Sorry guys, I have a couple of pages of the last fred to catch up on and I don't want to leave it without saying thankyou once again for all making me feel better :) Thankyou for all the hugs and kind words, it means so much to me and even though I've never met any of you I feel safe here - I wouldn't IRL but not because of you all as people, just different places etc. My mum said she is concerned that I won't take him to school when the time comes - FFS that's school, it's years away and it is completely different! As it is, I am arranging to take E to a soft play place soon, with MIL and DP. I know it's not on my own but he will enjoy it and it'll be good for him. Once i've been a few times I'll be okay on my own :) I'm really not sure i'm special or worth much of anything but I guess that's the whole point of my anxiety, or a major part of it. I am undecided as to whether I should go to the doctors again, but I will mull it over over the weekend.
Pass I think what det said makes alot of sense :) I would've said similar but in a less coherant manner!
I cannot find the xmas bargain fred. Am blind.
Eliza We go out together with E, swimming and park and things, but I don't like to go on my own. Dp has taken E by himself before too, and MIL takes him out too when she has him, she'll take him wherever she goes so it isn't like he doesn't leave the house. I don't, where possible, but E certainly does. On one hand I like the safety of my home, on the other hand I am bored. I just don't know how to fix the vicious cycle, and how to not feel like i'm utterly worthless. I am worried about things I have no control over, I would desperately like a job/career but I can't think of a single thing I can do without fucking it all up.
jj I like the winter but yes I think it does affect my mood. I don't like to unsettle E's routine and it seems like we don't have much time to go out anyway never mind when you make the days shorter!
sorry there's been some bad nights about recently :( Hope everyone gets a good night tonight!!
Bless you det I am going to stop worrying about work for the time being and be at home with my baby. I know others would love to have the time with theirs that I have with mine. Work and my life can wait, I need to treasure my time with him. Hope whatever O seems to be coming down with is gone asap and doesn't bother him too much.
My mum uses a feeding pillow gt and says when she feeds elsewhere and hasn't got it it's so uncomfortable in comparison
I've been using the tumble dryer. I like the fluffy towels and I don't like line dried jeans, they seem to go all solid like
Hope you enjoyed your coffee sophia
Busy babies - E is usually pretty busy doing something he shouldn't. Today he has climed the stairs about a bazillon times and I'm going to need to put a stairgate at the bottom. He has one on his bedroom door and there's one at the top to stop the dogs going up and making a racket outside his room but I think that one ought to be moved now. He's also often busy using his vtech walker, or singing. He loves to sing!
apple it's not because of you at all it's just that I feel like I would be completely useless at any job and my degree is probably pretty useless, I have no confidence and I just don't know who I am/what there is that I can do :(
I think it's really sensible stunt so you can get lots done, it must be really hectic I mean it's bad enough moving house never mind with a little one too! If I were moving i'd have to palm e off send e to MILS at least some of the time to help me organise everything
glad you've had a lovely day fruit
chasing she will not need to lie for you to sound awesome, you really are AWESOME!
no idea if that's early or not sophia* but it sounds bloody good to me, well done O!
hope J doesn't react too badly yw :)
pikz hopefully you'll manage okay but give yourself some time to adjust to being back at work and see how things go - try not to stress until you're there though, and enjoy your time off :) Hope everything goes ok for you. Try not to put too much pressure on with nursery and L settling, I am sure he will bless him :)
det hope o's temp drops, bless him!
pass what a good answer for the kids, I hope E has a teacher like you :)
apple Woohoo for your car passing it's MOT!! Time off work will be nice too, hope you enjoy it :)
pikz I second that! and Chasing my costa buddy, because I have never been to costa before ever