Emmsys angels xxx support for mummies of lost angels part 3 xxxxx

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so here we are on part three, let this one be fun of happy news.....

Sorry I've not been around much - my mum is down for the weekend, so just popping in to say

4ever I'm so, so sorry. It is so bloody unfair

I'm also thinking of vm anniecam wasabi Zen and lobeov

Hello to everyone else

Hello!
Sorry VM, my heart really goes out to you. I am new to this forum, just wanted to say how sorry I am to hear about everyone's experiences of mcs. I really hope things work out and everyone at some point has great news to share. I am staying positive and wishing for the best, but there are days where I just want to sit and cry. This is my story:
I am 30 years old going onto 31 next month. I am a reception class teacher and working with 4-5 year olds.I have had 5 pregnancies which I have lost. My ordeal started in April 2003 when I first fell pregnant, which resulted in bleeding and no real explanation, Dr's think it was an ectopic which resovled itself. 2nd preg was July 2003, this preg resulted in an ectopic pregnancy in the right tube, the tube had ruptered but I was in no pain. It is only when they operated they found out that I was bleeding internally,one more day and I would have died. As a result of this they had to remove my right tube. 3rd preg Sept 2004, ectopic in the left tube, the pregnancy was removed and I was able to keep the tube with scaring. 4th preg May 2008 in the womb all was going well, but it turned out to be mmc, had a ERPC on June 18th 2008 at 6 weeks of pregnancy. 5th pregnancy Dec 2008 which also resulted in a miscarriage at 6 weeks, on its own this time no surgery needed. I have finally been refered to the Recurrent Miscarriage unit at St Mary's hospital and now am just waiting for an appointment.
I think about my little angles everyday and hope and pray that I will hold a baby of my own in my hands one day.

Love to all, sorry for the long post, but I needed to let tell my story to people who would know how I feel.
I am praying for all of you!!!!

Hi positivethinker, welcome to emmsys. You have been through such a tough time, but you come across as being very brave. I have had 2 mc's, both very different and hard, but there other ladies on here that have had more, sadly. I do hope you get some positve answers from St Mary's, is that the hospital Lesley Regan is at? Keep us posted, and feel free to post as many long posts as you wish, and don't appologise for them xx

Thanks VJay. Sorry to hear about your mcs. Will keep you posted. They say about 5-6 weeks until I get an app, so I should be seeing them in mid march.

Hopefully the time will fly by and before you know it you will be getting some answers.

4ever I am so so sorry to to hear your news hon, life is too hard sometimes. I'm relieved you have such a lovely DH , please pass this message on to him too. You guys will both need a lot of TLC over the next few days and weeks especially. Am writing this on train to see a friend in Suffolk with tears rolling down face, as others have said, I wish I could give you this (((hug))) in person. Nobody ever warns you life can be this sad. Please stay true to your name though and don't lose that hope. Without hope and love, none of us would make it I think, so hang on to them with both hands xxx

positivethinker welcome to our cave, and I am sorry for your lost angels and everything you've been through. This is exactly the place for long posts, you can rest assured that there are ladies from London to Scotland to Dubai and the States who will be reading and truly sympathising with your experiences.

Ladies, what a sad week. To all of you reading this, all I can say is you are not alone. We will be there for each other, writing our lives and losses, and in that way none of our angels will go unremembered. I hope my LO is still with me, have been taking low dose aspirin on a wing and a prayer, also acupuncturist stuck needles in my big toe (v weird) which is supposed to prevent mc. TBH I'm up for anything which might make a difference. Next scan on weds 4 feb at 2pm when should be around 8 weeks, I'll let you all know how it goes

Hello ladies..
It has been a sad week but it will get better..
lots of hugs and positive thoughts

Love you all

Lo

positivethinker I'm so sorry..but I'm glad you found these ladies, they are teh best, I had a Mc in oct at 5weeks and my second one at 8 wees I had a D&C(EPRC)done 2 weeks ago.
They help a lot, you are very sad now but it gets better just take it easy.

Hi scamper good luck for your scan on Wednesday xxxxx

Hi All,

This is my first post, and i am really hoping that i can get some advice from women in the same situation or have being through this traumatic experience?

For the past 5 years my husband and myself have had 4 miscarriages, i have being through the whole NHS tests at both our local hospital, we then fought to get referred to St Mary's and had another round of tests, with yet again 'nothing found'. During all this I searched on 'reasons' and did alot of research on NK Cells, so off we went to Lister as we had some cash available for testing. We had the CD69 (level 2), ana, aoa, X deletions and cystic carrier..phew! I have just being told by the nurse that i have NK cells at a high level, we await the rest of the results back.

Basically i was hoping to find out if anyone has had this testing done and your experience of it please? And your experience of Lister (Dr Thum) in particular

Thank you

Welcome positivethinker and kym, glad you have found us. What a time you have both had . Pull up a comfy chair/beanbag and settle in.

kym - I've not had any tests so can't help you but maybe one of the other ladies can.

Well its February tomorrow, a new month and a step closer to spring. Ever since I was a wee girl I've always looked forward to spring, I get the 'anything is possible' feeling with the longer nights and warmer weather. Lets hope this spring brings happy news for us all xx

kwm78 Hello ! I'm so sorry for your losses but I'm glad you found us. I just started with my testings so I can't really help you at leat for now, I'm sure that any of the other ladies will be able to.

blue I'm sure this spring will be great for all for us, just be positive ,that atracts good energy!!!

Scamper GOOD LUCK!!!!

4ever I hope you are feeling a little better today.

To rest I hope you have a good weekend and remember everyday gets a little better.

I love you all

Hey there Positive and Kym - I'm so sorry for your losses, you both sound very strong. As Blue says, make yourself at home, it's a lovely warm safe cave and there is nothing we can't get through together. I hope you get some answers Positive . After one MC and one MMC last year, we got referred for tests too. So far nothing but we've to wait another 6 weeks for the chromosomal test results. Kym it might be worth posting your questions as new posts as well - just use your question in the title so you've a better chance of everyone seeing them. There is bound to be someone who has the answers

Hope you have fun with your mum Heebie

Scamper I'm very excited (and relieved) to see you back. I'll be thinking of you on Wed hon. How is the morning sickness? I'm officially on the 1ww wait now, and symptom spotting like the wind

Lovely to hear you sounding so cheerful Blue and Lobeov

Big wave to everyone else, and a big hug to those who need it. I am thinking of you xxx

For Fuck sake, 4ever i cant believe read just logged on to facebook and the girls have said we had sad news on here and it took my a day to be brave enough to check, im crying tears of frustration and sadness for you.
Dubai is hot now, sunny and maybe just the place you need to retreat too. If you want to come out i can go to the hotels for you and make a booking (its cheaper to do it from here than the uk) or if you just want any info i can help you, just yell!.....
Hello everyone else, the villa is ours but still no belongings until we get our visa however dh knows how much i need the internet so we are trying to get a bed delievered by next weekend and we will camp in our own house just so we can get connection, thats how much i love you all
Im kinda freaked out about lack of af, i think jools said soomething about not ovualating so im off later this week to register with a gyne and make an appointment for as soon as my visa arrives [bloody visa! ) apart from that sun bathing job hunting is takiing up most of my time but im lurking!

Big hugs xxx

ps, sorry for the grammer and spelling....a little rushed due to lack of internet time remaining...also how strange is the new layout???! i though i lost you all for the minute

Hello Ladies!!
4ever I hope you are feeling a little better today, I know it is hard to stay positive sometimes but it will happend, i will be praying for you, because you and the rest of the ladies here they deserve the best.

I love you all

Hello, I'm new here. My daughter had a first miscarriage last week and watching her grief is terrible. I know how she feels because I nearly miscarried at 13 weeks and then gave birth to premature twins at 26 weeks one of whom died after 5 hours. I found this site looking for something to comfort her, and my heart goes out to all of you. I have had to leave her to go back to work, but it's breaking my heart. When I try to talk about it to others they say all the stupid things that people say. I just wanted to speak to someone who could understand that the grief, the loss, the fears and anxieties are all real and can't be swept away. I know it would help her to communicate with others in her situation but I think she is too raw to do so at the moment. Love and hope to all of you.

Hi Snowflake just wanted to say I'm sorry for your loss - and of course your daughter's loss. She's very lucky to have a mum who can understand. My mum had a miscarriage too and she's really helped me get through it.

Her hormones will likely be all over the place at the moment. The first few days are just this awful grief and she may need some time to herself. Don't feel guilty about leaving her, she knows you'll be there for her.

Tell her we'd love to have her join us if she wants to and when she's ready.

Take care xx

Well said curly and yes snowflake - we'll be here when/if your daughter wants to talk. What a lovely Mum you are x

So much sad news, so good to have each other. My mum has been so good, quietly understanding, these messages made me realise she lost a baby too (i had completely forgotten, i think she was about 12 weeks, she had a coil and it dislodged, she didnt know she was pregnant initially and by the time she knew everything started to go wrong). I remember her being quite ill, no wonder she's been so fab, i feel such an idiot now. Big hugs to all.

Morning ladies. Welcome to positive and kym, you,ve found a good place to hang out here as these ladies are lovely.

Hope everyone as well as can be. I am glad we are now in Feb as i can put January behind me and we are closer to Spring. Im hibernating today as cold and snowy outside. DS at nursery, so ive got a few hours where i can do what i please,probably ironing!

I return to work on Wednesday, and in a weird way i am quite looking forward to it, dont feel too bad at the minute both emotionally and physically but am aware those hormones can come back and bite me on the bum when i least expect it.

Good luck for your scan on Wednesday Scamper, i will be rooting for you.

Sending much love to everone else.XX

Hello ladies, sorry i havent posted for a long time on here, RL has been taking over a bit, plus ive been just stressing (i know I shouldnt) over this new pregnancy. I'm now 6+2, and due to have my 7-week scan next Tuesday 10th.

I have been lurking though, and want to say how sorry I am to VM and 4ever, I know nothing I say can make it any better, but just to let you know i'm thinking of you lots

Also a welcome to all the new ladies, so sorry you have had to join us, but the support on here is amazing.

Well, last week, I had a bit of brown discharge, but then yesterday it got heavier. I've also got a cold and sore throat, which is exactly what i had before my last mmc kicked off

Rang NHS Direct, who told me to ring my out-of-hours GP service. They then told my to go into my local A&E, where they have a new GP out of hours service located there. Saw a doc who was so unhelpful who made me feel like i was just being a paranoid woman who was wasting his time, who didnt even examine me internally, just checked my temp, throat, urine, chest, blood pressure etc. I didnt even want to go in, it was the GP i spoke to on the phone who said I should go in to be examined. I even took the (sorry TMI alert!) panty liner as evidence, and asked him if he wanted to see it, and he wasnt really interested.

I've not gone into work today, so just enjoying the snow from indoors. DH is working from home and is taking good care of me.

Does anyone have any experience (good or bad) of brown discharge. I have been reading a thread on the pregnancy board, which has been helping.

Or maybe i just need someone to tell me to snap out of it and stop worrying for nothing

sabs hi snowy ladyno snow here just bright sunshine. Can you doc get you into epu maybe just for an itsy bitsy little scan. I am sure you are ok but putting minds and hearts at rest is a huge big thing. at stupid dr at a&e. I know exactly what you mean about feeling paranoid and its not ok to be made to feel like that sweetie. Just take it easy, watch the snow and get pampered for the day.
waves to everyone.

Hello Sabs- Is there an EPU you could ring to go in and get scanned today?

I have had experiences of brown discharge both good and bad. My first mmc i had brown discharge, i also had the same at about 6 weeks or so with my DS, it had it for about 3 days both times.

Hope its good news for you X

Hi sabs, hope you're ok. Same as anni8e for me. Had spotting withh dd2 and went to term but also started mcs in same way. i think you need to get proper support and help. Doc sounded awful!