Evening ladies... have name changed a little...
I've come to lurk for the first time in a little while. Thank you for thinking of me over the weekend with all the troll and SS malarky. I'm not sure what I believe anymore if I'm honest, worried that I can't trust my own judgement.
I'm doing ok - I've started seeing a councellor and I think its positive at the moment. I've started a public blog, and I think that helps to get it all out. I will also be going back to work on the 3rd Nov. My school are being amazing and I will only be doing half day for a month to start off with. Considering I only work Wed-Fri now anyway I think they are being generous.
I've decided to only go back part-time as was originally planned. Partly because I think that will be enough to deal with to begin with, and when the time comes and we're pregnant again I think working part time can only be a good thing for that. (I will whisper that I think we will be ttc from around Christmas/New Year onwards - although I'm very very nervous, I don't think I could survive going through this again... I honestly don't know how I live this forever as it is.)
DH has finally had some sort of diagnosis regarding his hands. His 2nd MRI showed there is tissue and nerve damage in his neck, probably the result of an infection that went to his spine. Consultants are going to look more closely at it, but it will probably be a case of just waiting it out as these types of things can take well over a year to heal. He will have another MRI in about 2/3 months and if there is no improvement they may start looking into steroid treatments to try and push it along. Its all still a bit airy and there could be more details to come following next appointment. We're just hoping it can be fixed now and isn't perm...
Hope all you lovely Mummy and babies are doing well.
Chulita - my heart goes out to your friend. As others have said recognise her son, just as all you lovely August ladies recognised Belle. Another lovely gift I had was "Name a Star" in memory of Belle... would it be possible to send something like that to the US? I love that a little star in the universe is called Anabelle Violet...
I will PM you a "Wish List" I got from SANDS. I put it on my FB to help my friends understand a little. I don't know your friend, but I know I'm desperate for Belle to have the ongoing recognition my (God Willing) future children will have. E.g. remember her birthday... I rambling now...
Tomorrow marks the start of Baby Loss Awareness Week. (9th-15th Oct). Next Friday (15th) at the end of the week, there will be a "Wave of Light" at 7pm for one hour across the UK to remember little angel babies. Can I cheekly ask that if any of you are able, to light a candle for that hour for Belle. Tonight I've emailed my local newspaper about it - I'm hoping to get them to do a little piece about us/it to raise awareness and advertise SANDS Why 17 campaign.
www.why17.org/
Much love to you all xxxx