Morning all! I see that the weather has heard it's a bank holiday and has brought cheery Easter rain for Sheffield this morning. At least I won't have to bother with sun cream!
Vbab and Merry, IKexactlyWYM. I talked to my GP cos I was just so furious the whole time and she was v sympathetic and nice and I'm seeing her again in a couple of weeks. I started feeling a bit better the minute a Professional Health Person said "No, you're not a rubbish mum, you have mild PND", and realised that whatever is going on in my head it's not that I'm a horrible person or that life is actually really, really shit, it's a combination of tiredness, isolation and bad brain chemistry (or something). The GP gave me a mood assessment questionnaire and a second appointment a couple of weeks later to see how I'm doing.
The questionnaire made me think about anger - I get incredibly overheated about things like DH leaving a mess in the kitchen, or being late for things, or other drivers being rubbish and I really have to try and keep a lid on in as (for me) anger breeds anger and the more I let rip the more often and worse I do it! So I am forcing myself to say "Goodness me, Fin, isn't the driver of that red car silly" instead of "Get out of my way, wanker - and the scooter you rode in on! Gah!". It isn't as satisfying but I am finding myself exploding behind the wheel less.
Right now I am trying not to be angry that DH is only just in the shower so Fin is having his nap in the cot rather than on the way to the in-laws... It is DH's holiday as well and he works really hard all week, plus he got up in the night to shush Fin. I am trying so hard to develop a sense of proportion and pick my fights so that when I am angry it means something but it is sooooooooo hard not to just snap sometimes.
Chocolategal, v jealous of meatballs. I have a massive IKEA list of things I could probably also get from other shops but I needs those meatballs. Neeeeeeeeeed. Not want.
Okay, DH has stopped stomping around in the bathroom, so I am going to make us runny eggs with soldiers as a Finlay-free treat. Hope everyone has a really good day and that your families are super nice to you and provide rest and choccy eggs!