Oh VQ poor J and poor you. It is so rotten. I bet when he is older he will never get sick and he will find it hard to believe he was ever a poorly boy. I wish him rude health.
Chasing what VQ said is right - you made your new life all yourself. Of course the quiche is here for all its members, but they are strong and brave and powerful individually too.
I can't believe L is one. I feel like I slept through it. I lay awake the night after his party thinking about all the things that hadn't gone to plan and feeling like I didn't get to speak to anybody - but I must have done I guess. Just very surreal and strange.
We have had 1-3hr wakings every night for the last couple of weeks. I mean, he is awake for 1-3 hrs at a time. It is exhausting and slightly bewildering as there doesn't seem to be anything wrong, he just wakes up and stays awake. Gets distressed if we leave. Maybe teeth? Separation anxiety? He's never been a good sleeper but started to feel like we were getting somewhere, he even slept through a handful of times. Not sure where to begin with this. Better try and sleep now while I've got the chance!