Chasing I know you feel bad today but from an outsider's perspective your highs and lows have been reducing over the past few weeks. Just accepting that this is a low and you'll feel better tomorrow may be enough to get you through. By the time you get O back you'll be ready for him again. Can you do anything to pamper yourself today? Hot bath with a big cup of tea and a good book?
I have a bike trailer for my LOs. It's brilliant exercise because it weighs a ton, especially as they get bigger, I don't have to worry about the bike falling over, and they look soooo cute clutching their teddy and waving to passersby.
YW I recommend Coniston as everything is in walking distance from the village so you can get down to the lake or walk up the Old Man or to the excellent pubs without needing your car. We used Heart of the Lakes holiday cottages.
As for me there has been an incident that I don't want to post details of. I have spoken to my parents, particularly good advice from both of them actually it was like my dad was his own self again, he has dementia and can find conversations on the phone very difficult without visual clues. I have also spoken to MIL who was very sympathetic (I was worried she would blame me or side with DH) and she is going to speak to DH tomorrow about what constitutes acceptable discipline for children. I'm not sure if it will do any good but it's a first step that needs to be taken. I am seeing the HV next week about the ongoing sleep issues so I will ask about a referral for counselling then. Last night wasn't too bad but J has been up for a couple of hours in the night more often than not lately.
I'll be along with a new thread shortly...