d'y ever wish the flying shagpile could take us to faliraki

[galaxymummy]

its her are you

oh love - still snotty crying - not drinking wine again gonna stick with the apple juice. I am so sure that our loved ones who are no longer here come around us all the time.

Did I tell you about James Byrne, a local medium? He has done several readings for me, all 100 per cent accurate - not sure how he does it but I do know it is a massive comfort.

Can you imagine the party our boys and lost loved ones will be having?

Its taken us 2 days to do 500 messages on this thread, are we ace or what

I have been to two mediums but got nothing

Shabby, not going to keep you up any longer, must get out of my alcove, beginning to feel cold and tired. Thank you my friend for being here with me tonight, am I glad you got on the internet, sagapo xxxxxxx

us lot rock - Im telling you

First time I saw James he wandered around the audience and came to me and said 'your two boys want to talk to you but not just yet' I sat there like this

The one message he had was 'I can see two coffins - a tiny white one and a much larger beautiful light pine one. The second larger coffin has all kinds of stuff in - presents, memories, gifts etc. The second little boy says 'It never hurt me mam (only mattie called me that) it was as fast as clicking your fingers but I cant click mine (and he couldnt) my big brother was waiting for me - it was very fast - i love you mam'

How much snotty crying can one person do?

night honey - let me know asap - my love, kisses and thoughts are with you and yours

Oh, how lovely to get that message. I would love to. Hardly ever even dream about him anymore, did in the first two years, then nothing since, always found that strange as they are so much on our minds.

Sweet dreams and rock on

Night sugar

shabby wanders around the common room. tweaks a few cushions, runs the hoover round, lights the candles and generally does a quick tidy round.

I will say to all of you, my lovley new friends, Kale Nitha, sagapo,. cant wait to go back to faliraki - its not half as bad as a lot of people make it out to be.

Thank you, see you in the morning xxxxxx

Night night my lovlies

Please dont tell me off Shabby, just feel awful, woke up at 3.50am convinced I was dying, felt as though my heart was racing, felt sick, panicky....came down and just taken a diazapam, shaking like a leaf in my alcove, quite a lonley place at this time of the day! Anybody got any ironing they want doing........need to be busy, yet darent make any noise, thank God I can come on here, though the tapping of the keys sounds like thunder! This wont help me tomorrow I know, tomorrow, well in a few hours time. God I have turned into such a panicky person, never used to be like this. Shabby, I am sorry, I pulled you down with me, thats not fair, all this sadness wont help will it? Who would have thought all those years ago when we "met" through our boys, that one day we would both be on multiple mums! Should have taken a pill before I went to bed, that may have helped I suppose. At least Dh is sleeping, havent heard him get up once yet which is good. Think of all you Mums out there awake now with your babies, hand on my heart I never minded that, waking up to the soft snuffles of my babes, hearing them sucking their milk, that unforgettable smell of a baby, wonderful, they were such happy days, loved them all. Wish I didnt feel sick, oh you are all going to be so cross with me in the morning, must hide from Mars...............beginning to warm up now, wish this pill would knock me out for a few hours, they dont usually have much effect on me. This is <strong>so</strong> pathetic of me, feel cross with myself, need to go on a course for "how to deal with negative feelings and get on with life", getting to the stage now that I can hardly remember all the happy years before 94, feel as though everything has been crammed into the last 14yrs, feels like a lifetime. Fighting not being sick, need to keep my pill down! Just when I need a pile of ironing I havent got one, typical! Will go and see if I can find a crossword, sorry everyone, please don`t be cross, esp you Shabs, oh and you Mars, oh and you Momma, oh and you Frumpy...........

Now feeling very sick, better go, hope you are all tucked up, back later.

Morning ladies.

Trips - I am not mad with you and you didn't bring me down last night

I love talking to you about our children - you know what I am on about - even when I dont {grin]

I've only had a few hours kip as well and I don't care who is mad with me

What the hell am I doing up and wide awake at this ungodly hour on a Saturday

Got Robbie Williams greatest hits playing and the headphones plugged in so the derkster dosent know what I am doing! Just found myself singing very loudly 'I didnt loose my mind it was mine to give away' Ha Ha think the whole street know what I am up to now

The Robmeister sounds even better, very loud and right in my earholes

Been crying reading your conversation from last night Shabs and Trips.

Triplets, do you accept CATs through Mumsnet (no silly jokes!)? Only the way you were describing your feelings in the middle of the night struck a chord with me. I have not been through anything like what you have of course, but I have had some very down periods in my life, and I went for a type of counselling that really helped me at the time. I went in for 4 hours, burst into tears within seconds, but came out at the end of it exhausted and emotionally wrung out, but as though I could rule the world. So will try to get in touch with you separately.

I hope all goes well for you today.

Morning HM sorry we made you sad. Do you know the word skrike? Old lancashire word for cry. My grandma used to always say to me when I was very upset 'you skrike love, the more you skrike the less you will pee.'

See I come from a long line of absolute nutters.

Trips - (I always type your proper name and then delete it ) after this mornings results you and H can make a 'plan of action' anything can be sorted out when you put your minds together. Be strong my love, put the smile on and go get em

Morning Shabs - dont worry, its nice to see peoples honest feelings out in the open. Too many people bottle them up and dont talk about them, because too many other people (thinking the stiff upper British lip here) dont like to see signs of weakness.

My DH is a great support, but if I have a few very blue days (and I have them) he doesnt know what to do and seems to distance himself from me.

What I meant by that was that I think people should be taught about relationships and feelings at school. People are just expected to know how to handle things arent they?

Tomster is also up and running

He just went on the cbeebies web site. His thoughts behind this are the following:- 'Mum when you are looking after Lewis he will want to watch Night Garden so you have to find out all about it!'

OMG pmsl - every character on it is on drugs - Makkapakka - he rocks I thought teletubbies was insane but night garden exists on planet Shabster. Makkapakka is definitly on some kind of Methadone trip.

Im having to have night garden lessons and then DS1 is bound to give me 'pram pushing' lessons - cause I know NOTHING of child rearing.

Stop the world I want to get off

So agree with you HM. Tomster had sex education a few weeks ago - BUT - no education on 'say no to sex' 'emotions when you think you are in love' 'having a baby, when you are a baby is sooooooooo difficult'
None of those important bits.

I think I have manic depression - not making light of anybody who has - just read my posts and they are either manic or very depressing

Will be about an hour cause tom is going swimming soon. Trips - face on, head up, big smile and go get em. Talk later xxx

Here I am, survived the night...........Shabs I love the Night Garden, completely hung up about the Pontypines!!! My young man introduced it to me! Must "dash", love you all xxx

Night Garden Shabs, I can tell you all you need to know - Upsy Daisy, has a skirt that she likes to pull up a lot and enjoys kissing Iggle Piggle.

iggle Piggle has a red blanket that he takes everyehwere and is always holding hands with Upsy Daisy or falling over.

The POntypines live in one bedroom of a house, all 10 of them...and are very small and jump in and out of plant pots.

The Tombliboos are a threesome that all sleep together in the Tombliboo bush (!).

Makka Pakka is a bit of a freak, he pushes his Og Pog around and likes to clean peoples faces and stones and such like. I think he may have OCD.

Forms of transport include the Ninkynonk, a type of train thing, and the Pinkyponk, a type of hot air balloon come airship type thing.

There you go, thats all you'll need!

You forgot to mention that the tombliboos and the illegitimate offspring of iggle and upsy ...