Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 4 xxxxx

[littlebellsmum]

Less sadness, more joy but always lots of lovely people who understand

Make sure your retail therapy is for things like makeup. At least then you'll look like you're feeling better even if you're not!!!
Also if you're up for it try the film Step-brothers. Watched it last weekend and it gave an hour or so relief from that dark place we're all tempted to be in.

oh yes make up is always on the list, anything to help with the big bags under my eyes! know what u mean about that dark place, it keeps drawing me in, sometimes i cant see the light at the end of the tunnel. and i'm not helping by watching louise redkanpp on tv with her huge bump and all she's worried about is losing her baby weight to do a photo shoot. omg just be happy ur having a baby!

Arrrgggghh flicked over the TV & saw Louise Redknapp about to pick up Sporty Spice (who was still pregnant then) & I switched it right back. Eff off you smug cows!

Its deffo not good to watch stuff like that. I'm off to watch my Sky-plussed American Idol!

I'm just waiting on good old Grey's Anatomy coming on but know what you mean about pg women. We'll be them again one day..

Hmmm yes but until then it's an all-consuming obsession isn't it?!

Yeah but at least we're in it together. this time last week I thought i was all alone.

MLS have you managed not to test today?

Hello all - welcome to the " party" Bessie. Or at the very least a group of partially insane, jealous, desperate women who's idea of fun is 12 pg tests and a huge bag of mini eggs!

So sorry to hear your story - 17 weeks must have been horrible. It was bad enough at 10.

Neeko - well done girl and well done with your best friends baby. It will be hard when you have to tell her though.

Blue moon - I've also got holiday tomorrow and we are going away. The grandparents have arrived to baby sit and we are off to Paris for the weekend. Hurrah!! As everything is , it's a bit bitter sweet as I choose this weekend as I'd be about 4 months or so and it would be a good time to tell people and a great time to have a break before dc3 arrived. If I'd have known what I know now, I'd have kept this very previous weekend for my birthday or even our wedding anniversary but still. It will be lovely to get away and
I can drink all the red wine I like!!
And obviously dc3, will be made in Paris!

Neeko Ummmmmm busted! Yeah I did one this morning.... BFN! I was trying not to tell anyone as I feel stuuuupid for doing it 2 days after the last one!

Oh well could still be pregnant, I might also marry Prince William one day & be Queen of England!

Evening all

Just wanted to say welcome to Bessie and so sorry for your loss. Can't imagine how devastated you must be after 17 weeks. Were you able to get any answers about why it happened? Difficult to tell when the post-mc hormonal-emotional rollercoaster ends, every time I think I'm off it sweeps me up again or plunges me back in that dark hole... but I guess the days get less with time

Wishing Littlebellsmum a fab time in Paris

MLS sorry for the BFN... but it's very early so maybe there's still hope for this month??

I am off to GP in the a.m. so we can start the search for missing AF and check all my baby-making bits are still working ok. Feel nervous but glad to be doing something about it. Wish me luck.

Good luck 2nd destiny - lets hope the dr finds that everything is OK
MLS - still time, it's still early.

Hi Grey's Anatomy swept me along with it last night and didn't get chance to come back on. Still nice to forget if only for a wee while.
MLS I sensed you'd cracked when you said you were feeling down but there is still time so don't quite give up hope yet. if you were queen would you still talk to us?!
LBS enjoy Paris. It's a beautiful place and will do you good to get away.
2nddestiny Thinking of you today. Hope you get some good news.
Hope everyone else is staying away from the dark place or at least has a torch with them.
Put on a pair of trousers this morning that were dead tight last time I wore them (before MC) and they're hanging off me today. Would have been cause for celebration in my previous life. Does MC take the fun out of everything?
Have babysitter tonight so DH and I are off out for some time together. Do you think that will send signals to my body that I'm ready to try again??
Have a good day and I'll check in over weekend.

QueenMummyLovesSadie - the new name has quite a nice ring to it!

2ndDestiny - I hope all goes well at the GPs.

LittleBellsMum you mean to say there's something out there more fun than 12 pregnancy tests and a huge bag of Mini Eggs??????? Surely not?!

Hello ladies, how is everyone doing today?

2ndDestiny how did your docs appointment go?

I've had more spotting today. I have round 2 of my acupuncture tomorrow morning, not sure if lying down with needles in my head, tummy & feet is doing any good but I'll give anything a shot.

If af doesn't arrive early (due next week) I'm going to do hpt on Sunday. I'm willing myself to be strong & step away from the bag of hpt's but I can hear them calling!

hi everyone! sorry i missed all the chat last night, had a severe case of 2yr old projectile vomiting and a dog with a weeping abscess..all lovely stuff. i went back to work today and everyone has been so sweet, too sweet actually and just spent the day in tears.. i came home and made choc chip cookies for the kids, i have eaten most of them myself. i am jealous of Neeko not having to squeeze into those trousers, i seem to be eating for the entire family and going up like a barage balloon. im dying to hear how 2ndDestiny got on a gp.. its so lovely to not feel alone

just saying hi - have caught up on all your posts. You lot are all so lovely

Hello Giggle hows it going?

Hi. Nice to hear that other people have manic lives like mine. Had a loveley night out with DH - felt almost normal or a wee whle.
MLS been reading your posts on the other thread. Stop being so hard on yourself. I still think it sounds quite positive.
Hope everyone else is ok and is at least trying to do something fun this weekend. x

i was out too with DH, everyone was looking small and incredibly young, just goes to show how long its been since we made the effort to go somewhere in the evening! it was really lovely, strange though being out of comfort zone. hope everyone else has fun

Well I must have missed you all this evening, bet you're all in bed by now... or at work (or maybe even out on the town... glad to hear you've both had a nice evening out Neeko & Bessie, it helps to take your mind off things)

I've been working late trying to tie up loose ends before a break

Thanks for asking everyone, GP visit was uneventful... was kept waiting for over an hour (!) GP seemed unconcerned about lack of AF but is sympathetic so will start tests... have to wait 1 week to have bloods taken then a further 2 weeks for results, and also have to wait 4 weeks for an ultrasound scan. Oh well could be worse and in the mean time I'll have to get on with things and stop obsessing about it

I have a good distraction planned at least, we're moving house tomorrow so that'll keep me busy for a few days. Once settled we might plant something for our lost baby in the garden, to bloom around the EDD. Will be offline til Weds so take care all of you, I'll be back next week x

My goodness 2nddestiny do you never sleep? Hope house move goes well.
Bessie Glad to hear you went out last night too. It's nice to be somewhere where people treat you normally isn't it?
Being out last night has helped to lift my mood so I hope it lasts.

Not enough sleep at the mo Neeko, been over doing it but am hoping for a nice long break after the move... internet will be cut any minute, must dash and start shifting boxes!

Hi everyone, can I join in? Just been reading through this thread and seems like great support... we've just found out about our mmc, at 8 weeks, my first pregnancy. I go into hospital next week for medical management

Like others I just feel so envious of anybody pregnant right now. Everybody at my work seems to be. My SIL's sister is also pg and due around the same time I would have been

Of course I am sad to lose this little angel, but I know I can get through this. My real crippling fear is not ever being able to have a baby, which my Mum tells me is irrational but I want one so desperately

What, if anything, did people do to remember their little angel? We don't have a garden or I would plant a tree.

Hello & welcome Cupcake, sorry you have had to join us. You must feel very raw right now.

It's so difficult when you have friends who are pregnant & especially so when they have similar dates to what yours were. I have found the only way to cope has been to block out all thoughts of dates, weeks & thinking about what my bump size would be etc. Also ttc again for me helps as I'm desperate to get pregnant again - like all the others on this thread!

Believe me we all understand your desperation to have a baby & we are all gripped with irrational fears of one sort or another. We all suffer from over-thinking things - trying to work out what happened, what will happen & what we can do to make sure it doesn't happen again. Of course we don't have any of the answers but they are the questions that wake us up in the middle of the night & keep us awake until the alarm goes off. Be prepared to do your own head in to the point of exhaustion in the coming weeks!

On the subject of remembering your angel - I have a little box that I keep my + preg test, a letter from the hospital & my NHS free prescription card in. Also my dh bought me a bracelet with a cherub charm on it.

For now, eat chocolate, drink wine & pour your anger/frustration/tears out on Mumsnet.

Hi cupcakefairy.
You've found the cave already. Sorry guys I've been recruiting but cupcake has beaten me to this cave.

You're not being irrational I also had a t.o.p (that's a different story) and felt that the 1st mc was punnish ment as we'd been trying for two years at that point as it was.

Goood afternoon to everyone else. Hope the move goes well 2ndDestiny.