June 07 - Over here!!!!!

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oops, didn't notice the thread was getting too big!

PMSL at the Burn's night smilies; I thought they were wearing earphones.

not sure I agree with them; as a proud Scot, I hate all that fucking tacky tartan crap that we get labelled with, tartan tammies and fake ginger hair more than most

Congrats JBM

Gah! Baggins fell asleep before tea again

NOT Robin or Peter, Jbm, whatever you decide

Huge huge congratulations; he sounds like a lovely big chunky boy . By your photos, L looks like she is totally in love with him and how does DD1 feel about a little brother?

Norty, try not to feel guilty; these things happen and you couldn't have known. It's not like you skipped off on your training course knowing he was coming down with something. and the posh hotel....just enjoy, espoecially the breakfast buffet!!

better is a relative term Ria . I certainly feel better tonight after almost a bottle of wine already (I have more if I still feel the need)

tis truly shite here at the minute. I think (or leastways I'm hoping) that it's to do with changing my ADs and being on a comparatively smaller dose than I was before. Should go and see the doc (was meant to go a couple of weeks after changing; that was five weeks ago )

Nearly throttled DD today; after six hours of screeching and whining and wailing and refusing to listen or do as I asked I just snapped . Is it an age thing? A developmental thing? a personality thing? It's almost as if once she has decided on a course of action it has to be carried out to it's (in her mind) ultimate conclusion, regardless of what anyone else thinks. she went mental on the way to school today. Bumble was walking, and the safest way is for him to be attached to the pram via a wrsit strap; he won't tolerate holding my hand, and if I'm on the other end of the strap he tries to wriggle out of it, but he will trot happily if attached to the pram (makes for some rather distressing cowboy being dragged behind the horse type moments , but it generaqlly works ). Anyhoo, DD decided she wanted to hold bumble's strap, but the back wheel of the three wheeler kept catching her heels. I asked her to walk on the other side of the pram and she ognored me. I asked again and tried to lead her gently round and she went mental, sreaming and crying and jumping up and down. I thought she was going to be out in the road under the oncoming traffic, and I couldn't get her to calm down. I eventually had to grab her and force her into the pram and strap her in . I really don't remember DS1 being this bad, but maybe I am just blinkered by the passage of time and the fact that his behaviour now is soooo hideous.

Ach, sorry for the moan

I should get inside. The sun has definately gone to bed and it's getting cold and the midges are starting to bite. And on top of the great red weals where the strapping that the physio did came off today midge bites would be too too much.

Later lovelies xx

Hi guys.....osrry about my guilt trip the other night (thanks Jammy and Ria ).

He still has a runny bum - despite eating, drinking and running around as normal so I had to spoon the contents of his nappy into a sample jar today as well as take the day off work.

Shit, talk of the devil - he's crying - gotta go!

Jamlet was going to have been Manny if she'd been a boy. I also like James a lot.

Knee and lip sore today (though lip not so bad) after yesterday's fall. But managed to walk about 3 miles AND take Jamlet to soft play for 2 hours! That was her treat for being very good during her eye test at the hospital, including having drops put in. (The orthoptist was telling me they were going to give her some D-R-O-P-S, and having worked in a hospital years ago and heard all sorts of drugs and procedures referred to by initials, I was sat there trying to work out what the letter were for ) Her squint is getting worse so they're prescribing glasses.

x post Daisy!

I think its a age thing - you'd think my DD was fucking deaf sometimes. I make the mistake sometimes of thinking she doesn't understand what I'm asking her so she bloody does! Much of our trouble is her encouraging DS to do things that she knows are naughty and it sends us MAD. I expect him to just carry on regardless, but she thinks cos he can, she can as well.

Tonight "scruffy bear " couldn't be found and she was moaning and crying in bed. I went up twice and looked - DH went up there and told her to shut up and be quiet and go to bloody sleep - and she did! So perhaps I'm using the wrong tactics?!

Get back to the GP Daisy.....I've had to go back on mine as well as my anxierty started creeping back - will it never go away?

Congratulations JBM - your pictures are fab! My "unused" names of choice are Cameron , Callum, Fraser, Jamie and Daniel (doesn't really go with the surname ).

Oh poor little Jamlet, hopefully the glasses wont be for long and they can look very sweet too - when we were young the girls wore those horrible pink or blue glasses - do you remember??

Keep the names coming - Im afraid I don't like any of those suggestions!!! I'll probably end up picking Dave!!!!!!!!

Thanks for the kind words though!!!

I had those pink glasses And patches. For years. Trouble is although it made a good visual correctionto my lazy, squinty eye, I still don't see very well at all from that eye. I really don't want that to happen to Jamlet, so am not bothered by glasses for her from an aesthetic(sp?) point of view, but am nervous that it's following in my footsteps. I had weekly hospital appointments for some time, and still have vivid (and not all good) memories of it

Aw poor jamlet, but it hopefully wont be forever, and glasses are soooo much funkier than they were in our day; my friend's DD has a glittery lilac pair and one of DS1's classmates has Spiderman ones! My eye problems weren't picked up till I was 11 byt which time it was too late to correct it; so am paranoid about mine having similar problems. My mum was the same, so the genetic predisposition is there.

I must have missed the bit about you falling jammy; I hope you aren't too sore.

You can tell I've not been on MN much recently; I keep typing out the DC's full names and having to go back and change it!

sign on day today....really can't be bothered. Drunk too much wine last night and stayed up waaaaaaaay too late and then bumble was unsettled again so not much sleep was had. He has been up since befire 5 this morning, but thankfully DH got up with him. DH will have a double dose of long lies this weekend I think!

Not long now to my terrifying flight experience; we are going up in air cadet training planes on sunday. Am excited and terrified at the prospect in equal measure; they are really teeny tiny planes and we have to wear parachutes

blimey daisy, what on earth are you doing that for?

am havng a crappy day/general time of it too. Today especially, I am at wanting to cancel/go to bed and cry point about having the family round at the weekend for baggins birthday. Everywhere I turn there are fecking cookbooks where there weren't before, and phone chargers, and all the crap and clutter I spent all that time sorting out is creeping back in , and double the laundry. I really really want to just sit and weep. The promises about work changing were (as usual, but also not DHs fault) empty. Haven't had decent sleep for days, and have had to have my implant wound steri-stripped cos it hasn't healed yet. I am feeling about the whole thing and in the dark moments I've had this morning have begun to wonder if I wasn't better off on my own

sorry

what about Luke JBM? Toby? Jonty?

aw Ria; this is supposed to be making things better and if it isn't and you were happier on your own then maybe that's what's meant to be? DH has to do his share of the compromise and to change so that you can both move on from this; if he is just taking on exactly where he left off then where is the change?

Talk to him lovely; don't brood on it. And don't worry about the family; they're there for you and baggins and the odd recipe book isn't going to make them think badly of you!

airplane thing seemed like a good idea at the time! the planes are basically gliders with a small engine. Am kind of excited as the smallest thing I've ever been in is a little twin propellor thing flying Leeds to Edinburgh once.

thanks for the votes on the totsbots thing, but I fear I'm not in the running! this reminds me why I hate popularity contests...and surely if they are making you go to the effort of thinking something up, they should judge on which one is funniest, not who gets the most friends voting for them

Having some hideous parenting ishooos at the minute again with DS2; we need some quality "us" time I fear.

thanks daisy. I had a nap and a bit of a guarded moan to DH, and it's OK again. I think it's more me TBH and how pathetic I get when I've invited people round (and I'm in a tizz about my course and baggins going to nursery etc, but that's for another day). We now have an agreement that Tuesday will be "attack the chaos" day, and that it will all be sorted by the end of the month (i don't believe that for a second, but I think he is trying in his own way). Have spent the whole evening since my nap in the garden and feel so much better. (even though it still won't meet Dsis's standards, but there are minimal weeds and I've planted out my strawberries, lettuce and petunias). Fecking toad nearly killed me though. am still in shock!

think I have missed something with voting for you, sorry.

DS1 used to see the opthalmic (is that right?) nurse at the hospital from being 5/6, he loved her, but didn't like the specialist man, and the D R O P S aren't pleasant, but IIRC it's over quite quickly? Sepcs are fab now, DS1 had some one year that had clip-on sunglasses to fit over the front of his specs. We actually have an opticians in our little village and we all go there now because they are so lovely. When DS first got his we used to go to specsavers in town (as we had to go to hospital in town first) and gof or lunch in a fish and chip place in town (always needed at least half a day off school for the appointments) Dniece has badly damaged retinas (I think)from all the surgery she had to have from being so prem, and she has always had fab specs (despite Dsis's lack of taste). Hope jamlet is happy with them when she gets them, good luck with it jammy

Jammy - Im sure everything will be ok for C - and surely theres been an advancement in what they do for eyes nowadays compared to when we were young?? I wouldnt worry. Ive just remembered that DD1 was desperate for glasses when she was about 8 or so, so her step mum found some which had just glass in them and she used to wear them and lie to her friends that she had been prescribed them!!

Good Luck with the planes Daisy - I bet it will be exilerating (sp?)

Ria - I second what Daisy said. My Ex, was full of promises and always let me down. Make sure he follows through - otherwise leopard/spots springs to mind......and you did so well flying solo.
Jonty may go on my - "oh thats unusual" list that Im compliling. But then I read them out to DP and he goes "No" "No, "No" !!

[hugs] to all

I just read a thread about a young Mum dying and it's made me feel really sad. DD is being really trying at the moment, and I keep losing my temper and shouting. It makes me feel like a crap mum.

Reading that thread has made me put things more in perspective. Sorry to ramble, but I just wanted to send a big [hug] to everyone on this thread, I think you are all fab Mums - keep it up xx

jbm.. im awful with names too, ds was unnamed for weeks, then we picked a name at random out a hat.. then changed it at 10 months to what i originally wanted to call him that dh hated
going reg office monday to legally change it! exciting

ria i know what you mean about stressing the house inst perfect for rellys. im always manic about it.
and i agree with the others about change. hope you can both work it out, and if not i hope a split would make you both happy.

jammy sorry about poor jamlet hope its all sorted for her

im on betablockers for my anxiety. tho i have low blood pressure so a little worried about taking them

finishing the painting we started before dhs hospital stay this weekend! im excited to get the kids room done

Jamlet is getting these. We collect them next Friday.

She made me laugh last night. I said for her to pick a book for bedtime and she ran off to the bookcase saying what sounded like "Pete's bare bum." I was wondering what she wanted, then she came back with "Each Peach Pear Plum"

Oh and for JBM - Marcus, Ivan, Ian, Duncan, Adam, or Julian?

Hello lovelies!

Back in the land of MN!

hope you are all ok xx

COllecting my new car on Thursday! 2005 Focus, so nothing overly exciting but still v happy. And finally, at the ripe age of 39, having had a driving licence for 22 years, I did my first test drive this morning!!

wb foxy

yay jammy!

just sorted out all of ellen clothes, shes had a growth spurt so bugger all fits again

and my period is late. again. still bf so dont expect them to be regular, but i will worry until i come on no matter how many tests i do.

got my interview at college thursday thinking about so its prob just stress

jammy, I think Dniece had something like those, yay for car too.

baggins is a tetchy 3 yo tonight. I did it though, my Dad came in the house and said "it's very tidy in here what's up?" (does that mean it looked good, or it usually looks really bad?). Dad brought his gas BBQ and cooked, mum gave instructions, and Dsis and I ran around like, well, you know what. The kids were all pretty good, baggins was gorgeous, and my uncle came too, so that was nice (was worried about that cos he's only been here twice and that was with my late aunt). Am buggered though, and upstairs is a state, but am relaxing with a glass of wine now. Trampoline fab too. My Dad is brilliant.

Got 74 for my first essay. I am chuffed with that because I aren't "connecting" with the subject much (and I did rewrite the whole thing just before I emailed it)

Glad you enjoyed your flight Daisy.

fairy, I can't read things like that.

yay for painting CC, need to finish some here, and start on the hallway that someone gave us a carpet for, but it's too much like hard work.

Duncan is nice JBM. How about Nathaniel? (I love that name, but DHs eldest is called something similar).

Watched a brilliant film last night - Whatever happened to Harry Smith (or something like that), really funny, watched one with Max Beesley in the other week called The Match, I liked that too.

to daisy and Norty today too, hope you are both OK and having happy memories.

CC, IKWYM, despite the implant (and lack of "action") I was still worried, as the implant isn't as effective for as long if you are overweight. Am very relieved to have TOTM today, as it explains many things - tetchiness, exhaustion, misery (that could have been the fecking football though) and the significant weight gain I had last week. Back on the WW Tuesday, can't have Dsis beating me!

Blimey, loads to catch up on - makes a change!

Sorry to hear about the glasses Jammy, but those ones did look very cute and I'm sure DD will look lovely in them.

Daisy - you are very brave doing that flight. Fuck that! I am not scared of flying at all but never in a month of Sunday's would I go in something that size - especially with no engine running!

Didn't read the thread you were talking about Fairy....I remember when I got my very first mortgage and turning down critical illness cover and the woman said to me that it something people get as they get older....and it is so true. I try to avoid threads/stories like that so it won't happen to me but often find myself drawn to them. I see such a bias of ill health with my job, it is horrible sometimes. I've also got to the age where the next generation are beginning to go.

Thanks for the hugs Ria yesterday. I try to go and see my dad a few days before Father's day so I don't interupt DHs day. DH had a lovely day yesterday getting G&B Chocolate, Man City shirt, Roast beef dinner and rubarb crumble and custard!

Beautiful weather today so took DCs to a local farm / adventure playground. DS is fearless! But I am too protective to let him get on with it .

I am SO looking forward to getting back to work tomorrow - been stuck in with a poorly DS since last Wednesday - thankfully he is much better - but I think even if he wasn't, he'd be going - I need a break!

All this talk about implants etc has made me realise I haven't had a period for ages and ages - so finally the coil is doing its business (well I hope so anyway .

Bloody well done on the essay Ria

Hey Ria - that's fab result for that essay! Well done you And glad things went well at the weekend. How are things with DH by the way? I support what everyone else has said about making sure you get what you want out of this and don't let things slip back - remember how well you did while he was gone. But equally I really hope things do work out for you both together - not wishing you to part company again, honest!