hello all
Isobels birthday was very very quiet, as DH was not able to be here. I didnt want him to feel he was missing out on anything, so we had decided to do it all 'properly' on saturday. He was supposed to bw home this morning. Instead, he has been up all night working, in the hotel in Sunderland. He doesnt think he will even get home saturday. I"m a mixture of unbelievable anger, and unbelievable sadness. I'm gutted. Its NOT his fault, but still. Its horrible. I feel I've let her down so much, by not really marking the actual day, and now, its all been for nothing
My friend has come to stay, and has actually been really helpful, as i cant change Dd;s nappy at all easily with this hand bandaged, and it being so so sore still when i move it.
ok, moan over!
Sleep:
Isobel sometimes has a short nap at about 11 or12 ish. If she doesnt, she will go for a long nap after lunch, or like today fall asleep mid lunch!
She has only slept through about 4 times ever, and they were recent nights, when she's now in her own room. This week, she's gone back to waking at 1am, until 2.30 am and then again at 5.30 ish, then up for good at about 8am, sometimes earlier.
I'm so tired all the time again, which makes my back not so easy to cope with.
I think she's getting the hang of sleeping at night more though, i think if i were not so tired, the 1am wake up would prob just go back to sleep if i rocked her, or sang to her etc... but i end up taking her into bed and feeding her then fall asleep and so it goes on...
Speaking:
She says Daddy alot, Dedar is Granny. Bye-bye very clear indeed, as is hello, and hiya. She waves alot too. says Look, and Oh, and sometimes Oh look! she says something very like thank you when we give her anything, or prompt her to say it. she babbles constantly, with really varied intonation, its fascinating. She shouts alot, which is also odd, as i never shout, nor does DH! she also over pronounces 'M" in a really long M sound, IFYWIM? mum and I were trying to teach her to say mummy and we were pronouncing the M over and over again, so now, if i say, ;say mummy izzy" she just goes "M' 'M' over and over again. sometimes says Buppy for mummy...
there are more words, i cant think what they are now!
Intersting to read all your words, and sleep patterns. I get so exasperated by her lack of sleep. never know what to do! tried all sorts. still looks like she is fairly similar to some of yours!
wilkie I also read that as your DH pulling his willy!
Jodie sounds like you are having a shitty time with your 'friend' so sorry. It is really tough when you lose a friend in this way. Been there and done it. HOrrible. I think she's being really unreasonable BTW.
I cant help thinking a chat on the phone would be a good idea, or at least you need to tell her a bit more straight, about you being ok with her about the bbq... and that it should be seen as a precious honor to be G'parents, ant not 'using' her. just so sorry.
you sound terrible down. have you talked to your GP? lack of sleep just magnifies everyhting SO badly.
I started anti depressants a few months post natal, as i was just not coping with lack of sleep, pain, and DH being ropey. I had no reserve left, as i had no energy and my emotinal strength was zero.
It really really helped. It was a bit like someone has opened all the windows and let the fresh air and sun shine in. I know i wouldn't be coping with DH having a crap time at work and therefore us not being able to be together, if i were not on them now. scares me how i wold be feeling without them now.
Sorry, gone on SO SO long. had lots to say!!!
was going to reply to you all but think i've gone on enough!
nice to see you all, and thanks agin for sympathy re:my hand, and the happy birthdays!!!