Oct 2007; This little piggie had loads of roast beef and ^This^ little piggie would have none of it!

[Dalrymps]

Psst over here!

Stefka, sorry about the job honey...just remember it is their loss not yours!!!!!

re Zachary going into his own room (well with karl) I just told Grant I wanted to try it out....he said what tomorrow ? shall we rearrange the bedroom then?

my reply....

NO its too soon

he then says well let me know in about 6 years when you are both ready

LOLOLOL

I wish J20 but I met her before and she had been struggling to get work even with all her experience. Her DH is a Dr though and a part of me is thinking she didn't need this job like I do. Right now my confidence is in the gutter and I actually feel a bit scared. What the hell do I do now? There is no work. I just feel like a total failure and I feel ashamed for letting down DH who supported me through years of training for nothing.

Shoes is a very good first word IMO!

Stefka i'm so sorry you didn;t get the job, but trust me you must not doubt yourself, or lose your confidence otherwise it will show through in all your other interviews.

You WILL find something, maybe when you least expect it.
your luck will change.

I know you probably would have thought of this, but can you do supply work for a bit...?

Aw Stafka, go and try and get some sleep, I know its really sh*t atm, but you can't do anything tonight. Try and get a good nights sleep and how about ringing some agencies tomorrow or looking into something you can do from home to try and keep you tided over.

I can't even get supply. I always thought if the worst came to the worst then I would be able to get supply no bother but I have been on the list for ages and nothing has come up for me. Teaching in Scotland is in a real mess right now. I know I am not the only one struggling to find work right now. The woman who got the job said she hadn't been able to get supply either. I feel bad because I wanted us to move up to Scotland because I thought it would make our lives better and it really has been a total disaster. Worse than not getting the job was having to tell DH that I didn't get it. He's desperate for me to get work to take some of the pressure of him.

hey girls read this .....

and tell me was i too harsh in this email???

Dear Brenda,

I have not bothered sending you any photos of Zachary since his 1st birthday when you said you were flying to India the day of the party yet were online. I now know you are not at all interested in your grandson and I have accepted the fact that my second son has a grandmother, if I can call you that, mirroring my first sons grandmother... Selfish, Ignorant, and most of all nasty to a small child.

As far as I am concerned you are punishing my son for the actions of your son....very mature of you, I believed you to be an adult not a stroppy teenager.....I can now see where Grant gets his petulant attitude from.

Grant has not paid any money to Carol for James as I am sure you have already been informed as he is not working, I am supporting us all, until he finds work....after all that is what FAMILIES do.....obviously something you would know nothing about after walking out on 2 children who needed you...yet you have a problem with the fact Grant followed in your footsteps..he had a very good teacher from what I have learnt from both of your children. A mother does not walk out on her children for any reason, well a decent mother doesn't. Oh and for your information my son will not grow up without a grandmother as my Mum see;S him every day he has a loving Nanna and lets face it you are the one who is missing out you have 3 that is THREE biological grandchildren and chose to know 2 of them.

As for Christmas as I am sure this will be passed on to you. James, Karl and Zachary are all having the same amount spent on them £50 and that is all. Grant has asked James to come fishing and other places with us and unless there is money involved James does not want to know. We are not wealthy people. So while you are blaming Grant for the lack of contact realise that James has been asked to come out with us and often refuses, we also offered to take him on holiday but he did not want to go as it was not abroad. Just for once realise the truth Grant is not to blame for everything nor am I and Zachary certainly isn't.

Just got back and realised I had cross posted (takes me an age to post)..sorry Stefka ..it is good that you came second but frustrating that the one thing you lack, experience, is so hard to get...I hope wit all my heart that the job comes up for you very, very soon.

Well sir has had me up for the first feed of the night 11.30-now...I hope to heaven that he doesnt repeat last nights 3 stop fiasco... fingers crossed it will be 4 am at the earliest...

oooh, Tles, just read your email... to your Dps mother I assume?
I will admit that I wouldn't word an email so strongly, even if I felt as justified as you obviously do, but you know the characters involved and undoubtably know what consequences your words will cause and are probably prepared for them.... I hope it made you feel better expressing your anger and getting off your chest ...it always does the trick for me...but then I'm a coward and dont actually send them

FT, there will be no comeback as she has not spoken to dp since 2003 because he split up with exp after 22yrs. She even told him to come to his sense and go back to her.....i was pg with Zachary at the time!!

Stefka - I am so sorry you didn't get the job...the only conselation I can give is that if someone with 8 years experience isn't finding work it reall isn't you. You have nothing to be scared of you are doing your best which under a different climate would be more than enough. I would agree with Inzi in seeing if you could find anything to tie you over for the mo. I know dh does odd hours but is there someone you could get to look aftre Dareh so you could get a temp job? It's not your ideal answer but it is an answer. You can earn money whilst still looking for the job you really want.

Tles - Right, if you want my honest opinion...you have written a fantastic email that should never bee sent to anyone! You've got your anger out on paper, all be it 'virtual' paper, and you have 1 of 2 choices. 1. Send it and you will cause an almighty row which you may want or 2. Write a similar email less personal and sticking to the facts. You would then come out with the moral highground in having never stooped to her level.
There's always a 3rd choice too...leave it to Grant. It's his mother, let him sort it.
I suppose you have to think whether sending that letter/email would actually change anything? If not maybe leave well alone.

I had a massive headache again last night. The type where I have to take to my bed in a darkened room. I felt so sick and eventually was (nothing to with prgcy I've been getting 1 a month like this for a while now) I think it's a migraine? Bright lights hurt, painkillers don't even touch it, my head feels like it is slpitting and I am sick. No flashing lights though?
Ollie has gone back to school today so I'm going to have a lazy day just tidying as we're in a little bit of a mess.

back later xx

Have finally decided that I have to go back to my trick of typing my messages in word before copying and pasting ? oh, those were the days!

I?ve decided to take an extra day off ? with our bizarre sickness absence policy, the length of absence doesn?t really matter ? what matters is how many absences you take ? so I?m staying home til I feel totally ok.

I will join in the group hug (don?t let the thought police get wind of the fact we?re giving each other hugs here! ) ? I think we?ve all got lots of germs to share ?

Why oh why oh why ? that child, it?s so sad.

News from the Thomas household ? M has settled in well into the new nursery (Thank God!) ? she yells a bit when I leave her, but is doing well. They?re even coping with the washable nappies - and they let me just sit in a corner to feed her when I go to fetch her.

DH has been away for at least 2 days of every week for the past 6 ? I?ve got quite good at sorting out the 2 of them on my own ? and we still manage to be out and gone by 7:45!

I went with the choir up to Llandudno on Saturday to sing in a competition ? 9 hours of travelling for 10 minutes of competition ? we came 2nd ? which wasn?t bad ? especially as our choir have only been going for 2 years, and was formed out of a bunch of rugby fans (!) ? and the choir who won had been going for 25, and had people in it who were professional musicians ? great day ? but I think what finally lead to me giving in to this flu-y bug thing.

Now, where was I ??

Secret Santa - I?ll do a thingy on facebook too, but what I need from you is your name, address and MN id (although I think I know most people?s now!) ? I think I?ll say I need them by This Sunday ? then I?ll match everybody up ? we?ll be buying each other (not the kids ? they get quite enough, thank you very much! ) a pressie up to the value of about £7.50. Home-made things are fine, but you should try to match it to your spoilee ? anyway ? email me at Eirian Thomas 232 AT googlemail DOT com if you want to do it ?

Stefka ? I am soooooo sorry to hear you didn?t get the job ? even knowing that you came second won?t be any consolation ? when I was going for interviews, that used to make me feel really p!ssed off! Here?s hoping that things look up soon for you. I can?t remember what you said your subject was ? is there any chance of you perhaps setting up one of those franchise things ? I?d certainly be willing to invest in you to help you set up ?

I haven?t been away from M overnight yet, but that is changing this weekend ? dh is best man at a child-free wedding, and we?re going over to Somerset on Friday evening, and not coming back until Sunday afternoon ? I get to have full night?s sleep - and a lie-in with my hot dh! I?ll take my breast pump with me ? but I?ll be pumping and dumping ? no point trying to store it!

DH puts M down most Wednesday nights (Welsh class) and every other Thursday night (Choir), and he?s getting extremely good at it ? he?s also been going in to M when she wakes up at night, as I?m trying not to feed her at night, and if I go in to her she demands it!

Heinz ? welcome to our merry band ? we are quite chatty ? and everybody doesn?t raise an eyebrow at our (sometimes extended) absences! I have 2 dc ? ds who?s 6, and dd who?s 13 months (birthday = 1st October) ? one of the few due in October and born in October ? in fact remarkably close to her due date! You have to let us know why the Sept lot don?t post so much ? I did pop my head in there once or twice when pg, but always returned to my true home ? let us know on fb! (which I have just discovered, and have rapidly got v. addicted to!) I?ve been married to dh for 12 years (together for 18!), and I?m a teacher in an inner-city comp ? and love it! Would like to be able to be part-time, but financially it?s just not possible as I earn a lot more than dh.

Inzi ? really happy to hear about the good sleeping going on with you! Sorry to hear about your knee ? ouch! Having the squits and a dodgy knee must be no fun at all ? much like having ms and spd Ok, what is paradigm?
Thinking of you for your scan on Friday ? am about the Cadbury?s ad!

tLES ? I?d say to give it a try ? you can always reassess later on ? perhaps easier to do it now before the terrible 2s kick in (mind you, I think that M has already started ? what?s that all about? )
About the email - I'm with muppetgirl on his one - she always writes things so eloquently!

Dal ? mmmm wispa ? I too have a terrible wispa habit ? they were on 3 for £1 in our local shoip the other day ? I bought 6 ? have had to ration myself to just 1 a day though ? sigh

Mine ? so sorry to hear about your dad ? we?re here for you if you need us.
Oh, and on the speech front, M has a complete vocabulary of babble ? you can tell what she?s trying to say, but h there aren?t any recognisable words as such ? dh is dada, but then so is ds! Bye bye is tata, but then so are hello, thank you etc. The one thing that is totally understandable is ?DA!? said in a loud voice, with a pointing finger at the item she requires ? whether it be biscuits, the cat, the light switch (again, what?s that all about?) ? as long as you are happy that she?s hearing things, then there?s no need to worry at this stage ?
Oh, and there?s the ?all gone? sound and sign ? it?s really sweet!

LLL ? I have to say that 6am is a lie-in ? most mornings, dd is in bed with us by 5am (feeding and snuggling, so I?m not complaining), and ds seems to have an internal alarm clock that wakes him up by about 545am ? see, that?s how we?re out and gone by 745!

FT ? yum, Daniel Craig!

Alice ? keeping your fingers crossed on the house sale! Lovely to see you on Facebook ? I like the whole photo-sharing thing that?s going on ?

J20 ? hiya! Mmmm wispa!

Now off to try and upload some photos to fb ? I?ve taken a load of stuff I?ve made over the past few weeks

Wow, this is a monster post. ?

Hiya all, should have said dp's mother has not spoken to him since 2003 because he split with exp. She even told him when i was pg with Zachary that he was too old to be a father and that he needed to come to his sense and go back to exp. I went along with her requests of wanting photos which she sent a message vis grants sister!

And when she say a photo of Karl, Zachary and grants son James, she said what a lovely photo of those 2 boys.

Soz peeps I have been sitting on this anger for a longggggggg time lol. She is technically punishing Zachary because Grant won't go back to his ex!!

Tles - I would have nothing to do with her if that's the case. There will always be something about you or the situtation she doesn't like. She may not like what your dp has done but she can't wind back the clock to how things used to be. She either accepts what is now or butts out completly and if this means Zachary doesn't see her then so be it. I would say that she'll probably never accept Karl as he's not 'hers' iyswim. Not nice to say but I think that's how she sees it. I would write a calm letter stating the situation how you see it, how you all may have arrived there and what you propose to do about changing it. Give her some choices, let her think about them and a timeframe so she knows she has to act if she's going to and then you'll know whether she has or not. I would take back the control of the situation. If dp's sister asks for photos for her mother then I would say politely no, that she can ask for some herself.
Also, what does dp think of the situation? Is he upset?

re walking outside....today I let Zachary walk to the hairdressers which is 3 count it three minutes from my front door. it took 15 minutes as he had to inspect every leaf on the floor lol.

how weird, was just thinking the same Inzi-Shannon escsaped out my back door this morning, she was after the cat, walked and crawled down the path, so i was thinking of letting her walk for a few minutes, but she won't be able to go far, she will be too tired. Oh and last week, i only went out on Tuesday! I think it does you good to get out, but having weeks where you stay in isn't that bad.

LES-whats brought the letter on? has something happened or have you just been getting increasingly annoyed about it?

Crochet-so glad to have you back properly you sound like you are doing really well and i hope you have a lovely weekend at the wedding.

forgot to say, Shannon says No(nah), cat, ball, hiya, dada, mamamamamama(usually when shes whinghing) down, all gone, oh yeah! orrrrr, there and that, but if you didn't know her you wouldn't have a clue usually, she doesn't say shoes or boob yet though {grin] oh but she does try to do 'honk honk!'

J20, I guess it has been building up BUT last night i sent pic of Zachameister and she deleted the mail....I saw red and had steam coming from every orifice..

Bitch, without even looking? how do you know? i've sent the sperm donors Bitch of a mother photos of Shannon before and she never acknowledged them, they are so not worth wasting your time on.

J20, because she is on aol like me i can check the status of mail i send her!!! She deleted his pics but she read the letter lolol I bet she had a shock!

Hi Inzi - yep I think it was my 5th/6th ever migraine though I have been getting them once a month for a while. It is the most paibful thing ever and last night I could just about manage to change Henry's nappy as it was pooey but I couldn't dress him or put him in his growbag as it felt my heaad was going to explode. I put him in his cot uneder a warm blanket and left him for dh to srot out (only an hour later) It was his bed time si I was lucky in that respect.

I take Henry out everyday when I walk the dogs and until recently went to sainsbury's most mronings on the way home from school though I online most things now too. I used to walk round Hungerford with Ollie nearly everuday as we could feed the ducks, go round the charity shops, see the canal but here it's not so easy. Only dog walks to do so we don't see many people to 'chat' too.

What would you cook with loads of spring greens and cababge???

Anyone?

Also does anyone have a crumble topping recipe that works? I have loads of apple to use (from apple bobbing) and want to make crumbles to freeze but my topping never gets crunchy when I do it.

I have a clean kitchen, hall and playroom and half the stairs....will I manage the rest of the house today???
xxx

really bad typos there sorry!

Muppet, would you still like the ride on? I have got it all together now....