Hi All, we spent christmas round dh's mums house and went out for lunch in the local pub. Very hard day for all of us really but most of we found it hard to watch my nephew opening his pressies. Couldnt stop wondering what it would have been like with Toby still here and missed him so much.
Had a funeral to go to today of Tobys friend who died just before xmas. He was a month older and had problems too. The day was very hard and brought all those memories back of Tobys funeral.
Still seeing the councillor who is still helping me.
I am starting an nvq 4 in childcare on 10th Jan so I can eventually gain early years practitioner status (to improve quality of childcare) its exciting but daunting as I havent done "work" for about 9 years!!!
I am going to make sure that I do my assignments earlier than the night before they have to be handed in!!! oops!
We are also going to be doing the London to Brighton bike ride this year in memory of Toby and raising money for British heart foundation (which you have to) and probably some for the Snowdrop Trust who have helped us so much through Tobys life.
Now xmas is out the way (which im very glad about) I am going to finally sort out Tobys ashes. We are going to have them buried in the local churchyard which is 5 min walk away. Not that we are particularly religious but its close by and he can be watched over (by the cows in the field next door)!!!! The churchyard has the sun shining on it all day (if its out lol) which is a lovely idea for Tobys final resting place. We just need to decide what to have on the stone.
My lime tree is still going strong, not that I have tried cooking with any of the leaves yet but one day maybe......
I hope that everyone had a lovely Christmas and all the not so little ones anymore got all they wished for x