kanga you also made me lol at your "bit of post natal experience" - hope everything goes well and quickly for you today! Love the photos.
hedgewitch - ouch - you poor thing. And you haven't "failed" at bf. I am determined not to let anyone on here who isn't bf feel that they have failed.
It is also my first day without dh But I have the luxury of dd2 being at nursery all day hence why I am able to post on here!
Alas I think I may have given bf the best shot I can. The painkillers I got from hospital are now at an end and without them the full pain is really hitting. I have been to the bf clinic and my technique and latch has been checked again and again and everyone says it is really good. But it is still excruciatingly sore and my right nipple is bleeding I think I am just one of those people for whom bf hurts no matter what I do.)
Last night Rosie fed from around 5pm until 2am. I have been back using nipple shields as that was the only way I could cope with the pain. Unfortunately I think these make her sucking lazy and also inhibited my supply.
So - I opted for a bottle of formula at 2.30am and she guzzled it down, stopped crying and fell into the first deep sleep she has had for days.
I feel so sad that it hasn't worked out again, but I also feel like a weight has been lifted off me. I was crying every day and I really didn't want to go there again. (bit of mild pnd with dd1 beacause of my preceived "failure" to bf) I also had to shut myself away in the spare room to feed Rosie as dd2 just couldn't cope with the marathon feeds - and I missed her!
So - I will be expressing as much as I can and supplementing with formula. Rosie is asleep at the moment and seems very content which is lovely.