Steaky - this is going to come out wrong, but I'll have a go.
Since you decided to come back to England, there has been more pain in your posts about mansteak and your hopes for your life in France.
For a spell there it had sounded as if you were trying, for perfectly good reasons, to keep the pain at bay or wish it away. Cyteen was talking about this kind of thing with her grief too.
The pain you feel today is, as everyone said, the right thing to feel about things ending. And tomorrow will be the first day of looking forward ...
It's alright for me to talk about it when I don't have to feel any of the sodding emotions - sorry if this all sounds patronising. I can't get the words straight.
The anaesthetic properties of cake, wine and ice-cream are fully sanctioned anyway. I am a doctor you know. .
Cyteen-happy birthday to your marvellous Joe. He is so lucky to have you as his adoring, capable and wise mum.
My DD1, the indefatigable Maud, set off on her first day at playschool today without a backward glance. She is one of those lucky people who has complete ease in any social situation.
It is too quiet without her here. Still, it is only one morning a week so even a wuss like me should be able to cope.