Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 4 xxxxx

[littlebellsmum]

Less sadness, more joy but always lots of lovely people who understand

LittleBellsMum that is a very clever tactic! That's where we're all going wrong with our packs of 20 pregnancy tests! I must remember not to buy any more (though i have a fair few to use up first!). You are right at day 27 it maybe isn't all over yet, but if I convince myself it is then the outcome can only be as expected or much much better.

I'm no good at blocking dates 3/9/9 is tattooed across my brain I think. I'm even reminded whenever I buy something thats £3.99! how silly!

hello again (busy thread today!)

lbm I've thought about it and know that my friends would be lovely to me and I would cry and I'm just not sure if I would be able to stop right now. So I've let them all know I won't be going and DP and I are going to go out for bit instead, it'll be my 1st time leaving the house since I came home from hospital so want it to be something easy.

graciegirl sorry you didn't get the result you wanted

MLS yes, that has been the worst part I'm really struggling with it and it is way TMI to discuss with anyone in RL.

gigglechick I can't believe this has been going on for so long for you. I really hope the surgery can sort it out for you.

bluemoon I'm still impressed that you managed it even if it was your way of coping!

bonyM I'm dreaming about it too

I'm sorry if I've missed anyone out, I've never been on a thread like this before and hope I'm following ettiquette here

Another TMI, hospital said if I'm still bleeding after a week to go back. Is this a week from the start of the bleeding or a week from going home?

Good night all x

Morning everyone. It's busy on here - not sure I can keep up.
GG sorry bout your BFN but there's still time and I have my fingers crossed for you.
MLS my symptoms are feeling more and more like AF so I'll more than likely be joining you on TTC next month but at least I'll have had AF again and will feel like it's a new start.
Giggle sorry to hear you're having problems and hope the surgery goes well.
LBS well done for your steely resolve. I have none of that!
buckbuck I think it's from the start of bleeding but if you're concerned at all then you should give them a call. It's better to be a little paranoid at this stage I think.
Hi to everyone else and hope you're all doing ok.

Morning everyone.

Thank you to you all for your responces. I haven't really talked to many people about how I'm feeling. Only a couple of close firends knew I was pregnant, and are at a loss to know what to say, and my partner, though as supportive as he can be, doesn't really understand how I'm feeling.

I had a natural MC in first week of Feb. While it was very painful and I passed lots of clots and what I think was the sac, I still had to keep going to do planned stuff with my daughter. She had her dance show on the saturday night which I wouldn't have missed for the world, so i sat in the audience, bent double, going off to the loo every 1/2 hour to change pads and pass clots. I suppose because I just kept going, my partner didn't see it as any more than a AF. I also only took the Monday off work and then got on with things as normal. My pregnancy symptoms disappeared as soon as I stopped passing clots and the bleeding stopped a week later.

I have since had one AF ( beginning of March ) and am currently due the next. Last month I was convinced I'd fallen pregnant immediately as I was having very different symptoms prior to AF then I used to get before MC. Now I'm experiencing the same again, the main one being extreme fatigue, thats why I've stocked up on pregnancy tests again. I'm at work barely able to keep my eyes open.
I hope I'm not going to be like this every month.
Thank you again for all who answered me yesterday. I can see that the feelings I'm having are fairly normal and it gives me great comfort.

MumofAdela funny what you say about the fatigue. Before mc I was so tired & had a sleep every day when my dd had her nap. Straight after mc it was like I'd had a shot of adrenaline & for weeks I had so much energy I was in the garden every day & doing really heavy work like laying paving stones. Now my af is back, so is the tiredness.

MummyLoveSaddie -- Yes, that is exactly the same as me. Fatigue wiped me out before my MC. Struggled to work properly and was having to go to bed very early every night. After MC I had so much energy, staying up late and still up early with loads of energy.

Has anyone else experienced this. the fatigue I'm now getting before AF is exactly the same as that while pregnant and sooooooooooo misleading.

Hello all!

MumOfAdela well done you for holding it all together for your DD, the strength of mothers never ceases to amaze me.

This is a great place isn't it? I have found real comfort here too.

I'm having a good day so far. DP and I went and did a bit of shopping earlier and then I popped in to say hello to my friends. I didn't stay for long but I'm glad I've seen them all now. They got the balance right too, they were all lovely but not too lovely IYSWIM!

Sending out positive vibes to everyone while I have them!

Take care all x

Me again!

I'm feeling really proud of myself as I saw neighbour in the street earlier who had a baby boy three weeks ago. She had carried him as she was just nipping to the local shop and had her hands full when she got back so I held him while she got her keys out.

TBH I had been dreading seeing her but her baby is lovely and I'm glad I did it now

"Buck Buck" - large pats on the back for you - what a great day! You went out, did see your clearly lovely friends and then held a baby. Well done girl, feel very pleased with yourself, you did well!
And don't worry about ettiquette - this is my first time on a thread too. I've never felt the need to be on one before but it has been so good to talk.

"MummyofAdela" . I know what you mean about the fatigue, with my other pregnancies I;d never been that tired but this time round I was having a nap everytime I got in from work before the kids went to bed. It did go with the mc. Feeling pretty tired today but think it's just as it's been manic. Af isn't due for another 2 weeks, so it can't be that! Your mc sounded a lot like mine and it was about the same time - I don't think I'll forget walking to school to get my dd 1 day after the mc, and feeling my pad leak and knowing that I still had to get her and walk home in light coloured jeans! TMI I know!!

"Neeko" - hope you're having a good day, and that af hasn't biten too hard yet. But like you say once it's over, it's a clean slate and you can start ttc again! Just think all that bding, wether you like it or not

Oh bugger - thought I was getting all clever and managing to do bold but got my " mixed with my *... bugger, bugger , bugger...

LBS your last post made me laugh. It's nce that I'm not the only one not entirely sure what I'm doing with this posting malarky! AF hasn't got me yet and I'm mighty confused by what's going on. Really just want to know one way or another.
BuckBuck congratulations. You've been really brave today - well done. Don't worry if you don't feel so brave tomorrow. That's normal as brave days are very draining but you're clearly ready to start recovering.
Mumofadela I was also totally whacked before my MC and have regained a lot of energy. Nearly fell asleep at work today but think that was because the sun was streaming in the window.
How's everyone else today?

Laughter is good!! I'll try and make all the mistakes I can.
Hoe's your day been, Neeko?

YAAAAAH - I got it right. Pat on the back and a large bag of mini eggs for Littlebells mum!!

Ha Ha. Don't know what you're doing but it's not quite working!
Today's been quite a sad day for me and I'm not sure why. Have only been back at work a week today but think forcing myself to be "normal" is taking it out of me. My face has all broken out in dry patches and everything. Have a cheek to complain though as stop tomorrow for two weeks so can fall to pieces then if I need to.
Well done for being brave and posting on the onwards and upwards. I've been lurkng ther for a week too!

Evening ladies, im just popping on quickly as am shattered after v busy day at work, never mind am off now till Monday.

BuckBuck-Well done for going to meet your friends, it would have been so easy for you to make an excuse not to have seen them, but you did it you went and met them.I know after my mc i felt like locking myself away, i didnt really want to see anyone but my DH and DS, but once id dragged myself out to visit friends, it was such a relief. Hope you're ok physically and the blleeding isnt too heavy.

MumofAdela Sad welcomes to our cosy cave.I found this a great place for support in my darkest days post mc, i didnt want to go on too much to my friends in RL cos even though they are lovely and would do anything for me, i dont think they really understood, and my DH was so devestated he couldnt really talk about what had happened, its only been past fortnight or so, he has been opening up to me bout it, and im now almost 9 weeks post mc.

Neeko-You were asking if anyone had fell pg post mc before their first AF was due, i did after my first mc in 2004, i had mc at 6 weeks, two weeks later i ovulated, got BFP two weeks after that, unfortunately this too ended in mc at 6 weeks, EPU says was just very unfortunate and not linked to being too soon post first mc. I waited then till id had proper AF, fell pg straight away which resulted in my DS now aged 3,I was pregnant 3 times in 6 months-mad eh?

Hope Cupcake,BlueMoon,Cformilo,LBS,MLS,GG,Bionic,BoneyM,and Gigglechick are all as well as can be.

Thanks Aniecam I don't think it's really going to be an issue but nice to know that it's not any more dangerous. Hope you're doing ok.

OOPS! Sorry I spelt your name wrong!

So, you see, Neeko, it's not just me tonight!!
You're a teacher aren't you - the lovely Easter holidays start tomorrow don't they? My dd's school has gone easter mad tomorrow - hunts, chrch service, bonnets and a fair. My ds is very jealous that he can only go to two of the bits!!

And you should join the upwards thread - Gracie caught me out and it could be you next! Basically, I flicked onto the thread and found my name...
Get through tomorrow and you have two full weeks off - hurrah! I have childcare hell and mil for a week ( to cover childcare)!! But looking forward to it - I love Easter, must be something to do with all the eggs...

buck you've had a great day - well done you! i know seeing your friends would have been hard, but you've broken the ice now and you won't be worrying about it next time you meet up with them. so proud of you for holding a newborn, i really don't think i could do that yet without blubbing.

was talking to a girl at work at today, she and hubby trying for baby no 2, will be so upset if she gets pg before me not sure how i'd cope with that, but she did go through mc before her daughter was born so i'd still be over the moon for her.

anniecam hope all is well with you

hi to all the other girls

Yes I'm a teacher and, much as I love my job, the holidays are a definite perk. Not sure I'm quite ready for the onwards and upwards thread but might join you there in a while. Enjoy the Easter extravaganza tomorrow.

Evening all!

anniecam cosy cave is the perfect description for here

MumofAdela I was napping every day too. I hadn't really thought it could be linked to mc, but when I had to sleep, I had to sleep, I even fell asleep with all DC causing mayhem aound me and I never napped in the day even when I had a 20 month old and a newborn!

neeko Are you waiting for your AF? [dim emoticon] Fingers crossed it goes right for you! I've got the dry skin patches too - grr! And spots too! Not painting an attractive picture of myself am I? lol! I'm trying the oil cleaning from the style and beauty thread, gotta be worth a go

lbs You really have made me LOL with your bolding (or lack of!) in here - and your bugger, bugger, bugger!

bluemoon It'll happen for you soon I'm sure x

I'm really tired this evening but feeling pleased too. i am the worst person for burying my head and ignoring unpleasant things so today was a big challenge to confront all of the things I have been thinking would be the hardest to deal with.

I had a little wobble at coffee, one of the mums has a 8 week old and I've been talking about breastfeeding with her(I trained as LaLecheLeague peer supporter) and had to take a BIG breath before I could speak to her.

But seeing 2 new babies today has helped me realise that they are their mum's babies and no baby can ever replace the one we have lost. Not sure that makes much sense but def helped me!

A bit apprehensive about tomorrow, 1 week since I started to bleed, so I've nothing planned and have bought 4 bags of mini eggs just in case!

Night all x

I do mammoth posts!

Really need to learn to be a bit more succinct

Ah hello again ladies - so many posts! My computer seem to let me on some days and not on others [hmm} so takes me a while to catch up on postings.

See we've had a few more ladies join us here so here's a hug for all you new ladies - not the place you really want to be right now, but here you'll find a good group of ladies who will give you virtual hugs and encourage you to over indulge in chocolate... particularly mini eggs!

I'm doing alright today - yay! Trying to figure how to get sofa from freecycle as our one has collapsed totally! We have one on offer, but it's convincing friend to pick up for us in his van as won't fit in our car.

Right well on that note I'll wander off and leave you all to it...

Buckbuck hope you're day is better than you expect. Still no sign of AF for me and don't know whether to hope that it'll come or to hope that I'v miraculously fallen pg since MC! Hormones are a killer!

BlueMoon we Xed last night. Hope you're doing ok today. won't matter who's first as long as you both have healthy babies (God I sound rational - I'm not!)

Bionic Good luck with the sofa!
Happy Friday to everyone else

Buckbuck hope you're day is better than you expect. Still no sign of AF for me and don't know whether to hope that it'll come or to hope that I'v miraculously fallen pg since MC! Hormones are a killer!

BlueMoon we Xed last night. Hope you're doing ok today. won't matter who's first as long as you both have healthy babies (God I sound rational - I'm not!)

Bionic Good luck with the sofa!
Happy Friday to everyone else