morning all,
LBB, well done on keeping up the no smoking. How many stars on your chart now?
PT at your DS pinching your food so young!
H has been watching us eating for weeks now so we've just started giving him a little bit of fruit/vanilla custard baby food at tea time. He was obviously starving when we went out early this morning so might have to introduce mornings too although I'd rather wait until after Monday to get the funeral out of the way as will be rushing around a lot the next few days.
Yesterday was a very long day. Went down to mum's and was dreading going into the house as its where she died. DH managed to lighten the mood a bit though by dropping the door key onto the grate over a drain. When the clumbsy oaf went to pick it up it fell down the drain. There was a look of horror on his face and he then pulled the grate off and stuck his arm up to the elbow down it to try to retrieve the key. Thankfully he managed to get it but ended up with a particularly smelly arm which was covered in something pretty nasty.
Anyway, once we got into the house, we were more focused on cleaning him up and getting rid of the smell. I was gutted to find my brothers had cleared out a lot of stuff including the entire contents of upstairs (little bungalow with room up in loft) and had thrown out so many sentimental things, including the rosarys my DD asked me to get. I did however manage to find a few other rosarys and have kept one for DD1 and the other I put in mum's coffin. I had wanted her to keep her wedding ring but was overuled by my brothers who insisted it was removed which made me sad.
I found loads of photos of my mum and dad, including a lovely one of them with my brother who died aged 3 which was obviously taken at his christening. I grabbed boxes of photos and this morning went to see a photographer friends of DH's who managed to come out with some fabulous 8 x 10 prints from the tiny proofs I'd found and I had a few copies done for myself and brothers and had two laminated to put as a temporary gravemarker. Thought it would be nice as the three of them in the photo are all together in the grave.
Very mixed emotions going through mums stuff and what reduced me to tears was a bag I found in her wardrobe which was full of some clothes she'd obviously bought for DD2 and some brand new baby boy clothes aged 3 to 6 months and a little blue blanket with a teddy bear on. It meant the world to me that she had thought about Harrison and even though she'd been ill (she was admitted to hospital when he was just 3 days old and was in for 6 weeks) she'd made time to get to the shops and buy things for him. Priceless.
Also found her jewellery box and eventually the key which was a relief as my brother admitted he thought he might have thrown it out! Now there will no doubt be rows about who has what
Anyway, managed to get a few nice momentos for the kids, rosary for DD1 and my dad's set of dominos that he taught the kids to play with for DS1. Things that specifically remind them of nanny and grandad.
Found the doll that DD2 was supposed to have got for xmas from nanny (remember the stapler saga at xmas?) so I'm glad she has that and Harrison has his teddy comforter.
Went to the FD and spent around an hour in total with her. They wouldn't let mem see her but they put in cards that DCs 1 and 2 had written and I wrote a note from DD2 and DS2 and put in photos and her rosery and also a copy of the poems that she'd written when her first son died. Took DD2 and DS2 in as it was closed coffin and DD was as good as gold and said 'goodbye nanny' which was sweet. I held DS up and gently sat him on the lid of the coffin and told him it was his nanny and told nanny that Harrison was there to see him. He let rip a huge fart and then boffed on the lid of the coffin. DH was horrified and ran to get tissues whilst I wet myself laughing, imagining how my mum and dad would have laughed at that.
I felt strangely calm when we left, like I'd kept my promise in taking Harrison to meet my mum. I really believe she was looking down and have had some really weird experiences the last few days which make me think she is watching over us.
Anyway, sorry to keep unloading on you all, must get depressing for you.
Going to Chessington tomorrow for DD1s birthday with 2of her friends as was arranged weeks ago then to my brothers at around 3.30pm to meet up with a lot of the family who we only see at weddings and funerals. Mainly funerals will however be nice to see the irish lot who I hardly ever see.
Hope you all have a good weekend x