I hate being a mum

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Hate it, spend my days stressed out.
Don't look forward to waking up in the morning, don't look forward to bed.
My child just cries all the fucking time!

PND?? Not when I'm not with him.

I've had enough

Why does everyone keep saying that at 3 months all the crying and nonsense gets better?
This hasn't been my experience, my daughter is 12 weeks today and every night (not at the same time so probably not colic) she just loses the plot
She screams and eventually cries herself out and goes to sleep.
I hate being a mum; my life wasn't spectacular before but I had my independence and could go out without a baby and all the associated paraphernalia.
My husband is good with her and has her occasionally by himself- literally once a week for a maximum of 2 hours while I try to lose the baby weight and seems to think that this is the same as having her every day/ night while he is at work.
I have tried speaking to my mum but all she says is that it gets easier/ I'll regret not enjoying every minute/ she's surprised that I don't enjoy being at home/ I'm lucky because my dad was useless when I was born
I feel like there's something wrong with me and that my husband and daughter would be better off if I just left.

How are you getting on now OP?

How are you now OP? I know it was quite a while ago you posted. My dd was born early May and the first week she was fine but half way through the second week she became unbearable. At one point she only slept 3-4 hours in 48. She would cry and scream all the time, I couldn't put her down, she wanted feeding every hour. I was at breaking point. I was crying all the time too, so sleep deprived and with all my hormones going crazy didn't help. I feel awful for saying this now but at points I really regretted having her and I just wanted to walk away from it all. All people let saying to me was 'it will get better' and I didn't care, I just wanted to scream at them because I realised it would get better but that didn't help me at that point as I still couldn't cope with her then. If it wasn't for my mum and sister (my husband was back to work) I do worry about how I would have coped. I was back and forward to the doctors. It turned out to be silent reflux. I tried so much to help her. Gaviscon made her 10times worse, tries lactose free milk which didn't help. She was in cow and gate comfort which I didn't find worked. She's now 11 weeks and she's like a different baby and has been for about 3-4 weeks. She's now on apatamil comfort milk which is slightly thicker than normal, she also has thickener in it as her sickness was so bad. She's on ranitidine twice a day and she has baby probiotics. After lots conversations with the doctor and paediatricians I'm also very slowly starting her on baby rice aswell which she is taking to. I'm now just able to enjoy her and she's sleeping so I can sleep, it's amazing what that can do! Don't mean to hijack your thread but just wanted to know you're not alone and please don't feel guilty about how you feel (or felt)
Would love to hear how you're getting on now.

Ooh love, I really get you. All I wanted was my old life back. I hated feeling so limited, and do depended on.
All I can tell you is it DOES get better. Try anything you can to meet your needs, i wanted educated intelligent company, so ended up driving miles to posh hippy baby groups where the women had something to say, and were honest about how they felt.

It starts to improve at 3 months, and keeps getting better.

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