Ah bollox it's my fault I completely forgot to say, Diva's internet is down until Wednesday, she and her dp are going mad without internet access!
Oh I'm losing track, I'm losing my mind ... dh is finally out of the house (he's gone up the Spar for some crisps) for - well it feels like forever but it's only a few days.
His eye is due to the squash ball incident they think, there is a pool of liquid behind it or something, he has another appointment Thursday to decide what to do about it, options involve leaving it by itself and seeing what happens, or injecting steroids into the eye which they're very reluctant to do as it could all go horribly wrong and it's really his only good eye...
... added to that we have the mood swings and depression which have actually gotten worse since he started the ADs. He has done sod all around the house - no I tell a lie, has cooked the odd meal but nothing else, and he is actually really untidy too so I end up doing double the work around here... arrrgh I need to rant, I want to tear my hair out.
Today I invented a new sling (well okay I nicked the idea off mamatoto) to tie Bertie to my back... I strapped him to my back to go walk the dogs. And then when I was half way up the hill of the waste ground I thought, hang on a minute, why isn't dh walking the dogs while I stay at home with Bertie, or take Bertie for a nice walk around the local park (dogs can't go to local park as I can't let 'em off the lead there, too many kids and I think Arthur scares children!) or do other stuff with him?
Anyway he is back from the Spar now so I will come back on later / tomorrow and rant some more and respond to everyone else's messages too instead of just banging on about my problems!!!