Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 3 xxxxx

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so here we are on part three, let this one be fun of happy news.....

curly tons of baby dust to you xx
scamper my dating scan is tomorrow afternoon and I'm a bag of nerves....will go and build that igloo I think
Sad welcome napa, take it a day at a time xxx
Hi blue enjoy your toddler time xx

Hi wasa that hypnotherapy sounds like just what I need, but I'll settle for the igloo building for now . I'm glad you got your BFN because now you know where you're at, and can move forward, good luck xx

Thanks VJay and once again good luck for tomorrow. I will be logging in a tea time to see good news! Enjoy igloo building...

Good luck for your scan tomorrow Vjay - will be thinking of you.

A sad welcome to all our new joiners. I am keeping up with everything but am in a relatively foul and despairing mood these days with nothing much to say, so have reverted back to lurking on the sidelines for a while - am thinking of you all though

jools lovely lady I dont like to hear of you being down. I have been lurking on your conception thread feeling pretty despairing myself - not quite sure if I want to dip my flipper back in. I've finally finished bleeding so I guess tis all a good sigh that things are going back to normal.

vjay crossing everything for you.

Thanks girlies, I will let you know how I get on xx

Hello everyone, I've just left the Sept thread, was due on 3rd sept. I went for a 10 wk scan on monday and no heart beat. Its my first pregnancy. I'm in bits.
I've been sent home to miscarry but have a ERPC booked for next tuesday if I don't start to miscarry by then.
My husband works away and this snow is driving me mad! Snowed in so can't go and see my friends. Watching crap DVDs (carefully selected to have no sad bits in them)and eating chocolate. It some how doesn't seem right to have any alcohol yet. My thoughts are all over the place.

Hello ladies I just wanted to pop in and wish VJay GOOD LUCK!!!!!!

Love you all

Hi all

Sad welcome to napa and GracieGirl - thinking of you both.

wasabi - I was wondering how you were getting on. I always thought getting the bfn was another step along the way and a line drawn under another stage of the whole process. I'm intrigued about the hypnotherapy - I had counselling after my 2nc m/c and she told me she was a trained hypnotherapy. I had acupuncture after the first one - I think anything positive you can do makes you feel more in control.

Vjay good luck for today!

Blue - hope the house survived!!

I still haven't heard from the consultant, so will try calling today... Am starting to feel a bit nervous now..

HI to Jools, Mermaid, Sabs, Scamper, Zen and everyone else!

Just a quick post to say good luck today VJ xxxx

Back soon to catch up properly!

thanks for all the welcomes guys. Had the erpc at 11pm last night and left hosp at 1am (no way they were keeping me in). It wasn't as straight forward as expected so dr advised at least 10 days off to recover physically.
Hi to gracie I lurked around the sept thread, if I remember you work in A&E (if thats wrong sorry, still recovering from GA!), sorry to hear your news, thinking of you in the next few days.
If its ok I think I stick around on this thread. this is the second mmc and erpc in a year for me and this seems to be a good place to be, I will try and learn all your names but it'll take some time!

Hi napa - like you, I joined this thread after my 2nd mmc and erpc, and haven't looked back - the support is fantastic.

Well, I have heard nothing from my consultants PA, so called - and she's on holiday!!!! So will have to wait until Monday...

Thanks for the welcomes everyone.

Yes Napa I work in A&E. Going to see the GP on Monday about a sick note, I'm really not sure how long I should take off work after the ERPC on Tuesday. I'll need to be strong enough to look after others having miscarriages and do the job properly. As well as being able to stop myself wanting to throw things at patients who are pregnant and don't want to be! Or are taking drugs whilst pregnant!

Hi ladies, the scan went well and lo is 11+2 weeks. Thanks for all your thoughts, you've realy kept me going xxxxx

VJ that is such great news. Will you get any more re-assurance scans now or do you have to wait till 20 weeks? Hope you are enjoying the snow!

Napa and gracie I'm so sorry for your losses You are very welcome to our lovely cave and I hope we can help. I had an ERPC too after a MMC and rushed back to work a few days later. It really wasn't a good idea. If you can get signed off for a couple of weeks then I would.

zen hope you are feeling better honey. Any sign of stupid AF?

Jools I hate to hear you sounding so down. You've had a horrible 2008 but from now on things will get better. Is there any chance you could get away from all this for a while so you and DP can relax? If a holiday isn't a possiblity, then I'm sending 400 tonnes of calorie free (make that negative calories) totally delicious chocolate your way to make up for it

Sabs how are you doing? Has the pain and spotting gone away?

Wasabi I'm glad you got your bfn. I'm sending a big hug your way, I know its hard but this is a milestone and it can only get better from here. Hang in there hon xxx

Mermaid hope the snow has stuck around and DH and DS are having fun

Heebee I can't believe your consultant! Hopefully no news is good news, but then even bad news is good news cos it would mean you have answers (curly scratches her head and confuses herself at this point )

How did the toddler mayhem go Blue? Thanks for the much needed lecture sweetie, I have stepped away from the pregnancy tests and agreed not to do one till at least next week.

Speaking of which I need my monthly slap in the face from you girls. I'm getting far too excited with some ridiculously optimistic symptom spotting and I'll be crushed again if AF arrives. Why do I do this to myself? I can't believe a friend of mine managed to not realise she was pregnant till she was three months gone AND she doesn't seem convinced about whether she even wants to be pregnant. Grrrr

Big waves to positivethinker kym snowflake ginger mm scamper barbie lionstar mollie anniecam giraffe VM 4ever and anyone I've missed xxx

Hey everyone,

VJAY - so pleased for you, what great news you give us the hope we need. I hope you got a little pic aswell x

Curly - stay strong and keep well away from those tests!! As another day goes by its one step closer.

Napa and Gracie - I am so sorry for your losses i am really am.Like all the girls in here and one of the most recent I completly understand what your going through as it was 3 weeks ago today I had my ERPC with my first pregnancy
The girls have been absolutly brilliant in here, and have made me realise im not mad, i am justified in how I feel and that life will continue when i'm ready x My thoughts are with you.

Heebee - make sure you get onto that consultant first thing Monday!! What a pain.

Lobeov - glad to see your still popping in, miss you daily notes to us, hope you and your family are doing well xx take care of each other.

Wasabi - glad you got your BFN, its a bit of a relief isnt it? At least its another step forward now. Hope you feel ok about it x

Hey to the rest of the gang sabs jools anniecam positivethinker kym snowflake ginger mm scamper barbie lionstar mollie giraffe VM 4ever xx

I feel better again today would love to TTC this weekend but dont think it will happen as we are both full of a cold, dh thanks me for sharing it with him x Am now doubting myself and hoping bfn was true because ov test shows am ovulating
Although am excited at the chance of ttc again, am so scared and keep wondering if too soon and not given myself enough of a break. Will it just end short again if we are successful this time? will i be lucky again so soon? I also got a bit annoyed today as a friend gave birth yesterday and did nothing but complain about her pregnancy and all i want to do is slap her and tell her how lucky she was and is to have something so precious that many ppl would kill for. My other 6 month pregnant friend didnt seem to share my thoughts and thought i was a bit out of order. Oh well cant win them all x

Hope you all have a fab weekend, im going to do some decorating and we have decided to get life a bit more in order so that we can be more relaxed next time around x

I am SO weak. Went out for dinner with DH and after a guilt-ridden glass of wine decided to do the test after all. Anyway, got a BFN, so back to trying again next month I wish AF would hurry up and arrive now

VJAY I'm so happy for you!!!!!
I can't help it I need to know what is going.

I love you all

oh that's just great news about your scan Vjay . How's the igloo holding up?

Sorry to hear you got a BFN curly, fingers and toes crossed for next month (xmas baby maybe ?)

gracie, napa and Zen hop you are all OK today. Zen - you have to do what feels right for you re: ttc. Everything I have read (and that's ALOT) says there is no medical reason to delay ttc (unless you have a very late mc) but you have to feel mentally and emotionally strong enough.

gracie - that must be so hard working in A&E just now (or any time!). Hope you get the week off.

Heebee - hope you get your results on Monday - what a palaver..

Jools - sorry to hear you've been feeling down x

Toddler time went well on Thurs - I did feel like Nanny McGee dishing out tissues/wipes/juice and biscuits (and that was just to the Mum's!)but a great time was had by all.

Its a lovely crisp sunny winter's day up here, with just a hint of spring...

to everyone x

Curly when is AF due?, Did you test too early?, if so you could still be in with a chance, it's not over till the red witch arrives
I don't get a 20 week scan up here, that's it now, but I may go to Aberdeen and pay for a private scan.
Thankyou for all your lovely messages xxxxx

good afternoon,

good news on the scan VJay

hope you're ok today gracie and zen

I've managed to spend most of my time in bed since coming out of hospital. DH took DD to ballet and has now taken her to his mum's for a while. I feeling tired and pretty bruised, physically worse than last years erpc, but emotionally I was too scared to get attached to this pregnancy so don't seem to be as upset as last time yet.

Hope everyone else is ok

Great news Vjay

Curlywurlee - slapped wrist for testing early . I still have everything crossed for you and, if it isn't this month, we can hold hands together next month

Sad welcome to Napa - I have a sad habit of lurking on knicker checkers in the hope I might get there sometime soon, so have seen you around.

Not much to report from me - knowing I can't possibly be PG this cycle has gone from liberating to boring. AF due to arrive Valentines Day - nice timing . Am hoping DP will be more in the mood in 3 weeks time and I can look forward to having a proper stab at TTC.

For some reason I keep dreaming about the MC and it is really getting to me now - when it all happened so suddenly, I was terrified and not thinking straight - I should have phoned my GP, but ended up rifling through my notes for the number of the a/n dept at the hospital where I had my booking in appt and asked the secretary there (in floods of tears) what I should do - why on earth I went hunting for that number I'll never know - I couldn't even remember the name of the MW I'd met. They told me to go to Watford General, so off I went, but being there, bleeding out in a waiting room under contruction with no working loos really didn't help - why didn't I stay at home ? They didn't do anything much there anyway and I would have been far less traumatised at home.

Why on earth am I reliving all this ? I just wish it would stop and I could move on, but I truly believe I can't till I get PG again

sorry for the rant

Thanks girls, I know I shouldn't have tested so soon but I have no patience. Got confirmation today as the evil witch has arrived. Will be nice to have company of Jools MM Zen and anyone who's ok to try next month anyway

Jools I was reading your post and I didn't realise at first that you weren't just talking about a bad dream That is such a horrible experience, as if the loss of your lo wasn't bad enough. I know it's hard not to relive it, or to not obsess about TTC, but we don't know when it's going to happen so how about we make a pact to enjoy ourselves and do all the things NOW that we can't do once we get pregnant. Maybe then we'll relax and the whole TTC thing will just happen. I hate hearing you sound so miserable even though I totally understand as have been completely obsessing (to the point of driving my DH mad) for the last couple of months.

I'm taking a leaf out of Zens book - we're clearing out the spare room and the paint brushes are coming out! I might have some wine and blue cheese later on too

zen I reckon both your friends need slapping - maybe with a wet lettuce. I'm sure we'll all complain when we're pregnant but maybe not to friends who have just had a MC

Blue (or should I call you Nanny McGee!) it's been lovely and sunny down here too. Daffodils and tulips are poking their heads out so I can't wait for Spring either.

Napa I hope it is a bit easier this time for you Just concentrate on getting yourself better physically. Sending a big hug your way

VJ have you got a doppler? You can get them on ebay and pick up a heartbeat from about 11 weeks. Sorry, am obsessing on your behalf now

Big wave to everyone else. Hope you are doing okay

Hello ladies,hope you all having a good Sunday.

Gracie and Napa-Sorry about your losses,like you both i too have recently had a mmc,picked up at nuchal scan at 12 weeks,its heartbreaking isnt it? I took 2 weeks off work and boy did i need it.

Scamper and VJay-Great news on your scans, i am so so happy for you both, i was keeping everything crossed for you.

Lobeov-So sorry you are leaving us,you have obviously made the right decision for you and your family-incase you do change your mind and reside back here i,ll keep you a seat just incase

Zen-Hope you are okay and recovering. We too have took a leaf out of your book and trying to get more prepared for when i am pregnant again (annie being optimistic).
Getting jobs finished round the house,making space etc.

Curly-still keeping fingers crossed that you get your BFP.

Wasabi-Glad you got your BFN- i got a BFN yesterday and am so pleased. It seems weird saying we are so happy having a BFN, it means we can put a line under it and move onwards and upwards.

Jools-So sorry you are feeling so down. Hope you start feeling better soon and after your AF arrives you and your DP jump back on the TTC bandwagon with a vengeance.

Big waves to everyone else and hope you are all doing well.

I went back to work Wednesday and it went well,everyone at work was so lovely and supportive, and it was good to be back.

I have a very large hangover today as i was at my friend,s 30th birthday last night. It was the first time i have had a few (well a lot actually!)drinks since October. Got to bed at 3-30am, luckily DS was at his Godmothers house for the night,so managed a lie-in till 10am. I feel so ill today,poor me!

Take care everone XX

Hi curly I thought about getting a doppler but dh won't let me, he knows that if I couldn't find a heart beat I would go absolutly bonkers with worry, so I will leave it for the miswives to do.