Hi ladies,
Good to hear everybody's updates. Sorry for those with nasty monthlies.
Ledkr glad you're feeling better, although you've made me feel a bit
as I was in the horrid depths of the depths a few months ago, and now I'm much better, but wondering if I'm still not 'right'. I have made so much progress (never did take the meds tho), but reading what you put has kind of made me wonder if I've forgotten what I could feel like, and am I just 'making do' because I am not as bad as I was? Sorry that's a ridiculous and pointless thing to say as I know nobody can answer that for me, it's just something I am mulling over after reading your post.
reastie boo for monthlies and yay for work visit and looking forward to being someone else as well as Mummy.
Ponyo don't feel bad for saying you're looking forward to going back to work. I am still really enjoying it, and finding the balance is great. I look forward to the times I get with C, and DH and I are doing actual stuff on the weekends, and we're all enjoying it. We used to have me wanting to just hand C over ('your turn'), yet being unable to approve of his doing things 'wrong', him trying too hard to do everything yet being unable to as he didn't 'know' C as well as me (as in every little pecadillo of how to get her to sleep in the day etc.), and both of us resenting that the weekend wasn't a rest. Now, everything is just easier, we all enjoy our time together more, and there's so much less pressure (some people said there would be more, as in the weekend 'has to' be great), but it doesn't feel like that. I got better as mat leave went on as I think one of my issues was the enormous stretch of time ahead of me. Anyway, don't feel bad for saying that, it's what I went through, and has been borne out by my return to work.
I've just read what I wrote to Ledkr (I may still be depressed) juxtapositioned with what I wrote to Ponyo (everything is fabby) and realised I sound like either a liar or a loon. I am (hopefully) neither. I think, things are much better and going back to work has massively helped, but I'm not 100% sure I am 100% myself 100% of the time yet. There, is that a bit more sensical?
On a separate note, we have had a lovely weekend, out for lunch Saturday (C slept in the buggy for 2 whole hours in noisy Pizza Express - my neck was hurting from keeping dipping my head under the hood to check if she really was still asleep), and visit to my friend C's Godmother yesterday. You'll all no doubt be pleased to know that C's bowels are back to normal (hooray!) but she still has a head full of snot which is waking her up most days. We're going on holiday a week today tho, so she's got to be better by then.
Dx