Sorry folks, I had to run. DP would probably be totally supportive of me chatting to you lovely girls and glad I had the chance to air the worries but I get the chance to be totally honest about certain things that maybe he wouldn't like to read so I daren't tell him about mumsnet!!!
Anyway, in short my hormones fluctuations are really crazy and I just don;t know where to turn. I already take herbs and a multivitamin to cover the VitB6 thing. My diet could be better but on the whole ain't too bad really (I do porride, fruit and most meals are homemade from scratch). I was better on the pill (one which really helped my skin and smoothed the see saw effect) but I really don't want to go back on it as I can't be on it forever and this will just bite me on the bum when I do come off. Rant rant blah blah rant rant rant. Tell me to quieten down, your kids are sleeping aren't they!!!
Goldenoldie, blimey you sound so normal given your babes are 3 months!!! 
Mine were still wearing babygrows morning noon and night at that point and I was running on empty and living off adrenalin. My DTs are 18 months and my DD is 5. I'm in the middle of two brothers who are 10 years apart. If you don't mind me asking how did you end up with the big age difference? If you do mind just say, I'm just curious but totally don't mind if that is nosey. Welcome to the thread honey 
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Kelly, your HV can stick it up her bum sideways with bells on sweetheart. You do just great dealing with all that you do and I would be mad as sin at her turning up off the cuff. I don't actually answer my door unless I'm expecting anyone but then I am (a) an unsociable werewolf (sp?) and (b) can't hear the bell amidst the clanging of corkscrews, singing and/or crying. I recommend smiling and doing the broken record technique of "yup, its top of the list I can assure you, oooops mind your feet on that soiled nappy, can you just change him while I wipe up that crushed banana, you don't mind do you, I s'pose thats why you're here, its so lovely of you to pop by and help out, as I was saying it's top of the list" (grit your teeth on the inside babe and snarl once the door is shut). You can always say you've been debating whether its the right thing to do and that DP isn't keen, just to totally wind her up of course .
Mars, offering me a visit, you're lovely darling, and me a freak of nature and an almost-stranger too. I accept without condition! Of course I cannot find a way of explaining this to DP but one day......... Thank you, I consider you and Kelly my most trusted silent friends and hope I can one day repay the debt of saving me over and over. You girls keep me going sometimes and I just love you for it. Thanks lovely babes 
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By the way, my DTs emptied a kitchen cupboard on Tuesday while I had a wee and I came in to find them sitting happily munching their way through a packet of biscuits. On Wednesday they did the same and I found them chewing opposite ends of a french stick, later the same day they pulled out and empited two drawers of clothes in my bedroom. Today they dragged a chair over to the worktop and attempted to climb up and later managed to reach a bowl of DDs chalks on the kitchen table, eat some of them and then draw with green chalk all over the floor, all over the wall, all over the doors and in lovely patterns all over my kitchen units. I SWEAR I was only out the room for moments. DT1 said "oh oh" like it had nothing to do with her and DT2 said "oh dear" like I'd done it. Aye, they've turned a corner all right .
Peaceful nights all x.