Hello and a belated Happy New Year to all in the Tea Room.
I tentatively ventured here a while ago but didn't stay long
, may I come in again please?
I'll reintroduce myself, shall I? My name is stickygostuck and I have a 6 yo DD. Right now I am struggling massively with family issues and depression, in a kind of snake-biting-its-own-tail way. The upshot of which is I have 'decided' we must have another baby
. Which is bonkers as (a) we can't afford it and (b) we/I couldn't cope.
DD is an only through choice - early years were dire with PND and stress. Then we had illness and bereavement in my close family, and massive fallout from that, resulting in contact with the rest of the family becoming extremely hard, a sort of double bereavement. 'Normal' depression ensued and GP has prescribed antidepressants, which I have not taken yet. On a waiting list for talking therapy, which I should have heard from by now but haven't.
For the last 4-5 years, I have tried to keep alive the relationship between DD and her cousins abroad. This Xmas it became obvious that we will always be the ones doing the travelling, the calling and the running around after them if contact is to be maintained, as their parents are not helping one bit. I am now trying to come to terms with the fact that the economic, practical and emotional strain is too much and is aggravating the illness, which is affecting DD now.
DD has no siblings and no cousins nearby. There are no other children in the immediate family (well there are two, but we rarely see them. It feels we 'need' them more than they need us). She goes to a small village school, which I regret because of the smaller pool of potential friends. DD is not the most outgoing child.
Therefore, in my wisdom, I have decided that a new baby must be produced to make up for the fact that DD has no other close children around her
. Make of that what you will!
I'm sorry, I did not intend to write my whole life's story. It just came out
. I will understand if you hang the 'Closed' sign on the door!