O.k confession time. I didn't go to college today and i've decided not to go at all.
Just wanted to apologise for wasting everyones time really as loads of people gave me great advice and encouragement but in the end i just couldn't do it.
Part of me wasn't sure i was doing the right thing, and i need to be sure as i don't want to start and end up dropping out again, already feel like a great big failiure as it is.
My mom had said that i needed to be sure and she was right (aren't they always).
I feel terrible for asking for advice and then not following it, but i did listen to everything that you all said and i did try honest.
I have a big problem with my confidence at the mo, which is something i need to sort out i know as it seems to be getting worse not better. Not sure how you sort out things like that but i'll have to try and find a way.
I wouldn't blame anyone who read a thread of mine in future and decided not to waste their time, after all i wasted yours.
I think i am depressed and probably have been for some time. I've said before that I think i expected all my probs to dissapear when we got the house, but i was wrong. I've found it harder than i thought to settle in and have the constant feeling that it's all suddenly going to fall apart, and that certain people on the estate have got it in for us. I keep thinking i'm going to come home to find we've been burgled, or the house has been trashed or something.
Anyway sorry for waffling, just felt i should apologise and explain.
Will go now before i start blubbing.
Nutty xxxx