as nails and stayed awake for all sorts of surgery on his rugby battered body.

Books tummy muscles? what are those? mine seen to be hidden under the layer of chinese takeaway and haribos oh and chocolate caramel butons I have just eaten..
Drunken dh is taking a long time to stumble home.

It is draining. It's true. when I come home I can't even speak, I have run out of nice and I really can't do small talk. I'm a joy

But you know, we are all the same. We want someone to be nice to us. Thats basic and easy and I need to hang onto that. Age 14 to 44, we just want someone to be nice and believe us and say it's going to be ok.

What frightens me are the protocols, the paperwork and the staff, the working conditions, the lack of wee's and cups of teas.

Awwww. You should train up!!

morning

we enjoyed zoo it was marwell was abit dark and cold though and dd1 doesnt do walking!!

oh tree - sure it will be ok!!

mm - party sounds awful hate fighting between kids dont blame u for not sending invites to some boys

ho to everyone else

have just done cleaning so on here now as dh and dd1 swimming

I am dying of a hangover....we tossed a coin to see who got to lie in. I lost. But worth the hangover, had a proper grown up night out, so Billy Cobham at Ronnie Scott's, went for a few drinks after in Soho and thentook forever trying to get home. Have some great neighbours and we have decided to take it in turns to babysit for each other, so last night was the first night and it all went well....so hopefully the first of many nights outon the razz. DH has got until 11 before i kick him out and get back in.

Helllllooooooo Tree. Sorry you've got that going back to work feeling...it is tough going back, but I found I really appreciated the 'me' sort of time it gives you, where you are ocncentrating on and thinking about something
that has nothing to do with your children, it made me feel a bit more like me and not just Lily and jude's slave mother....but the novelty has worn off now I hope it goes well though, as everyone was saying, it must be a pretty amazing job and i bet you are pretty amazing at it too.

MissJ...nighttime milk not much of a success here either, DS just downs it and still wakes up at 11!

I can't even focus properly on this screen, I only had three glasses of wine...but combined with only 5 hours sleep... Am off to curl up on the sofa while the children run riot play quietly.

HZ- very at your hangover, I feel rough but did not have the night out on the lash to go with it!

Tree- Do you really get some 14yr olds?? I would find it difficult not to be judgey I'm afraid, although I have come across a few very young mums-to-be during teaching and I suppose I never reallly thought about it in that much detail.
Are you based in hospital or are you community? Just wondered if you would be going straight back into full-blown delivery suite shifts or whether they ease you in. I completely second what Gumps has said about having a nice wee without an audience and some conversations that make sense, perhaps you should look forward to that tomorrow! Anyway, I'll stop talking about it and hope you are enjoying your sunday!
Reports done last nigt, just marking to do!

books- think you should work for the dept of health or whoever recruits midwives actually, that was a very moving speech, I sort of want to join up now

Just had a lovely text this morning from my friend who has just had her second baby, 11 days overdue. A very much longed for girl and it sounds like everything went well and she was able to have her at the birthing centre after not a very nice hospital experience last time round. Must go and get some more baby cards today, there is a spate of people dropping round here and I'm all cleaned out!

hi hkz - sounds like u had a much needed night out

pat - good news from your friend

how are you feeling Dog? I can't imagine being pregnant with H charging about. Are you tired? Hope the scan gets sorted soon.

HKZ

meetup

It's snowing heavily here, I hope all the staff get in tomorrow, I really don't want to be short staffed on the first day!!!!
Back onto delivery suite I should think, butI don't know. We don't know till the morning - I might be on the wards. Community trends to be for the mega experienced, for example I wouldn't feel confident suturing a perineum at home after a year out, or judging a blood pressure in clinic etc etc. I need some time at the coal face. I don;t think I'll be able to do community anytime soon - if the oncall bleep goes at 3am I won't be able to go as dh leaves at 5.30 or 6.30. Oncall and childcare don't mix!

Off to do some online CTG training - i'll be interpreting labour traces in the morning. EEK!!!

Youngest person I've come across was 12 which was sad really and the oldest 57. 8th baby was the most, but mostly it's late 20's having their first.

I think I'd be less worried if it wasn't 8 till 8. I'm going to miss them so so much. I wont see dd1 till Tuesday after school. Just pray it isn't busy, and I get lunch. That'll make a nice change

Big step backwards here last night. S woke at 409am and cried off and on until 615. Thank god that despite his hangover dh got up then as I had nothing left in me. Sitting outside your babies door and going in every 5 minutes is like sme sort of torture. He had a 40min doze on the way to church this morning and has finally given in and gone for a proper sleep now. A woman at church made a mistake of telling me how goregous he was this morning. She was cuddling her new born watching s jump around and I just shot her a look and said its all a big act he is a horror!
Tree how is H doing with her sleep? You haven't mentioned it for ages. Is that because its all sorted or you can't bear to talk about it? I am sure that the minute you step back in the door of work you will click back into it and it will feel like you have never been away.
Dog shame about missing the scan. How are you feeling? Any signs of a bump yet?
Pat yay that reports are done. HATED that about teaching, infact possibly the worst bit. I mean especially for PE as most people don't care and how many different ways can you write they can run and catch?
HKZ glad you had a good night out and hope you are tucked up sound asleep in bed.

gumps we do not speak of it. In the main. Day times have got better, she will sleep on her own for up to an hour in the cot or swing. Night times are the same

poor poor you. I know how you're feeling. I've also wanted to rip the head off well meaning people who comment on lovely placid H. I generally rant at them and they just stand there looking shocked and mumbling about their roast in the oven that will be burning back home.

CTG online thingie - did I bit but brain started to freeze and I began sectioning everybody. SO thought better stop as it's all monitired by the clinical leads . I also can't remember the paper work for epidural management/prescription/monitoring/doses atc. Lordy.

Also can anyone tell me how to do the childcare thing? I can't remember or figure it out. Mil &FIL are arrriving at 7, and i am leaving at 7.20. Both babies will be asleep or just blundering about sleepy.

I thought - porridge for dd1 in pan ready to heat, porridge for dd2 in pan ready to add formula to, ready to heat. Bowls and spoons on worktop waiting. Bib on highchair, and apron for dd to protect uniform

H can stay in sleepsuit till whenever, leave out nappy/wipes/change of clothes for when they are ready or for their house.

Uniform on DD radiator ready to wear. 2x20p in pinafore pocket ready for school juice, 20p for tuckshop toast.

Hairbrush and bobbles on table

shoes and coats in hall picked out.

School bag by door.
I need to put carseats in their car before I leave.

H needs - bottles, formula, few snacks, fishcakes for their tea, MIL doing rest of catering.

Am going to bring the dinner paymnents/letters and so on in to school on Tuesday. Make it easy.

DH is going to bring them home tomorrow night, so at least I don't have to think about Tuesday as well!

Can anyone think of anything else?