The Yurt of Yurtiness - lots of hugs and maybe not quite so much veg...

[TooTicky]

C'mon then, dive in!!

bit of fun

Hunny...I am home ...

I love this atm

that makes me think of sitting in an Irish pub for a good ole session...

Fairlady, would you be a love and nip over to 10/10 and tell me what to do with my hair please? I need lots of help cos I am not good at decisions...

hey Tiger c'mon in and put your paws up.

I should be in bed, I am at work tomorrow.

I think I ought to be here and not 10/10 because I am being Not Good at f&v&exercise atm

lol TF....I know that feeling...I feel like an imposter in 10/10 at the moment....
like your stripily purrs....

Oh, you wanna talk not good?

You do have a very valid excuse though tiger.

I can outcrap all of you lol

I am utterly rubbish

I had chips and gravy for tea

Toot,.........this,

this

or this

Thanks Atilla

Ha ha, dd1 said, in tones of some disgust, "Neither". Out of the first two. I made a tentative decision and she said, "Well if you have to have one, have the other one."
Will ask ds1, he is aesthetics man.

Ds1 chose the one I was leaning towards, bless him.

lol....would I trust any of myyyyyyyy Kids...nah...Sven near Teenager wiht dodgy taste for wristbands and matching bright pink with red...and black...
Ms and Ys, tell me I look beautyful even first thing in the morning, when I look like Helena Bonhheim-Carter on a terrible day (I mean, she manages to still look stunning despite the hair or whatever goth make up is inflicted, lol)....

Well, a little rant coming, sorry...but feel save in the yurt and really need it off my chest, but know I am kinda completely unreasonable because it is nothing to do with me.
Well, have a "friend" that had a son from previous relationship and well all well, so far so good...than she has 3 sons and one daughter from her now hunny....he has a cleft lip(I think) and palate (like me) and so have all 3 sons....she had 2 sons by him (3 altogether at the time), and finally fell for that much hoped for girl, no cleft lip and palate in sight...so far so good...they had another Baby (Boy) with a cleft lip/palate....
all teh boys have developemental delays, and whilst I know I was developementally delayed as a child, I always felt it was to do with the long extended hospitalisation that was part of treatment at the time, and the way visiting hours were strict and Babies weren't allowed to be touched by their parents and were fully cared for by nurses, and children were not allowed out of bed unless playhour or visiting hour and you actually had a visitor....so...not quite sure how those fit in with her boys....now her girl seems to have some neurological problem with her spinal cord, they had her tested as not walking...
I feel desperately sad for her and the Kids, and realise it must be so hard....but on the other hand I am a bit angry with her...because, well...why keep on having Babies if things are obviously not quite right? I always felt it was selfish to try until one has a girl, tbh, and than to have another even afterwards, well....
And on top of all that they all have been on the benefits for many years and because of the Kids problems nothing will change there...and I feel they have been so irresponsible....
and I know it isn't my bloody business...BUT...just venting really....feel free to tell me I am really mean, I know I am, I really do, I feel mean thinking like that....
I suppose the otehr thing is, that whilst I know a cleft lip and palate is nothing if looking at the big picture, I also realise that it is quite difficult, or at least can be, to grow up with it, and tbh, whilst my world would not have crashed if my boys had anything wrong with them...I wouldn't go on making babies, especailly if it wasn't a one off....
oh sorry...so much venom....but it has been building up....iykwim...someone slap me hard, I know I deserve it!

[coward emoticon]

oh, and please don't hate me....please....

No time now FairLady but just a hug for now. It is horrible having feelings like this and I have not thought deeply about your post.

You do not come across as a mean person and I certainly don't 'hate' you. Will come back later. But don't feel too bad. Sometimes when things build up inside thyey become enormous so maybe talking it through and expressing your feelings will give you a chance to take another look at your feelings and either find them in a different perspective or feel the same, but able to manage them more.

Another hug.....we are all human love.

ach, thanks...you are a sweety...

I think, maybe, the major issue is, that this friend found it difficult to cope with the first child, and adding more to it seemed crazy enough...but, on the other and I do understand the inner need /the broodyness that makes you have another child....
I mean, I wouldn't really act on my feelings..I have challenged some things in the past, but in the end you are there to support....

hohum

Oh Fairlady, I would never hate you.
I wish I could hug the child you...the FairGirl...I feel so sad for you over the hospital stuff and not getting proper attention

well...I am over that really...was a long time ago...what I mean is, I am over that, but I still remember/know-about it....iykwim...

but thanks toot... you know I nearly typed toottheloot, as in fruittheloop..or whatever that Clothing line is called....

Hope you are feeling a little more resolved today FairLady......always here if you need to offload.

It can be damaging to carry negative feelings around....

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Sorry people...I have to rant...again...
I am just soooo fed up with my family in general and ms and dh especially....

OUr house looks a complete shit-tip...and this is not helped by lack of time (me) and no-one helping with anything (them) and everyone just leaving things where they stand, using the floor as their bin and stuff like that....I am so fed up that if I do tidy up than it's undone immediately....and that unless I do it it isn't done....and if I want anyhting done I have to ask specifically, generally welcomed with big moaning ceremony, before anythign happens...if it happens....

ms, after a phase of doing well with his soiling issues, is back at square one...and I am sick and tired of cleaning has shitty arse and washing out shitty pants and dealing with it....also his behavior is deteriorating again and he is so demanding, constantly screems and shouts at me, has tantrums and just generally behaves like an arse....

dh either works or lays on the couch snoring his head off....unless asked he does nothing....and I have still to organise childcare, etc...made difficult by his lack of comprehension that in order to do so, I need to know what he works...etc...

I feel like just running off and leaving them to it....right now, the only thing that I enjoy is my Placement , the rest of my life just is shit and makes me miserable....

arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.............

sorry so long and all so ranty....it needed out....