Hey guys, ive never posted before nor have i used the app.
Ive recently had a social worker come and work with my and my partner. We are still in the very early stages of social care involvement. Shes still writting up the assessment and shes decided to put my LG on a child in need plan. Ive had social care involvement before 3 times and shes been on a CIN before, but my mind has gone blank on what happens next. They are involved due to a past of DV. I left my LGs dad at the beginning of the year and left and moved 2 hours away for 6 months and then we ended up back in touch. Hes comepletly changed and has really turned himself round after going down hill massively when we left. I suffer really bad with anxiety and cant go to baby groups due to this. I had a meeting with the SW, and one of the first things she said that will go into the plan is getting me down the childrens center for groupz etc. I physically cannot do it. Im on medication for my anxiety and depression, i know i need to go back in them but anyone who suffers with anxiety too will know how hard it is to call the Drs to make an appointment let alone actually going to it. My partner suffered with a crack addiction and homelessness when we left and the beginning of the year. Hes not touch anything like that for 7 months now. We both been truthful with the social services about cannibis use, we have it maybe once of twice a week when our daughter goes to stay with her grandparents. The social worker has no concerns about my flat, or myself, she said she can see how bright, up together and head strong i am. They sre purely involved because of the past of DV. Im kind of bricking it if im honest, my partner can be very short tempered with them and has a very strong dislike for the social care system due to them failing him when he was a teen. She said hopefully if all goes to plan and no more concerns araise then shes only be a couple months and then case closed. But i have a very strong feeling that thats not the case. What happens when shes done the assessment? What next? Im so worried its going to result in a CP plan, and i know if you dont comply with them at this point in the system they have the power to remove the child. Everyone i see, family/friends/strangers on the bus or in town/other professionals, they always say how happy and healthy she looks, and thats because she is happy and healthy, i just worry something more will come of this, take for example the look she gave me when i told her that at the moment im reliant on the food bank/vouchers for food at the moment, ive had aload of trouble regarding electricity supplier, spending over 120 per month on the top up key, this is why ive become reliant on yhe food bank/vouchers. It hasnt helped ive not got my freezer yet as i prefere to stock the freezer right up at iceland and just do a one off big shop. So due to not having my freezer yet ive been doing a weekly shop which also hasnt help finacially as im actually spending so much more that way. Going back about the childrens center and baby groups etc, i feel as if they are going to force me to go and i cannot do it. As soon as i walk in that center i will freeze, i wont talk, i go all sweaty, chest tightenings, struggle to breathe etc. We are a very good solid family unit now everything has been left behind. We are moving on as a family and building up our little unit.
Sorry this is such a long one, my family know i have social care involvement, i dont use social media anymore and dont really have any friends to talk to and just needed to get this all out as my partner is very black and white when it comes to social care. Thanks for taking your time to read!