d`y ever wonder why God made man?

[triplets]

So whats up with your tonight Shabs? Maybe he`s got a whiff of the ginger pig:o
I suppose God got it right sometimes for example
Colin Firth
Robmeister
Philip Glenister

feel free to add yours:)
Hope you all find us.........Kale Nits xx
ps Good luck tomorrow Shabs, do change those sheets!

Sounds a brilliant recommendation Trips PMSL....For 2 adults and Tom (who will be 14) by the time we travel - going out on 25th August and home on the 1st September - both flights during the day from Liverpool - they want £580 (return price) which works out £500 cheaper than the cheapest other flight we have found which was with Thomas Cook! Their price is also including the money for the baggage etc etc.

All the other airlines are charging between £300 - £350 each for the same day flights...PLUS their bits of add on fees.

Wonder if the devil would like to buy my soul?

Nikos (the beautiful one) says it is because Ryanair are starting flights to Rhodes this April for the first time. He said, and I quote, 'Is to make you think they are bravo, so is you go back again with them many times. Is very specially deal price!'

pixi - I have sent you a fb message

Morning girls xx

Morning Shabs, morning girls...........the butterflies are already fluttering....off to the oncolgist at 11am should get the results from the lung surgery, ohhhhhhhh. xx

Good luck Trips - hope everything goes well xx

Sending mine Rubester - you ok love? Whats wrong? xxx

rubes - you ok?

good luck with flights (&money) shabs

thinkinbg of you both trips

which will be mad 2 adults & 9 children

Hope everything goes well today Rubester xxx

Hi.........first of all massive massive positive vibes for you Rubester, pray all is well. xx
Well after my stomach turning somersaults the oncologist didnt hae the results!!! Whats new? Basically she has arranged a ful body ct scan in 4 weeks time. She also told us that in her opinion its not worth and I quote "keep chucking chemo at you as there is no evidence that it is making any difference as you havnt had a good response and I have given you everything I have already!"
That is not true, he has always responded well ,thats why he has been offered surgery!
So we came out abit deflated, he is looking so well, better than he did 3 years ago, but she didn`t even say that...........humph!

A relief for you Rubester. Yes the waitng is a nightmare, he seems quite calm, its me wo is in a tizz. I need a break, I have to have something to look forward to to be able to cope. I wanted us to get away for a few days at half-term, he has said today we cant go, cant afford to. He isn`t bothered about going, but he will be out and I will be in with the kids and all their mates who all seem to gather here.I need some space............no phones, no x-box, no rows.......feel very down and hate it, hate hate cancer:(

Oh my word Trips - you sound like me. I have had the biggest fall out with Tom today. Said his foot was hurting badly....so called his bluff and took him to the doctors. Doctor thought he had hurt his heel but nothing was broken. I then walked him all the way back to school and made him go in. He is now about 5ft 1in to my 4ft 10' and he tried to 'square up to me.' I got him by the back of his jumper and marched him into school. I then cried all the way home and for most of the day. He is not sure what to make of what I did today.

I will, never, ever, allow my sons to behave like their Dad has done in the past.....never, ever, ever, not in the memory of man. I am so angry and feel so let down by my entire family. Believe me when I say I WILL WIN THIS BATTLE.

Enough...enough...enough....life has been very difficult for me for many years - enough!

Oh Shabs............just what have we done in our lives to deserve all of this? I can feel your hurt, anger, shock at what happened today, so upset for you. Why is the world like it is, why do some have to struggle thru life whilst others sail thru it. Do we all get the same rewards in heaven??? I am so down tonight, very fed up with my lot, trying not to take it out on the kids, trying to pretend I am just tired, feeling guilty for feeling evil about H, blaming cancer for turning our lives upside down again, hate hate hate it. Can`t even find peace in my own four walls, house too small for that.................need to scream, but at the end of the day its not going to change things, not going to bring Matthew back, not going to get rid of that bloody disease thats taking over his body. I know life can be good, but its wearing me out trying to find it............... xx

I understand every single word you are saying Trips. Dont get me wrong I love all my kids as I know you do. BUT I saw that defiant look in Toms eyes today and I just thought NOOOOOOOO....knew I darent cave in, knew I daren't give up. When Dan got taller than his Dad I remember them almost coming to blows and I am not standing for it with Tom. I said to him tonight....'Come off the Wii and get to bed, this minute, I have had enough of all of you taking me for granted!!' Marched him up the stairs, tucked him in, kissed him and said my usual, 'Night love, have a good sleep and see you in the morning...Love you.' He replied as he normally does and hugged me!!! WILL keep him guessing for the rest of his teenage years as to what my next move is!

To be honest my dear friend, I dont think heaven or God exist. I really and truly dont. I reckon that this life is it....think we probably find our lost loved ones when we die....but I cant believe there is a superior being or a heaven. Knowing my luck I will need 20p more than I have got to get into heaven!!! Gone past caring to be honest xx

- for you Trips xxx

God that man is sexy......thats cheered me up Shabs
I have no idea if there is somewhere wonderful up there, I really don1t care where it is, I just want to see Matthew again............and when I have days like today its him I want to comfort me, to hear his voice come thru that door at 4.10pm every day and say....."hi Mum, its only me" I would give everything to hear his voice again:(

Oh yes I know where you are coming from there Trips. Lew shouted from the living room today....Mamma...Mammma....MAMMMA....Andma...Andma....ANDMMMMMMMMA....Shazzer....Shazzer...SHAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZER!!! LOL - went into the room and said 'WHAT????' - 'ello wovwey darling!!'

I wov music me Andma...just wov it!!!

He is some special little man.........bless him. Must get to sleep, trouble is I still feel angry and resentful.............................all will be well..........kale nits my dearest special friend xx

Goodmorning girls...............a short nights sleep full of weird dreams