Dammit, my garage is out of petrol! I've been thinking 'what idiots' at all the people 'panic buying' (even at Total garages , as I said idiots!), but now because of them draining the stations dry, I'm gonna have to take a detour tomorrow when I get petrol.
Right...
Guy no1...met him at college in 2002. We always got on really well, and towards the end of the course I started to really like him, had the feeling that he liked me too, but obviously was with xp so could do nothing about it. We've all kept in touch over hte years, and recently the 2 of us have started chatting more regularly with a bit of flrting until one time we both admitted that we both used to like each other and would like to see if there was still something there. Well, there is definately still something there.
Guy no2...met him in 2004 at Tesco, we started on the same day, I fancied him straight away, we got on really well, he's one of the only people I've ever really been able to completely open up to, he knows more about me than my bf does. We always flirted loads, practically every conversation we had was loaded with innuendo. I used to get to work 20mins early, and he used to always have his break for the time I got into work, so that we could chat etc. Obviously nothing happened though as was with xp. We both left at similar times, and I never really forgot about him, then one day beginning of last year, I went to b&q, and saw him working htere. After that, any excuse to go to b&q and I was there. The spark was still there between us, and more recently we have had one night together. I haven't seen him for a while, but today I popped into b&q and he was htere. We chatted for ages, exchanged numbers & he's called me twice already in the few hours I've been home.
Now, I don't believe in 'the one', but have always believed that if such a thing existed Guy no2 is it! I also don't entirely believe in fate, although if pushed would say that it probably does have a helping hand in life. 1. if I hadn't had Owen when I did, I wouldn't have taken a year out of college, so would never have met G1, if my induction hadn't been cancelled at Tesco, and I'd had to do it on a different day, G2 and I would probably never have even spoken (our paths never really crossed at work). Today, for example, I wasn't going to go to B&Q, but only decided at the last second to go, it turns out today is his last day there, so had I not gone in today I probably wouldn't have seen him again.
So now, I have 2 guys I really like, and have done for a long time with each of htem. TBH with either/both of them I'd be happy with just a fling, but equally happy for more to happen in the future. This is my dilemma, they both start out as 'fun', they both know that they're not exclusive, but what happens 6 months down the line if 1 or both of them (or I) decide that it is time to take it more seriously? OK, it may not happen, I may decide that I don't want a relationship with either of them, or the reality of being wiht one of them, may not be as good as the dream etc, or one or both of them may not want to be in a proper relationship with me, so I'm getting very much ahead of myself I know, but WHY CAN'T THINGS BE SIMPLE?????