Hello everyone! it is official, I cannot keep up with you lot! whenever I login there seem to be 4 more pages of posts and by the time I have read them all whatever I wanted to say feels out of date
I s'pose the problem is you seem to be a nocturnal bunch- whereas I am usually wiped out by 9pm... well actually last night I conveniently had a fight with dh which allowed me to storm out to bed at 8.30 and I actually fell asleep 10 minutes later and pretended not to hear dd2 waking up 3 times before 1 am... at which time I felt I had enough energy to deal with her for her subsequent three awakenings... I am really exhausted though, dd1 has only just started sleeping slightly better and dd2 is degenerating big time... she's probably planned it all to coincide with me returning to work... NEXT TUESDAY!!!
I don't want to go back really, so depressing. I am excited about the intellectual and social aspects, but I am soooo tired that I cannot possibly see how to squeeze in more stuff into my brain or my life...
I should come clean btw, I have a nanny and I love her, well not her personally, jsut the fact of having one, I even kept her (although only 3 mornings a week) while i was on mat leave- got to borderling PND with dd1 and realised I am too much of a wimp to bring up children on my own... too hard without any family network. So now I pay 80% of my salary to my nanny, but have decided it's either that or the looney bin!
ok better go and grab a few minutes of sofa time while the dds nap. you all take care!
PS hothell- pls pls don't say anything bad about Heath Ledger- he has a special place in my heart I saw Casanova just hours before going into labour with dd1 and I swear it was only by thinking of him that I got through it, forget the breathing and visualisation, it was lust for me! I actually cried buckets when he died. and 10 things I hate about you is such a lovely film, though I will always remember him as Ennis del Mar, such a phenomenal performance!
pps lovely to see lots of you are film buffs, I love movies, though sadly I am stuck at 2005, been to the movies only 3 times since having dd1 and usually too knackered for dvds... what a sad life I lead!